rawr. i think i really cannot play floorball. cos i think i haven't grasp the thing about it. sheesh. maybe it would be even more fun if i grasp the thing about how to use the floorball stick. PROPERLY.


and i can't believe that stupid weighing scale. gained a couple of kg(s) since sch reopened. dang. after all that excercise from walking that disgusting slope everyday and going for gym lessons for S&W and floorball. man.


argh. im tired and i wanna sleep. and did i say that i need to do cats hw? and i dunno wad to use as my topic. blearghx.


I dun like THIS!!!! rawr. nothing's going my way.

Labels: happenings., rants., tired.

unproductive day studying. gaah. GILLIAN GOH, wad on earth have u been doing?!


sighs. i have a more productive day shopping and also on the stuuf that was said in the bible on bgr.


speaking of that, i must say that im not ready for bgr and currently not looking for a 'significant other'. like the thought of getting married scares me. and after bgr, it's marriage. NOOOO. i dun want to get married. at least for now.


wells. anyway, i dun think any one would actually like me. blearghx. like im so not the typical girl that ppl would like. so i shouldn't really worry about getting married young huh?


sorry if this post sounds rubbish to you, cos it sounds gibberish to me too. this is the effects of letting gillian go sleep- deprived. therefore, if u want to be nice to her, let her have her beauty sleep.

Labels: happenings., random, tired.

(typed in sch) yay. finally it's friday again. marks the end of the second week of sch.


oh wells. this week been pretty fun, having to do stuff together with my friends and being hardworking (tho i must admit that im actually pretty slack) and also making new friends.



updaates
to all friends in np (esp fangling, aishah, lynn, laiying, edward, and all my other partners in class): thank you for making my week so enjoyable! =) love ya all loads!


i can't wait to sleep till noon man, but right now im still waiting for my dinner. (typed at home)

Labels: appreciations, happenings., rants.

eeeks. noticed alot of typo errors in my previous posts, but heck, im so not going to bother about it anymore.


im always typing in the dead middle of the night sia. hehe. pretty random.


after saying how good is to do QT on the bus, I actually forgot to bring my devotional book la!!! so irritating.


oh wells. but i still did my devotions on the bus cos thank God i brought my lappie to sch cos i needed to dl software like microsoft office.


oh wells. shall go do some gardening now before going sch and do gardening later. lol. sounds odd yeah? okies. got to go before i cannot wake up later.

Labels: happenings., random

was doing QT on the bus while going to sch and i felt a joy brimming up in me. =)pretty inexplicable cos i was late for sch already.


and i love doing QT on the bus, like it gives me my peace and joy while talking to God before sch and at the same time, not wasting the time on the long journey.


and as i read the verses of the day, i was humming a song that complemented the verses.'All the way my Saviour leads me/ What have I to ask beside?'


really speaks of wad a christian would say. to have the almighty God, and creator of the Universe to walk beside you, day by day, second by second, it's really more than wad we could ask for.


really loved the words of that song.



All the way my Saviour leads me

What have I to ask beside?

Can I doubt His tender merciy

Who through life has been my Guide?

Heav'nly Peace, divinest Comfort

Here by faith in Him to dwell

For I know whatte'er befall me

Jesus doeth all things well


All the way my Saviour leads me

Cheers each winding path I tread

Gives me grace for every trial

Feeds me with the Living Bread

Though my weary steps may falter

and my soul a-thirst may be

Gushing from the rock before me

Lo! A spring of joy I see


All the way my Saviour leads me

O, the fullness of His love!

Perfect peace to me is promised

In my Fatther's house above

When my Spirit clothed immortal

Wings its flight through realms of day

This my song through endless ages

Jesus led me all the way

Labels: happenings., lyrics

sighs. i NEED SPACE for my tillies okkays? desperatly needing pace for them.


anyways, serene (lim), i think i just got a tilly that's purrrrfect for u!!! and i so happen that im running out of space. do u think u want it? lol


yeah. im tired from sch. shall go ZZZZ.


still thinking if i should go join floorball tomorrow. hmm.

Labels: happenings., tired.

hey,


im sorry for being so insensitive okies? i didn't mean to hurt u in any way okies? like he and i were just friends, and i really hope that u don't feel 'threatened' by my presence and if u do, tell mi straight, yeah?


sighs. i feel enemity betwwen us. and i just wanna tell u that i really treat u as my good friend and as a younger sister and i really treasure this relationship. and i just wanna say that the times that we had together were really happy and if i made u unhappy, im really sorry.




floorball's fun. yeah. but i just can't handle the stick. yup.




i can't believe that i actually succumbed to the views of the world. eeeyer.


feeling pretty emo now.


i told julia just now (or rather yesterday) that i won't think of getting into a relationship cos im not ready for it la, and now i feel tempted. darn, wad's wrong with me.


anyways, who said that all you need is love?


and I WANT TO PLAY FLOORBALL! jasmine simply can't believe that i actually said that! lol. but i need to learn my bio stuff la. argh. darn taxonomy.


feeling pretty i- dunno- how- to- describe- to- u- but- i- guess- it's- anti-social- and- everything- negative.

Labels: happenings., rants.

so many things to be done and im so tired.


struggling to adapt to the horrible timetable and waking up at times that i normally would be sleeping during the hols and slping when i was used to be awake.


class's still okie, though i think im not that integrated into the class. and i found someone that reminded me of him, but they are so diff. sighs.


trying to get my priorities right. i need my scholarship to overseas uni pretty badly, cos i dun think without the scholarship, i can pursue a degree overseas, and the worst thing is that local unis dun have what i want. so yeah.


then im reminded that im supposed to give everything to Jesus. 'There is a place, high in my mind/ Where lofty dreams, ideals fly high/ But in that place, LORD YOU MUST REIGN/ And I MUST CEASE TO THINK IM WISE.'


and loosing my will for Him is a hard thing, especially when I think that this is the road that I want to take and Lord, i think this is wad You want for me, and anyway, Im still obeying Your conmandments.


sighs. have i lost sight of what is in store for me? am i starting to turn a deaf ear to the One who loves me the most? have i caught up with the realities of the world?


idk. for now, i only noe that i have alot of bio stuff to catch up. sighs. maybe i should become the president of mugger's club.

Labels: happenings., musings., rants., tired.

sch was so cool!!!


had my first lesson at botanic gardens and adobe lessons. =) made some friends there and found a bus mate to go home too. ladidadum.


pretty glad to meet ppl in campus, espically MY LONG LOST FRIEND FROM KINDERGARDEN!!! and my dear sec sch friend. =)
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now how cool is that. but then he didn't recognised me. understandable, cos i changed alot over the years, esp over the weekend before sch started. lol. =) like even my recent friends dun really recognise me, let alone a long lost friend.


Thank YOU GOD, for answering my prayer of seeing my kindergarden friend. =)


also saw my pri sch friend from the bus while going back today. and romario at the bus interchange at my place.


feeling nostalgic after seeing all of them. =|


anyways, i have to think of wad to join for CCA. sighs.

Labels: happenings.

心里很矛盾，不知如何是好。

说了，怕他误会，不说，心里也不好受。should i still say then?


anyways, decided to try out the chinese feature. =)


anyways, went out to have fun @ bugis today with sandra. made up a silly song while at bishan station. lol. here it goes.


I can only imagine

(for Sandra. to be sung in original tune.)

I can only imagine

What would it be like

On the first day of poly life


Surrounded by test- tubes

and many chemicals

Will I just go a little crazy

and make an explosion

Or make a little conoction

That will make everyone laugh


I can only imagine

I can only imagine


lol. that's how lame we two can get when we are bored. ladidadum.


feeling quite sentimental now. cos redefining my world is not wad i've been so used to. sighs. like i did sth to my hair and i was pretty excited to show the whole world my new hair style, only then, i realised that church ppl consist of my world, for now.


like no more brigitte, chinling and pat's comments on the way i pulled my hair to sch, no more cam-whoring, no more 'latest gossips', no more having fun in the workshops/ COE with the J- class and everyone else, no more talking with the guys, no more.... so many more things.


to the 4K (J) ppl, i miss you guys loads!!! =)


waiting, to see my new world later.

Labels: appreciations, happenings., madness., musings.

food for thought: What if, people discovered that u aren't as what they think you ought to be? how would u react then? if, 1)you are the person who they think you are someone better than what you really are, 2) person whom u think someone's better than he/ she is?


i dunno. like really dunno. it seems scary like that's the reason if some one whom u are close to just leaves u because of that.


just because of that simple thing and a relationship is broken. sighs.


i wonder at times if i lived up to ppl's expectation of me, even tho i noe that ultimately, Man's aim is to be for God's glory and to enjoy Him forever and not men.

Labels: musings.

You could take a little trip around Singapore town/ In a Singapore city bus/ To see Collyer Quake and Raffles Place/ The Esplanade and all of us. =)


lol. nope. it's not national day yet. but i just felt like singing that song. like it's my fave humming song, for now. =)


toured Singapore with JASMINE today. lala. from Payar Lebar to Bugis and to Clarke Quay (by mistake) and down to City Hall.
so cool. seeing the city's night lights with friend is definitely diff. than going with family. =)


pretty romantic walk from Clarke Quay to City Hall. cos u'll pass by the beautiful lited skycrappers in Raffles Place/ Shenton Way down to Fort Canning Park, and then if u walk further, you'll pass by St. Andrew's Cathedral/ CHIJMES.(ahhha. get wad i mean?)


lol. i dun have ppl to walk with me to all that romantic places of singapore yet. not so soon. at least from wad i forsee now.


anyways, bought stuff that i needed pretty badly. so yay! =) but then im like so broke already. sighs.


SCHOOL'S STARTING IN ANOTHER 2 DAYS TIME!!! hmmm. so not prepared la.

Labels: happenings., musings.

the tv finally came. and it was such a lousy tv comparing to my old tv before it died okays. rawr. i should be thankful now that i have a tv to entertain myself now instead of complaining. but i still must say it looked so UGLY!!!! argh.


anyways, i was heard a conversation on the bus today (normally i dun bother listening, but they were talking freaking loud that they were interrupting my nap on the bus) from an RJ girl and her busmate and her friend on the phone and i must say i was like, omg. ARE U SURE?


line one: 'girls mostly look for a good-looking guy'

line two: 'u are a chinese! u can get away with it'


uh-huh. girls mostly look for a good-looking guy. yeah, not exactly. u wouldn't want the cutest guy on earth who has a black heart, would u? that person would be like a wolf in a sheep's skin and a devil with an angelic face. and most of the time, it's the inward part that ppl look at the end of the day isn't it? u wouldn't want to marry that cute guy that i gave as an example right? like just because he's cute then u want to marry him. no right? see. therefore line one has been overuled with effect by me.


line two. maybe i should give some background infomation from wad i inferred from the conversation. girl on other line wants to wack/ scold someone that she don't like, but she didn't dare cos she was in her sch u. girl on bus said that she should have went ahead and do wad she wanted to do and told her that if she was her (girl on the other line)she would have done wadever she thought of doing because girl on the other line was a chinese and could have gotten away with wadever she had done becos even if the other party knew wad sch she was from, she couldn't have known who she is becos of the chinese population there (or in any other goverment sch in singapore).


like that's not the point right?


wadevers. i guess, some of the elites have a 'different' mindset than we commoners have.

Labels: happenings., musings.

went lunch with the other camp comm. ppl at fish and co. at the glass house. i guess, it wasn't very nice cos im actually not very close with the rest of them and like 5/12 (including me) are girls, then sharon's not there and ella and seb joined in. =p so that makes the ratio of girls 5:9. how sad la.


waited for the food for a good 1 hour. man. not as if got that much customers right? and they served ppl hu came later than us like first? like hello? where got such thing one la?! make ppl wait for their food for 1 hour and we had to ask them for our food and the food isn't that fantastic either! and for this, i shall condemn fish and co there.


at least, as a consumer, i won't tolerate this kind of nonsense from there. crap service and still have to pay service charge. darn singapore laws for service charge. not as if singapore's services are that fantastic that we have to pay service charge and it's like 10% of total bill la. most of the time, ppl dun bother about u when u want to buy stuff even if u want to buy stuff cos u are a teenager like just becos teenagers dun have as much spending powers like working adults then bochap us.


oh wells. to such crap services, i shall just walk out of the shop. saves my money and dun even have to pay for all that unecessary charges.


thanks sandra for accompanying me to get stuff yest. =)

Labels: happenings., musings.

Labels: appreciations, happenings.

How would you feel....


if someone that u lost trust in suddenly said that they cared for you all these while?



How would you react....


to that when u have wounds that never healed over the years and fresh wounds are constantly inflicted upon?



What if....


you found that you've lost your first Love and nothing seemed to matter anymore?

Labels: musings., rants.

slack day again. sighs. i hate rotting at home.


guess wad's the lousiest thing that can happen to u when u are rotting at home?


THE TEEVEE JUST SIMPLY DIES ON U.


rawr. meaning i can't catch some lousy midnight shows when im sick and tired of the internet.


NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!


i dun wanna to rot liddat at home for the next 13 days la. crap sia. cos it's toturous la. sheesh. like torturous.
and i forgot the stupid wep key code to access to the wireless. damn. no internet for my lappie la. and did i say that the lappie doesn't have microsoft office? sheesh. cool lappie with lousy functions. blearghx. which makes it so not cool anymore.


will go and entertain myself now. bye.

Labels: happenings., sian

i noe i haven't blogged about loads of stuff.


fri: caught up with some ex- classmates and all. (and if miss tay chinling is reading, i want my picts!!)


yest. : collected my lappie @ funan and talked to sandra & mian, before that stupid blackout. yep. love my lappie. so cool and everything just that i can't access to my wireless at home. darn.


todaay is called reflective day, cos i want to ascertain some stuff, but the more i think, the more uncertain i get. maybe im not doing anything to salvage it. oh wells.


feeling slackerish now.

Labels: happenings.