due to overwhelming response (i make up of the majority, lol!), im back to engish! yay.


meaning no more time consuming typing chinese characters thru pinyin. lala. unless i get the urge la.


oh wells. it's over. projects, presentations and gerard. i won't think of them anymore in the near future or at least forever for the last one.


well. i just want to be the princess who waits for her Daddy's plan for her. and i believe that now is still not the time and he is not my Mr. Right.


gillian's going to survive through this period of time. always a survivor (like just made it thru the bar) and it shall be so this time round and she's gonna do it better.


yeah. thanks fang, melissa and edward all that fun we had yest! all that dougnuts and neoprints. =) WE HAD FUN DIDN'T WE? lalala.


madness.


and gerard nearly killed me with all that v-man, butterfly and all. (becos he just had to eat 3 crispy and a original on national day. [if u can't count like me, that's like....4 pieces of chicken from kfc.] and then he was complaining to the class that his abs are like GONE, but it's just less defined and he was trying to pinch the fats when it's just so little compared to mine.) i just can't coordinate la. if not, abs training would be more efficient in me training for abs rather than me trying to figure out how to coordinate my upper body and legs. blearghx.


after all that sleep, gillian admits that she's still very tired.



edits//


i feel like a failure. wadevers.


i got no idea why. maybe cos of a decision which i won't e-la-bo-liate.


julia told me that someone told her that my purpose of gg gym is just to beo guys. like wad the heck?


im not that desperate for a guy yet. and i dun go gym soley for gerard anyways.


why must ppl think that when a girl goes gym, her purpose is to beo guys and not doing a real workout?


wadevers. yes, i do like him alot, but i first went gym was to get a good workout weekly during my s&w lessons and not in hope of 'hooking up' to a guy.


and even if i want to look at a muscular bod, i could go look at my uncle's , cos his bod's so much better than those ppl at the gym la. tsk! *i noe it sounds wrong but his bod is really national bodybuilder's standard the last time i saw him*


DUN THINK THAT EVERYONE THINKS THE SAME WAY AS U DO.

Labels: happenings., madness., rants.

oh wells. national day again. but i dun have any thing to do...


shall spend my day looking after my neglected plants.


finnally did my hair yest. !!!!!so happy. =) wahahahaha. and i love the person who dyed my hair for me cos he's so super duper nice can? becos my hair's whopper dry, then he help me conditioned my hair like twice then he spent like 1/2 hr blowing my hair so my hair was like straight for the first time in like 5 months (other than the times when my hair was under running water)?


like woah, i like his professionalism. but then again, maybe he thought i was meeting my "bf" when i was actually meeting my mom, so he did that too. =)


went back to ngee ann after my cut- and- dye to pick my sis, which i wanted to show him my new hair cos it's super duper nice, but then didn't have a chance cos i think he would have left by the time i reached the gym la. so yeah.


nvm, there's always tomorrow. =p


and i hope his brother dun use the car tml so that he'll bring me go eat nice prata. wahahaha. *siao*

Labels: happenings., madness.

wah! finally done with my ITA!!!!!*pats gillian on her back* *gillian thanks gillie for that pat on the back*


if u didn't realise, i have a spilt personality. wahahahahaha. beware!


anyways, just thank God for seeing me thru this mad rush and all and still not getting sick.


just when u thought that gillian's going to get some rest, gillian still have one more pressing proect deadline before her study break (for the exams)!


so yeah. gillian has to make it thru this 2-3 weeks and she can take a break during sem. break!!! yay.


madness.


okies. i shall go slp and replenish my beauty sleep before i go and meet up with fang, sebastian and mel for project and also mac's breakfast!!! yay. I WANT MY EGG MCMUFFIN MEAL!!!!


lala. i need to go off soon, cos sis claims that i hog the com.


OOH!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY LAPPIE ON FRIDAY!!!!! missed it so super duper much. yep. cos mom sent it for repairs on my behalf finally... =)

Labels: happenings., madness.

blearghx. it's super duper wooper late la. or rather, i can go kiss my sleep goodbye.


feel like im doing DnT all over again. all those nights doing DnT/ and suppoedly chatting with daryl... just that now no one's online and i dun really chat with daryl online anymore, since i realised that actually i dun have any topics to chat with anyone, so yeah.


it's a lonely night. just me, myself and the laptop (which is not mine.)


sighs. so sad.


oh wells. i wanna watch secrets on wed, then i realised that he's not free on wed. (gillian's getting senile due to the fact that her brain's getting over saturated).


man. all i want to watch now is eyelids and i'll be a happy gurl. cos im starting to look super unglam, with all that eye bags and puffy eyes.


but then, if i do watch eyelids, im afraid that i won't go sch on time. argh! idk la. drink kopi....?

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

I LOVE MY EYE CANDY!!!!


yippee. gillian's is a very happy gurl today. =) cos she went out with her eye candy and friends for supper yst, and she thinks that maybe he's her Mr. Right.


haha. too bad no picts, cos she was too happily indulging in the conversation and the food too.


anyways, plan of the day is to go thomp plaza and study with sandra. yay. i need to study. =) i need to have brawn and brains too, although i dun really want to have so much of brawn.


better get off the com so that i can be off to bathe and go out studying.

Labels: happenings., madness.

heh. i love my eye candy! =) lalala.


okie. that's pretty random.


anyways, i need a hot pack to soothe my muscles. not aching but painful now, like ouch.


sighs. no time to go down to the gym lei. (not to see eye candy, but to get some workout for the other parts of the body, anyways, i dun think he's ard on sat.) which means i have to be dilligent in using my resistance band.


still fretting abt the wedding, cos i dun have the time to get a wedding prezzie for timmy and cindy la, and it's like another 2 more days. and it's not nice to go empty handed anywyas. argh!!!!


so tired. projects and tests are going to breathe down on my neck like really soon, or rather have started to breathe down on me and i can feel myself suffocating like soon.


blearghx. going off for campus crusade.

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

haiz. still sick. been sick since i went for my educational trip.


can't wait to meet up with all the project servants again!! yippee! like first time since we parted on march 10. but the only thing is that edmund's not ard. if not we would really be back together as YG!!! nvm. but at least he's in china reaching out to the unreached. =)


looks like not many ppl noe me that well after all. =\ like as of now, only one person passed. and the rest failed. oh wells. that's pretty sad, but it's okies.


because i know im pretty anti- social. like really. and i feel like im slipping into that mode really soon.


anyways, saw gerard at the gym today! yippee. he makes good eye candy. lol. wad am i talking abt man? always talking gibberish. haha. and i can't wait to go gym!! like so long nv exercised liaos and i badly need to wake all that sleeping muscles in me man. (im so in love visiting the gym now.)


c'mon. i need a partner to go gym with me and work out all that sleeping muscles. (only applicable for current np students, or unless u wanna pay membership fees for that) i feel so good after doing some abs training after wellness programme.


now i noe why some guys love to workout at the gym. maybe it runs in the genes cos my uncle's like one of those guys who goes after hypertrophy and his muscles are like giganormous.

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

心里很矛盾，不知如何是好。

说了，怕他误会，不说，心里也不好受。should i still say then?


anyways, decided to try out the chinese feature. =)


anyways, went out to have fun @ bugis today with sandra. made up a silly song while at bishan station. lol. here it goes.


I can only imagine

(for Sandra. to be sung in original tune.)

I can only imagine

What would it be like

On the first day of poly life


Surrounded by test- tubes

and many chemicals

Will I just go a little crazy

and make an explosion

Or make a little conoction

That will make everyone laugh


I can only imagine

I can only imagine


lol. that's how lame we two can get when we are bored. ladidadum.


feeling quite sentimental now. cos redefining my world is not wad i've been so used to. sighs. like i did sth to my hair and i was pretty excited to show the whole world my new hair style, only then, i realised that church ppl consist of my world, for now.


like no more brigitte, chinling and pat's comments on the way i pulled my hair to sch, no more cam-whoring, no more 'latest gossips', no more having fun in the workshops/ COE with the J- class and everyone else, no more talking with the guys, no more.... so many more things.


to the 4K (J) ppl, i miss you guys loads!!! =)


waiting, to see my new world later.

Labels: appreciations, happenings., madness., musings.

heh. back again.


bought more tillies just now and then i can't rmb their names liaos. chiam la. short term memory sia.


sorry abt the plant rants. i hope u're not bored by it. anyways, i actually want to open a blog just ranting abt my plants. then ppl call me siao. so gotta to put up with all the scientific names and rants.


ooh. i do hope that i can clear my house by cny, then can all come my place and chill and see plants! (please make reservations before coming down to my house. thank you.)


tralalala.

Labels: madness., rants.

youths @ risk. do u want to know them?


youths @ risk. do u want to associate with them?


youths @ risk. do u want to be their friend?


how i wish there were more people willing to be their friend and hear them out, cos if so, there won't be YG in existance.


anyways, we watched a movie (cos boss thought it would be good to watch the movie and also it's an educational show meant to be shown in schools only) called 'After school' starring jacelyn tay and thomas ong (omg! he's cute. haha)!!! haha. good movie and it's abt youths @ risk.


and so happened today my dad on the tv just now and channel 8 was showing abt this guy who was a youth @ risk too. so cool. deepened my thoughts abt them. =)


anyways, brought my tillie for them to see and they said it was very nice. haha. and daniel (if u didn't know, andrew fu's bro.) asked if it was a fake plant and if it was covered with red paint at the END OF THE DAY. oh wells. but nevermind. that means it's so pretty that ppl think it's fake. haha.


and im really glad that the YG Project Servants are really getting really close now, as a team now. yay. and even daniel's opening up. isn't that a good sign?


i hope that the good days won't pass so fast. cos i really enjoyed myself serving in Project Serve even tho if it means that i have to sacrifice YF on sat, being seperated from my plants after getting so attached to them and also the opportunity to crash the JCs and also the chance to work during the free time.


I REALLY CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE WHEN I'M NOT IN PROJECT SERVE!!!!!!


haha. madness, but true. it's really a happy day.


time to start doing my prep. for devotion or i'll never be able to start doing. heh.


oh, if u want to know who are the great ppl who really made me made my days in Project SERVE, they are * prepares drumroll...* BOSS (aka uncle houw jin), EDMUND, ZEBEDEE, RACHEL, CHERLYN, VELDA, XINWEI and DANIEL. yay. dun they deserve a round of applause for making these few weeks and the weeks to come great? haha.

Labels: happenings., madness., rants.