yay. thank yew edward for that short but VERY concise lecture today!


heh. he spent 2 hrs teaching us TEN lectures while the lecturer spends 2 hours teaching ONE lecture. see. so pro. our future horticulturalist with a phd leis...so dun pray pray!


yep. i only revised in that 2 hrs and i had nv felt so good doing that paper save for some parts that i cannot remember. (thank God i remembered some later...)


hehehe. elder reginald was like... 'haiyo....' when he heard abt that. (oh, if u didn't noe, he's a nus lecturer.)


yeah. im a bad kid who hates studying cos she is a lazy gurl.


so now u noe...


wahahaha.



REJOICE! FOR THE HOLS ARE HERE! YAY!!! =)

Labels: appreciations, happenings.

due to overwhelming response (i make up of the majority, lol!), im back to engish! yay.


meaning no more time consuming typing chinese characters thru pinyin. lala. unless i get the urge la.


oh wells. it's over. projects, presentations and gerard. i won't think of them anymore in the near future or at least forever for the last one.


well. i just want to be the princess who waits for her Daddy's plan for her. and i believe that now is still not the time and he is not my Mr. Right.


gillian's going to survive through this period of time. always a survivor (like just made it thru the bar) and it shall be so this time round and she's gonna do it better.


yeah. thanks fang, melissa and edward all that fun we had yest! all that dougnuts and neoprints. =) WE HAD FUN DIDN'T WE? lalala.


madness.


and gerard nearly killed me with all that v-man, butterfly and all. (becos he just had to eat 3 crispy and a original on national day. [if u can't count like me, that's like....4 pieces of chicken from kfc.] and then he was complaining to the class that his abs are like GONE, but it's just less defined and he was trying to pinch the fats when it's just so little compared to mine.) i just can't coordinate la. if not, abs training would be more efficient in me training for abs rather than me trying to figure out how to coordinate my upper body and legs. blearghx.


after all that sleep, gillian admits that she's still very tired.



edits//


i feel like a failure. wadevers.


i got no idea why. maybe cos of a decision which i won't e-la-bo-liate.


julia told me that someone told her that my purpose of gg gym is just to beo guys. like wad the heck?


im not that desperate for a guy yet. and i dun go gym soley for gerard anyways.


why must ppl think that when a girl goes gym, her purpose is to beo guys and not doing a real workout?


wadevers. yes, i do like him alot, but i first went gym was to get a good workout weekly during my s&w lessons and not in hope of 'hooking up' to a guy.


and even if i want to look at a muscular bod, i could go look at my uncle's , cos his bod's so much better than those ppl at the gym la. tsk! *i noe it sounds wrong but his bod is really national bodybuilder's standard the last time i saw him*


DUN THINK THAT EVERYONE THINKS THE SAME WAY AS U DO.

Labels: happenings., madness., rants.

oh wells. national day again. but i dun have any thing to do...


shall spend my day looking after my neglected plants.


finnally did my hair yest. !!!!!so happy. =) wahahahaha. and i love the person who dyed my hair for me cos he's so super duper nice can? becos my hair's whopper dry, then he help me conditioned my hair like twice then he spent like 1/2 hr blowing my hair so my hair was like straight for the first time in like 5 months (other than the times when my hair was under running water)?


like woah, i like his professionalism. but then again, maybe he thought i was meeting my "bf" when i was actually meeting my mom, so he did that too. =)


went back to ngee ann after my cut- and- dye to pick my sis, which i wanted to show him my new hair cos it's super duper nice, but then didn't have a chance cos i think he would have left by the time i reached the gym la. so yeah.


nvm, there's always tomorrow. =p


and i hope his brother dun use the car tml so that he'll bring me go eat nice prata. wahahaha. *siao*

Labels: happenings., madness.

wah! finally done with my ITA!!!!!*pats gillian on her back* *gillian thanks gillie for that pat on the back*


if u didn't realise, i have a spilt personality. wahahahahaha. beware!


anyways, just thank God for seeing me thru this mad rush and all and still not getting sick.


just when u thought that gillian's going to get some rest, gillian still have one more pressing proect deadline before her study break (for the exams)!


so yeah. gillian has to make it thru this 2-3 weeks and she can take a break during sem. break!!! yay.


madness.


okies. i shall go slp and replenish my beauty sleep before i go and meet up with fang, sebastian and mel for project and also mac's breakfast!!! yay. I WANT MY EGG MCMUFFIN MEAL!!!!


lala. i need to go off soon, cos sis claims that i hog the com.


OOH!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY LAPPIE ON FRIDAY!!!!! missed it so super duper much. yep. cos mom sent it for repairs on my behalf finally... =)

Labels: happenings., madness.

I just came to praise the Lord

I just came to praise the Lord

I just came to praise His Holy Name

I just came to praise the Lord


He came into my life

One very special day

He came into my life

To show me a special way

He said He'll never depart,

For this is why I sing

I just came to praise the Lord.


this song has been in my head for quite a while and yup, my current favourite song. Simple yet it speaks of everything.


i didn't have to lim kopi today but quite in a hibernating mode but managed to do my abs training (surprise!) till the end.


gillian nv fails to surprise herself. from being the first female to finish the abs training to finish doing abs training when she tot she was dying....hmm. wad's next?


didn't managed to ask him out..(dumb. brain not working) but he said he's working on national day too...so yeah.


but at least her cousin made her day feel better by asking her out tomorrow after all that mad stuff happening tomorrow. so yeah, gillian's going OUT!!!!*applaudes*


oh wells. gillian needs to rush project and also study and slp too. think she will go nap first then chiong! =(


i noe God will give me strength! cos i noe I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me!

Labels: happenings., lyrics

blearghx. it's super duper wooper late la. or rather, i can go kiss my sleep goodbye.


feel like im doing DnT all over again. all those nights doing DnT/ and suppoedly chatting with daryl... just that now no one's online and i dun really chat with daryl online anymore, since i realised that actually i dun have any topics to chat with anyone, so yeah.


it's a lonely night. just me, myself and the laptop (which is not mine.)


sighs. so sad.


oh wells. i wanna watch secrets on wed, then i realised that he's not free on wed. (gillian's getting senile due to the fact that her brain's getting over saturated).


man. all i want to watch now is eyelids and i'll be a happy gurl. cos im starting to look super unglam, with all that eye bags and puffy eyes.


but then, if i do watch eyelids, im afraid that i won't go sch on time. argh! idk la. drink kopi....?

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

maybe God's really seeing me thru this period of time.
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lappie's spoilt, but then i think it's only the backlight, but i managed to get an extension of deadline for my ITA project.


so yeah. but now need to choing for projects still. yeah.


anyways, been ranting about me not having time to cut my hair, and i still couldn't find time to cut. dang! i nv knew cutting hair was so troublesome. blearghx.


and i wanna watch secrets! like it's the first movie in 2 yrs that makes me want to watch la. lol. (gillian is siao liao..the thing about not watching movies in years man...tsk)


still thinking if i should go ZZZ, or just stay up and do as much of my ITA as possible...

Labels: happenings.

didn't have training today, cos gerard was having high fever and his whole face (including his eyes) was like uber flushed, and the worst thing was that he was wearing 4 layers and he was still shivering.


sighs. see la. that's wad u get for overworking ur body during monsoon season. haiyo. hope he gets well soon. see him liaddat...haiyo, nth to say


jian min was like sick too, and then they were like passing germs to each other which i hope they won't pass it to me, cos i still have loads of assignments and also tests and exams coming up...blearghx.


argh. i can almost feel the germs saying to me 'WAHAHAHAHA...gillian, u are not going to escape from my crutches...wahahaha...u are already starting to cough le...c'mon give it up, u're going to lose the battle....'


yeah, starting to feel sick too. blearghx. I NEED TO FINISH MY ITA, DGA, PAM PROJECTS, STUDY FOR TOMORROW'S PRACTICAL TEST AND TXP QUIZ, FRIDAY'S WORKSKILL PRACTICAL AND ORAL EXAM, PAM AND CHEM TEST, AND MY EXAMS!!!!


God, please see me thru all these. please.

Labels: happenings., rants.

im so in a dilemma (i just realised that i can't spell that word. =( ) recently. like mom says that im looking shorter (looking like a 'potato' as wad ricky puts it) cos she says my shoulders are getting broader and all due to free weights training, but i really liked free weights cos it nv fails to amaze me like how much weight i could carry after all.


rawr. why can't i just train and not get the muscles? i dun need all that bulk; the training makes me feel super shiok only.


see! that dun make me a girly girl. i thought i was one for the 17- odd years of my life. okies, maybe in some parts of my thinking i think like a guy. i can control my feelings like a guy too. so that dun make me a girly girl. haha. i dun wanna end up being a bimb.


okies. enough of rants.


saw this plaque which i saw on sat with jasmine which i thought it was super cool. 'TGIF- Today, God is First.'


tot that would make a super good reminder, like sometimes we get so caught up in our lives that we forgot that God's in control and that we try to do stuff on our own strength, only to come back realising that all these while, God has always been there, waiting for us to ask Him for help and that He would definitely see us thru.

Labels: happenings., musings., rants.

maybe i was abit too harsh with my words, but yeah, i was really really super angry about it.


imagine u were me. to be once called a backstabber by ur closest friend in class when u tried to shield another friend in class who in turn called u biased. how would u react? (im not trying to say anything here, but just asking u to put urselves into my shoes.)


call me rash or anything if u want. but i dun think i want to take that post back, nor am i going to do anything abt this whole thing unless someone provokes me again. (does it remind u of this line called 'let sleeping dogs lie peacefully?')


i feel so tired and so disillusionised by all the spat of things that happened recently. which does not apply to the things happening in sch and im not going to e-la-bo-liate.


oh yeah! thank you to all who have been hearing me rant this whole week end. like i noe i have been repeating it like countless times this whole week end. =) and thanks to serene who gave me a hug when i needed it most. =) thanks to you all! (sorry that i couldn't name u all personally cos there's simply too many.)


yeah. loads of tests and other random stuff coming soon.


gillian goh, u better stop day-dreaming and wake up. finish studying for ur exams which is like another month more first before u even think about ur birthday and how u want to celebrate it.



i shall be off studying then heading off to lala-land.

Labels: happenings., tired.

didn't managed to talk to gerard, but managed to say a quick hi, cos he was orientating some ppl on the gym equipment and the rules and blah blah blah.


so just talked to clara instead. great talking to her till the point that i haven't do my poster for dga. anyways, sandra couln't come but nvm, i will teach u!!! lol. i hope i won't disappoint gerard by anyhow teaching. =p


went mcritchie reservoir for txp today and while resting, saw ah boon and some of the guys from sis' church. so went over to say hi. lol. and i nearly missed my class la. so paiseh. =)


yup. shall spend the rest of my free time trying to design the poster for dga (hopefully!). cya!


edits//


i feel like im losing my own identity, my goals, my values. okies, in short, i feel like im losing myself. i dun like myself anymore. i feel hypocritical. and the world too. i dunno. i dun like this feeling.


i once thought that it was just a passing phase, but then the reality of it being a real change in me sank in. maybe i have already changed, or it's just my perspective, i dunno. but i feel like i've changed. i dunno if it's good, but i've changed.


i dun feel like the way i used to feel about the things i've felt in the past. everything now feels so temporal, so on- the- surface. i yearn for something deeper to challenge my mind, my thinking. i dun wanna to be led by the nose. i want to break free, to be free of traditions, of rules, to have things in my own way.


call it rebellious or out of the box, but maybe that's what i want. to be in my own world where i could move as i would choose and not be tied down by all these temporal stuff in the world.


if i had a choice to choose, i would have chosen to live alone, without other human interference. even tho i may be lonely all the days of my life, maybe i would have my solitude. idk. it's just a thought.


solitude. the yearns of a person who does not have peace within her.

Labels: happenings., musings.

I LOVE MY EYE CANDY!!!!


yippee. gillian's is a very happy gurl today. =) cos she went out with her eye candy and friends for supper yst, and she thinks that maybe he's her Mr. Right.


haha. too bad no picts, cos she was too happily indulging in the conversation and the food too.


anyways, plan of the day is to go thomp plaza and study with sandra. yay. i need to study. =) i need to have brawn and brains too, although i dun really want to have so much of brawn.


better get off the com so that i can be off to bathe and go out studying.

Labels: happenings., madness.

sch was alrighty, i supposed.


but just that i felt like im backsliding. like im losing it. im feel like i dun belong to it anymore. like that connect had been lost and even connected, it's a fuzzy line.


yeah. lots of unanwered questions that seemed to be choking, and yet i can't seem to formulate them in words.


torturous.


rawr. have to study for chem retest la. yuck. i hate those formulas!!! blearghx. thought i could run away from them if i took this course. nono, gillie, u can't run away from formulas. wahahaha.


sheesh. at least it's friday tomorrow. yay. get to see eye candy tml. and do photoshoot on sat. =)

Labels: happenings.

too tired after all that sai kang yesterday and my knees were like hurting. blearghx.


took loads of picts while supposedly to be looking at how to maintain plants in parks and talking to classmates that i hardly talked to. glad that it was really a time of class bonding yesterday. and i just have to say that derrick really loked like a china worker! lala.


will be uploading to somewhere then linking it from here. but like i said, i might do photo editing first.


see how la. i'm a lazy gurl. haha.


nanana. wanted to rant about seeing eye candy in like another 5 days' time, but decided against it. cos rant or not it's still that same 5 days.


will go say hi to my mortal liaos. bye!


edits//


just realised i typed in the wrong number of days. 4 to see eye candy and 5 to breaking fast. rawr. hope i can hang in there till then.


fang and brigitte both tagged me!!! rawr. i dun like that. but i decided to do briggie's first cos it looks easier. so here it goes... (brigitte, u should be honored sia..)


Each player shall start by sharing 6 weird things about themselves. They will then tag 6 new players & these 6 people who're tagged, will write a new entry & giving 6 wierd things about themselves. & the game shall carry on. The 6 weird things about myself:


1. I like the cat to bite me.

2. I like the sky.

3. I can do about 400 crunches in a shot.

4. I like to fail ppl in my test.

5. I am abit saddistic towards myself.

6. I... aiyah...go ask cL, pat and brigitte wad's so weird abt me la. everyday all used to call me weird one. =P



The 6 people I've tagged are :



1. jasmine

2. fang

3. erm..

4. erm...

5. erm....

6. erm.....anyone la.

Labels: happenings., rants.

heh. i love my eye candy! =) lalala.


okie. that's pretty random.


anyways, i need a hot pack to soothe my muscles. not aching but painful now, like ouch.


sighs. no time to go down to the gym lei. (not to see eye candy, but to get some workout for the other parts of the body, anyways, i dun think he's ard on sat.) which means i have to be dilligent in using my resistance band.


still fretting abt the wedding, cos i dun have the time to get a wedding prezzie for timmy and cindy la, and it's like another 2 more days. and it's not nice to go empty handed anywyas. argh!!!!


so tired. projects and tests are going to breathe down on my neck like really soon, or rather have started to breathe down on me and i can feel myself suffocating like soon.


blearghx. going off for campus crusade.

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

whee! i love the gym man. =) lalala. *mad* haha.


nvm u all. pangseh me when i ask u all to go with me for the abs training class. i doubt u all will surive it anyways. became the first and only female survior okies. lalala. *gives myself a pat on the back*


aching, but i love that feel. like my muscles are like flexed and toned. do u call that saddistic? i dunno.


i dunno if it runs in the genes, but at least i noe i got influenced by my uncle and others to like workouts at the gym. =p


so tired, but i haven't studied for txp test. rawr.


at least dr koh promised that he won't give us the bougainvilleas for the test later, which is good. 2 down, only 18 to study! yippee.


shall be gone for studying. =p

Labels: happenings.

super pissed la. singapore's transport's system is like screwed up.


disgusting. i didn't really want to bring it up again, but it really have to piss me off so much.


it wasn't my fault that im late for lessons. like the stoopid bus just had to zoom past without stopping for me la. and the this really isn't the FIRST time la. what's their problem? eyes so blinded, cannot even see ppl flagging for bus then become wad driver? IRRITATINGLY PISSED.


dang. the transport system is that screwed up during peak hours. like u can't even get any cabs on the road (cos they ARE ALL CHANGING SHIFTS or REFUSING TO FETCH PASSENGERS LIKE MINS BEFORE PEAK HOUR AND ALL THAT NONSENCIAL ERP CHARGES.) and the bus disappears for like almost half an hour before SLOWLY driving into the bus with another of the same bus service right behind it.


then i just remembered that they are all from the same company. which explains why this whole system is screwed up during peak hours and weekend nights where everyone needs transport.


pissed, pissed and more pissed with this crap system. maybe i really should learn driving and save up for a car to drive myself to sch so i dun have to wake up so early just to go sch.


anyways, this is the part 2 of that time.


; uber pissed

Labels: happenings., rants.

oh wells. too lazy to blog abt part 2 la.


anyways, been bz with DGA project and also currently doing a scrapebook with all my picts that i developed. =)


so that's why i say i need more picts la.


been cam whoring with fang! yay! so happy. missed the good ole cam whoring days during truncated timetable last year with chinling, brigitte and pat. =) man. we really need to meet up la. missed you guys loads. like loads. (esp brigitte okies? since u mia-ed after the Os.)


lalala. i wanna do my scrapebook but i ran out of story line to write le. =\ and i need to do my chem hw. yucks. i can't seem to do chem anymore. *sobx*


I NEED HELP!!!!

Labels: happenings.

i noe it's kinda late to blog abt it now (since it happened a few days ago) but im still pretty pissed abt it so i shall blog abt it and i proised to blog abt it. ( that kinda reminds me of someone's promise to make me a song for my first day of sch prezzie!!! *looks around and wonders how long ago since poly started its academic year...*)


went to this acessory shop in pkwy and found this person trying on EARRINGS when the sign says u can't. how disgusting is that and i had to buy a replacement earrings because i just had to drop mine in sch. *yucks* and the worst part is that the shop assistants were all around and they were doimng nth abt it. confronted the person and then he looked like he wanted to bash me up. (as if im in the wrong. wth?)


hey, someone needs to protect the rights of other consumers like me here. even tho they say they gg to buy the earrings, but hu noes they might put back and take new pair? then the next unsuspecting consumer walks in the shop and buys that pair. *shivers* i dun wanna think abt it. it's so unhygenic and where's their priciples man? are they going to teach their kids to do that too? wad happens if children sees this and they too follow because they see this kind of ppl doing it? setting bad examples. like the chinese idiom, 上梁不正，下梁歪 (for the benefit of those hu dunno, the literal meaning is that if the top beam is slanted, the bottom beam will be slanted too) kids will learn all the bad stuff from the older generation. (so now u noe why there are 'unreasonable' teens beacuse there are unreasonable adults around too.[see previous' post for more details or ask me abt it.])


irritating. okies. i need to slp/ study for the quiz. haven't finished blogging so there will be part two if i still wanna blog abt it.

Labels: happenings., rants.

i dun believe that i got conned into doing that man! sheesh. so maluating la. but then again, i doubt anyone noticed it, if not im like so dead.


rawr. all because of a shirt man. and i dun even dare to wear it out la. dang. maybe i'll wear it to 'scare' off a date huh? blearghx.


anyways, chem magic trick was like not too bad. scored 8.5/10. many thanks to fangling, edward and aishah! =)br>

and did i say i love

1G01

?! cos we rawk da house man! whee! =) thank God that He placed me here. cannot imagine wad will happen to me if im in somewhere else man. =)


shall go ZZZ. if not tml cannot wake up then die. =p bye!

Labels: happenings., rants.