i noe this is a pretty emo pict. yeah.


took it during dga lessons when the lecturer was meeting with other groups and i was waiting for my group's turn.


maybe fang didn't managed to capture wad i really wanted to potray and yeah, the pict of me looks weird. have to put in more effort in doing up the 'look' that i wanted to capture.


if u have already guessed it, yup, it's the toilet. loved the ole skool-ness of it. which is not well shown here.


and i also promised shaoxiong that i would show he sth, which i can't remember. dang! really got stm (short term memory) la. hmmm... i think it's the sunset issit? or issit this?


wadevers. tell me if u see this yeah?

Labels: sian

slack day again. sighs. i hate rotting at home.


guess wad's the lousiest thing that can happen to u when u are rotting at home?


THE TEEVEE JUST SIMPLY DIES ON U.


rawr. meaning i can't catch some lousy midnight shows when im sick and tired of the internet.


NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!


i dun wanna to rot liddat at home for the next 13 days la. crap sia. cos it's toturous la. sheesh. like torturous.
and i forgot the stupid wep key code to access to the wireless. damn. no internet for my lappie la. and did i say that the lappie doesn't have microsoft office? sheesh. cool lappie with lousy functions. blearghx. which makes it so not cool anymore.


will go and entertain myself now. bye.

Labels: happenings., sian

darn. i hate you you you you!


bloody idiots.


forget it. ranting anywhere's not going to help.


darn. i feel just so tired. really exhausted. sometimes i just wonder have i ever been myself for all these years. i suddenly feel like all these layers of fakness cracking up. and i dun like it. like im loosing my security, my everything.


i dun even noe wad's the real me anymore. like this pathetic lil soul has all the fakness evolved into her so much she can't tell it anymore. like pathetic. oh my goodness.


sometimes i just wonder if the center of my belief has actually existed. like yeah, i noe it's true, it's just the believing part. i just can't believe that i actually believed. like at times, i feel like a fraud. a huge liar, like my life is a big lie, all interwinded together for the past 18 yrs of my life.


then head knowlegde comes in. i noe God's the Almighty, but im lost, or at least i feel like it. i dun noe where to find Him anymore. i dun hear anything when i call upon him. i can't feel. the moment of dread's here: im starting to numb, getting cynical, self- defensive, self- abusive(psycologically).


i just feel like getting an ammesia and starting life afresh where no one noes me. poor lil twit.

Labels: happenings., rants., sian, tired.

earthquake really do wonders.


this time it disrupted telecommunications and internet connections in asia pacific to europe and america. due to underground cables being destroyed by the taiwan quake. hmm. reminds me that some ppl are flying off to taiwan like soon. hmm.


gahh. can't read more abt tillandsias at the forum. and the rain's making my plants drenched in water and no SUN!! (i hope their crowns won't rot due to the weather if not i really sian zi pua already. zzz.)
dear sun, stop hiding in the midst of the storm clouds can?



itching to get more tillandsias.

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