quick updates of my first week of hols!


mon to wed---> helped serene and jean for the nus bazzaar stall. and i bought loads of stuff there too! hehe. eye opener for me and it was pretty fun sitting at the other end of a stall. and had kuishin-bo for dinner on wed night! shiok....


thurs----> went to do gardening and for the first time in my life, i used the changkol and we planted Dypsis lutescens!!! like omgoodness..i nearly died. hold that thing until my hand felt like im going to have blisters soon and edward and dr koh had them on their hands...*OUCH!*


friday-----> im going for my very first job interview!!!! whee... at the sch gym tho...haha. i kinda regretted applying now, but nvm, i shall think of it as my cpf contribution so that i have more money to buy a house next time and some pocket money to spend on plants. wahahaha.


sat-----> SPORTS OUTREACH!!!! promised jasmine to help out with the logistics.... so yeah. =) i love SAI KANG!! lol. okies. cos it helps trains my sleeping muscles u see....cos im ashamed to say that i've neglected training for almost a mth and i've put on fat mass again. sighs, wad to do....


Once upon a time, in Singapore...

Juliet: Romeo Romeo, where art thou?


In a farway land called pulau tekong....

Romeo: Juliet Juliet, how I missed thou! But I am in the army now, serving thy country, thy people. For this cause, dear Juliet, bear this seperation for the time being....because thou art thine treasure, and I want to use thine life to protect thee.


lol. sorry. this scene just popped into my head when i was thinking of wad to update for army dae.


pretty cool. cos we learnt how the army guys fold their No 4. the sleeves, how they pack their bags for fied trip.


ate some of their REAL rations...(dunno how they got and dun ask.) smells good but tastes bad. blearghx.


and of course, doing less than 1% of wad they do inside.


and we learnt how to appreciate our guys for spending part of their lives in the army when they could be studying, working, spending time with loved ones and leaving their comfort zones to do things that are pretty usless in times of peace.


Here's to all our guys..current and future NSguys, full timers, reservists and past NS unkers...THANK YOU for your delication towards our safety! =)*stands and salutes*


I WANNA GO CHATUCHUCK MARKET!!!!


i wanna see all that plants for myself, i wanna feel all that plants. i wanna...BUY THEM.....


why? why?


why can't i just go to chatuchuck? sighs.


yay. thank yew edward for that short but VERY concise lecture today!


heh. he spent 2 hrs teaching us TEN lectures while the lecturer spends 2 hours teaching ONE lecture. see. so pro. our future horticulturalist with a phd leis...so dun pray pray!


yep. i only revised in that 2 hrs and i had nv felt so good doing that paper save for some parts that i cannot remember. (thank God i remembered some later...)


hehehe. elder reginald was like... 'haiyo....' when he heard abt that. (oh, if u didn't noe, he's a nus lecturer.)


yeah. im a bad kid who hates studying cos she is a lazy gurl.


so now u noe...


wahahaha.



REJOICE! FOR THE HOLS ARE HERE! YAY!!! =)

Labels: appreciations, happenings.

JASMINE!!!!! im now a step closer to my dreams!!!!! whooooooHOOOOOOOO!!!!!


yay. brimming with happiness and joy.


haha. okies. my goal in life is to open my own shop and an activity center for the family which has an area as big as IKEA alexandra and also to be mentioned in the national day rally speech made by the PM as an example of sth.


a small step now, a huge stepping stone to my dreams.


hope im able to do this job well.


oh wells. i still haven't studied for my last paper yet.


gillian goh, u have yet to master the basics of horticulture and landscape management and u are thinking of flying. stop dreaming of soaring in the sky and get back to earth NOW!


one more down, one to go.


rawr. and as usual, i dun feel like studying.


heh. today decided to go down and say hi to the sups. =) i really liked going there and say hi to them. makes u feel more energetic and all when u're there. and happier too.


man, 5 other ppl were missing if not can have A BIG REUNION! =) wahahaha. but now it's so hard to get everyone back, esp when someone just flew to canada to futher her studies... and one in nie, 2 in nus and the other 2, hais. dun wan say say le.


yeah. feel like slping le. *yawns*


oh man. i dun like this.


been lamenting about how i have not studied, yet i can't find the will to study. argh.


been surfing thru the forums and happily chatting about plants and other random stuff. AND I DIDN'T TOUCH MY CHEMISTRY, which is like tml's (or rather today's) paper.


dang.


gillian, go bang ur head and die if u are going to repeat the chemistry module.


badly in need of studying. haven't been doing so. wth.


and my papers start tml. went shopping just now and got myself a pair of earrings. should really go piak myself already.


tml's txp (plant taxonomy= plant names and all their characteristics.) and nth's inside my head! argh.


DR KOH/ EDWARD!!!!! i need ur brains man... how did u all managed to remember all that stuff. argh.


okies. gillian shall stop lamenting and be off studying.


okies. amorphophallus was still wrong...BUT! i edited it already...


maybe this is a sign from God saying that i shouldn't be so mean to the neighbours even tho the stench of the joss sticks is making my nose sick. *maybe the plants felt this way too.*


okies. the post for today now...


For FANG....






For EDWARD....


For MELISSA....






For HONGYI....






For THE REST....



the things that i did this afternoon when im supposedly studying.


first thing he said was that i spelt his plant wrongly...should be amorphophallus.


okies. a- m- o- r- p- h- o- p- h- a- l- l- u- s. gillian will rmb amorphophallus as amorphophallus and nothing else from now on.


heh.


gillian and her crazy midnight rants.


supposedly slping, but then, me redl-ing all my music files, so it's gonna be a long while before i can go slp....a HUGE yawn slipped out of my mouth.


lol.


thanks shao xiong for being there for me. yeah.


haha. dunno why, but apparently we can only talk pretty well on msn. and at times we dun talk too.


but it's okies. cos he's nice. right xiong?


lol. he's pretty good catch, i must say. (but he's not my kind of guy, i suppose) haha.


he listens to all my nonsensical rants and my personification of plants. (if u noe me well enough, i will do that to u. beware) wahahaha.


heyy. this post is specially delicated to u, shao xiong, lors. but then again i dunno if u actually read my blog. but then again, i dun really care. heyy, this is free advertisment for u lors becos u are definitely not someone that would make a good hi-bye friend cos u are worth MUCH more than that. if not this post wouldn't be specially for u.


and he really noes all that rare exotic plants that are only found in botanic gardens or not even in there like i-dunno-wad and his beloved armophophallus-es. (and i only noe like the 100 odd plants from that 1001 singapore plant book. how shameful! sighs, wad to do..)


and he once tried to trade his overgrowing plants for my scrawny, dying plants due to lack of TLC. tsk. cos he wanna see if my dying plants could survive his hse environment with all that pests called slugs and snails. tsk! never again did he try to do that after his evil scheme was uncovered by me! wahahaha. nope, not with that beautiful episcia 'chocolate n cherries' (sounds nice right?!)


lol. that's my midnight, nothing- to- do- rants. heh. hmmm. maybe i should try growing some armophophallus (i promise i won't steal ur most expensive armophophallus becos it's simply too heavy for me to carry with that huge pot and that amount of soil from ur hse to my hse, but if im ur neighbour, maybe i would steal it and spray-paint it so u wouldn't regconise it. *evil grins*) and stink up this whole place and the neighbour's too provided if i can still keep it alive to flowering stage. cos they tried to choke my plants with all that cigarette- but- dun- smell- like- it pungent smoke. wahahahaha. *gillian's obviously going mad here.*


thanks for reading the mad rants of a very high girl here.



P.S oh yeah, if u wanna noe more about him, please proceed to my links and click his name (in case if u forget, his name is shao xiong. =p) or go to greenculturesg.com/forum and go under bulbs section to find more abt the plants he grows (if im not wrong). becos this is a free advert for him. lalalala.


supposed to be studying, but then it rained just now so didn't go out to study.


haiz.


anyways, im typing this post on my lappie! wahaha. but now looks odd, cos used to the tiny fonts on my mum's com that now my lappie looks giganourmously huge



argh. i need to get my butt moving and i want to go gym too. hmmm.


gillian's getting fat.


one reason to y gillian should not frequent the free weights section anymore is that gillian finally sees that her shoulder's are getting broader than before. *so scary!* all her oversized polo tees are fitting her nicely and that giganourmously huge (which is like guy's size LARGE!) giordano orange pullover's starting to look fitting on her too!


dang. very soon gillian might have to give up wearing all her other nice tops if she dun stop doing free weights. argh.


oh wells. this is an opportunity cost. i have to give up wearing all that nice but already tight- fitting tees for free weights or vice versa. why can't i just have the best of both worlds?


in a dillemma and i badly need to go studying.


so near, yet so far.


a day committed to chem and trying to squeeze time for pam.


a day trying.


a day couting thick wades of money. like literally so thick that my hands cannot hold properly! (now i noe how good it is to feel all that money in ur hands. too bad the money ain't mine.)


all the above describes my day vaguely.


gillianwantstoslpandalsostudyandalsowantssomewisdomandalsoworkoutandalsowantstogobuy anexerisemat within the next 24 hrs.


finally did some serious studying today.


was at national library's study corner today and had to settle for some couches to do work and thank God sis met me and we went downstairs to han's to study, cos i did more work downstairs than upstairs. yep.


some ppl just scares me. cos i dun like ppl being to close and nice to me le. yeah


oh wells. i feel like im gideon, being unsure of God's decision for me. but at least gideon had a enormous task not like me. hais.


GILLIAN, YOU NEED TO HAVE MORE FAITH! C'MON GIRL! GOD HAS THE BEST IN STORE FOR YOU IF ONLY U WOULD FOLLOW!


my mind's in a whirl.


im losing all my sanity soon.


at a crossroad.


i dunno wad to choose anymore.


like i dunno.


maybe i'll let time take me thru all this.


haiz. oh wells.


i really shouldn't be thinking of all these now.






thanks edward for sending the picts. yup. this is the mad picts that we took on fri. look at me carefully. i just became a 'ghost' in the picts!

okies. bear with me. for now cos im gonna translate the chinese post cos non- chinese reading ppl complained. so yeah.


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i dunno anymore.


wad would u do if u realised that he's not the God- given Mr. Right?


although i noe it in my heart, but yet i chose to do it.


man's pride, man's 'me-first thinking', will cause their own downfall.


i dun want my heart to leave you, Jesus! for only You noe my heart and my future.


a story that i once read and (i've found the e-mail!) i want u all to read it too.


Once upon a time there was a princess that lived in a beautiful palace overlooking a simple but worldly village. She lived in the castle with her Father, the King, and a handful of faithful servants. Her Father doted over her, supplying her every need and most all of her wants. Over the years, she blossomed into a beautiful teenage girl, quick-witted, full of laughter, and always obedient - but increasingly lonely.


Often, late at night, she would gaze from the window of her room, high in the castle wall, watching the people far away in the streets below. She would lean towards the gaiety, straining past the sounds of music and laughter, to try and pick out the words of the young people. No sad, lonely sounds ever reached her ears, and she began to believe that they must be the happiest people in the kingdom. "Father?" she asked one evening as they worked together on what he called her preparation. "Do you think that perhaps I might one evening be allowed to attend one of the festivals at the village? Perhaps just for a short time?"


The old, but wise King laid aside the Book of Lessons and looked upon his daughter with compassion and concern.


"My child, the village below is a worldly place full of sad people. The sound of merriment that you sometimes hear is their attempt to drown out the emptiness and despair of their lives. It is best that you stay in the castle."


Though she loved her Father, it was not the answer she wished.


"But Father, how will I ever meet…I mean…someday I would like to…Oh Father, you are so good to me, and I do so love it here, but at times I get so lonely!"


The King sat back in his chair, his eyes suddenly seeing his daughter not as the little girl she would always be to him, but as the young lady she was becoming. He then decided.


"It is time that I tell you."


"Tell me what, Father?"


Standing to his feet, he walked to a window overlooking the countryside to the East. His eyes fastened onto the King's Highway, a straight road that passed high above the village and led to the castle gate.


"Shortly after you were born, I foresaw the day when you would need someone special - someone with whom to spend your life. I set out to search, to visit other castles in the Kingdom; to find a prince for you. Not just anyone, but that special someone."


The King turned to look at his Princess, her eyes full of wonderment.
"I have met him. I know who he is."


"Oh, Father, where does he live? When do I get to meet him?"


"He lives far away, but not so far, in a castle not unlike this one. He, too, is being prepared as you are - both for the other. Come stand beside me, my child."


She walked to where her Father stood by the window.


"See there? That's the King's Highway. When the time is right and not before, he will come on a white steed. You will know him."


Then taking her hands into his, he looked into her tear-brimmed eyes.


"Princess. Never forget you are a child of the King. You are Royalty. The one being prepared for you is also of Royal Descent. Be patient. Prepare. And stay in the castle."


She hugged the King, jumping into his arms, happy now and determined to prepare and wait. For many months, at night, she looked out her bedroom window, past the village and its sounds to the Highway above, watching and dreaming of the one who would someday come.


A year passed. Then another. The dream became harder to envision, and the night sounds of laughter and glee from the village below again began working their way slowly into her thoughts. It became harder to concentrate on her preparation, harder to be patient.


One morning while taking her breakfast in the Royal Kitchen, a knock was heard at the back door, the door where deliveries were made from the village below. She waited for one of her Father's servants to answer but when none immediately did, she decided to answer it herself.


"Hello," said the young deliveryman as he pulled off his crumbled hat and bowed. (It was an exaggerated bow, very low and lasting, followed by a winsome smile.) She couldn't help but laugh.


"Delivery for his Royal Highness, the King," he proclaimed with just the slightest shade of irreverence. "And my, but I must say that he has hired some lovely kitchen help, a great improvement indeed!"


"Why, thank you, but I'm not the kitchen help," she replied blushing. "I'm the King's daughter."


"I had heard that he had a daughter. But I was never told how beautiful she was! Do you live here all alone with your Father?"


"For now," she replied, thinking briefly of the now fading story her Father had told her.


He carried the supplies past her into the kitchen. "You ought to come down to the village some night. The lads would be taken with you! Lots of friends your age and wonderful parties."


"Tell me about the village."


For an hour they talked - talked and laughed. Every story of the village life seemed so full of humor and excitement! He acted out the stories he told and sang a village favorite, dancing merrily to the tune. She could not remember ever laughing so much and found herself resenting her Father for not allowing her to take part.


"You must come to the village this very night. The Fall Festival begins and it is the best of the year."


She glanced awkwardly at the kitchen door. "I don't believe my Father would allow me to attend."


"Then sneak out after dark. I will meet you at the bridge this side of the village. You'll have a great time!"


"Perhaps." She hesitated. "But I can't promise."


"I'll meet you there," he said, then shut the door and was gone before she could answer.


That evening, she sat with her Father in the Great Room, he reading aloud from the Book of Lessons, and she pretending to be listening. In reality, she was measuring the diminishing light from the setting sun. The distant music began to loft up from the festival below, her imagination going skyward with it. It took several moments before she realized that her Father had stopped reading.


"You seem far away tonight."


She straightened her dress nervously, "No, just tired I think. Perhaps I should go to bed early."


"Darling?"


"Really, Father, I'm fine," she said, quickly getting to her feet. "Good night," she said back over her shoulder as she scampered up the stairs.


Two hours later, when it was believed that all in the castle were sleeping, a lithe, young figure stole out the kitchen door and disappeared into the night.


Three months later, a slightly older but much changed Princess marched into the Great Room to announce to her Father the decision she had made on the previous night. Her midnight visits had increased in frequency since that first visit a life time ago. The village nightlife was more exciting than she ever dared imagine. The people, though sometimes crude, laughed and sang and danced and chased each night into dawn. They were living! Living now! Not just waiting for a dream that might never come true.


The young man that had met her that first night had treated her, well, like royalty! In a hundred ways he had made her feel special. Then last night, the greatest of all nights of her life, he had proposed to her. She clutched the ring he had slipped onto her finger tightly in her palm, drawing courage from the pain it produced.


"Father, I have something to tell you."


He sat in his chair, the Book of Lessons on his lap, its pages freshly stained with his tears. She almost lost her resolve.


"I've met a young man. I know I shouldn't have gone without your permission but…anyway, we are going to be married - right away!"


The King shut the Book and stared out towards the Highway. "I watched you go each night, wishing you back." Then turning His eyes to her and through her, "This castle has never been a prison. This castle is a decision. I want you to know that if you leave here, things will never be the same again. My love for you will never change, but everything - everything - else will."


She wavered for a moment but only a moment, her head filled now with the village ideas.


"I know that this is what is right for me. He may not be Royalty but I love him." And with that she left the castle.


she woke with the dawn, not knowing that it was a year to the day since her departure. Her back hurt. "Just part of being in your last month of pregnancy," the village women had told her.

Rising with difficulty, her husband muttered something in his half-drunken state. He had come home only hours before and they had argued - again. Oh well, after the baby is born maybe things will get better.


There was still a house to clean and chores to do.


cking up a worn, straw broom, she walked outside to sweep the front porch. Their house was small. It sat at the edge of town, not far from the bridge where he had waited for her that first night. Her eyes followed the path up to her Father's Castle. The King had still found little ways to show her that he had not forgotten her, that she was still loved. But what he had said was now true. Nothing was the same.


Her eyes wandered to the East to spend a few minutes watching the sun rise, a simple pleasure that she shared alone each morning. Its rays almost blinded her, distorted the trees and hills beyond. Squinting against its brightness, she returned to the job at hand, first glancing absently up the High Road.


Her heart seemed to stop, gripped as if by a strong hand. The broom quivered in her grasp. Far down the road came a white horse, its rider sitting straight and tall. He seemed to be coming straight out of the sun. The horse quickened its pace as it neared the castle, sensing the excitement of its master. Her heart began to beat again, now loud and in rhythm to the pounding hoofs. He reigned his mount to a stop outside the castle's front gate. She could not make out his features but his stance spoke of honor and character. He knocked on the front door, her front door not that long ago. The King stepped out to greet him and she watched as they conversed; she watched as the King spoke with his hands and then pointed toward the village. Involuntarily, she took a step back into the shadow of the porch.


The noble Prince listened carefully, his strong shoulders sagging in disappointment and sadness. Shaking the King's hand and receiving from him a consoling hug, he mounted his horse. He looked toward her village home, his eyes finding her in the shadow. For a moment they both stared. Then, pointing his mount back toward the sun, he rode away into its brightness.


She felt the hot tears on her arms and hands long before it occurred to her that she was crying. Nothing, she thought, will ever be the same.


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i dun want to be the princess in the story.

Labels: musings.

due to overwhelming response (i make up of the majority, lol!), im back to engish! yay.


meaning no more time consuming typing chinese characters thru pinyin. lala. unless i get the urge la.


oh wells. it's over. projects, presentations and gerard. i won't think of them anymore in the near future or at least forever for the last one.


well. i just want to be the princess who waits for her Daddy's plan for her. and i believe that now is still not the time and he is not my Mr. Right.


gillian's going to survive through this period of time. always a survivor (like just made it thru the bar) and it shall be so this time round and she's gonna do it better.


yeah. thanks fang, melissa and edward all that fun we had yest! all that dougnuts and neoprints. =) WE HAD FUN DIDN'T WE? lalala.


madness.


and gerard nearly killed me with all that v-man, butterfly and all. (becos he just had to eat 3 crispy and a original on national day. [if u can't count like me, that's like....4 pieces of chicken from kfc.] and then he was complaining to the class that his abs are like GONE, but it's just less defined and he was trying to pinch the fats when it's just so little compared to mine.) i just can't coordinate la. if not, abs training would be more efficient in me training for abs rather than me trying to figure out how to coordinate my upper body and legs. blearghx.


after all that sleep, gillian admits that she's still very tired.



edits//


i feel like a failure. wadevers.


i got no idea why. maybe cos of a decision which i won't e-la-bo-liate.


julia told me that someone told her that my purpose of gg gym is just to beo guys. like wad the heck?


im not that desperate for a guy yet. and i dun go gym soley for gerard anyways.


why must ppl think that when a girl goes gym, her purpose is to beo guys and not doing a real workout?


wadevers. yes, i do like him alot, but i first went gym was to get a good workout weekly during my s&w lessons and not in hope of 'hooking up' to a guy.


and even if i want to look at a muscular bod, i could go look at my uncle's , cos his bod's so much better than those ppl at the gym la. tsk! *i noe it sounds wrong but his bod is really national bodybuilder's standard the last time i saw him*


DUN THINK THAT EVERYONE THINKS THE SAME WAY AS U DO.

Labels: happenings., madness., rants.

我不知道了


当你知道他不是神所赐给你的'Mr. Right' 的时候，你会怎么做？


我的心虽然是知道，但还是只想做自己要的。


人的自尊，人的自已为识，会带给自己的 downfall.


我不要我的心离开你啊！只有你，耶稣，知道我全部的需要， 我将来要走的路。


有一个故事，不只你们是否听过，它述说了一个皇帝，有一个女儿，公主天天在皇宫里玩，生活很开心。


有一天，她对父皇问道：“我的结婚的对象是谁？我已经长大了， 是适婚年龄了。”


皇帝回答；“不用急，我已经在你出世那天已经选好了你的丈夫。”


这个问题，公主问了持续两年，皇帝也那么回答了两年。


直到有一天，一名陌生男子爬进了皇宫。


公主对他有了好感，接着，渐渐被他那甜言蜜吸引住了。


一年悄悄过去了。


她到皇帝面前，对他说：“父皇，我已经找到了我的结婚对象了。如果你不成全我们的话，我就死在你面前！”


皇帝听了，伤心极了， 而且还劝她：“女儿啊，在不久的将来， 我为你准备的对象就要来了。你所要嫁的人没有钱让你随心所欲的花， 生活对你而说，将会苦不堪言。”


女儿的坚持，皇帝只好答应。


为了让女儿的生活好一些，皇帝赐了女婿一块靠近皇宫的土地，和一些钱，希望女儿的生活不会那么落魄。


公主嫁了那男子后，赫然发现男子不单酗酒，赌博，而且还常常向她要钱。公主后悔极了，却已不能挽回她的决定。


不知不觉，已经过了快要两年了，这时的公主身怀六甲了，也已经悄悄成了黄脸婆了。


有一天，当她从窗口瞭望皇宫时，看到-个俊俏的王子带着手下，飞奔的向皇宫前进， 只是在皇宫前交换了几句话又沮丧地掉头的离开皇宫。


眼前所发生的事，使公主落下了眼泪，但是这已经太迟了。


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我不要成为故事中的公主。


oh wells. national day again. but i dun have any thing to do...


shall spend my day looking after my neglected plants.


finnally did my hair yest. !!!!!so happy. =) wahahahaha. and i love the person who dyed my hair for me cos he's so super duper nice can? becos my hair's whopper dry, then he help me conditioned my hair like twice then he spent like 1/2 hr blowing my hair so my hair was like straight for the first time in like 5 months (other than the times when my hair was under running water)?


like woah, i like his professionalism. but then again, maybe he thought i was meeting my "bf" when i was actually meeting my mom, so he did that too. =)


went back to ngee ann after my cut- and- dye to pick my sis, which i wanted to show him my new hair cos it's super duper nice, but then didn't have a chance cos i think he would have left by the time i reached the gym la. so yeah.


nvm, there's always tomorrow. =p


and i hope his brother dun use the car tml so that he'll bring me go eat nice prata. wahahaha. *siao*

Labels: happenings., madness.

wah! finally done with my ITA!!!!!*pats gillian on her back* *gillian thanks gillie for that pat on the back*


if u didn't realise, i have a spilt personality. wahahahahaha. beware!


anyways, just thank God for seeing me thru this mad rush and all and still not getting sick.


just when u thought that gillian's going to get some rest, gillian still have one more pressing proect deadline before her study break (for the exams)!


so yeah. gillian has to make it thru this 2-3 weeks and she can take a break during sem. break!!! yay.


madness.


okies. i shall go slp and replenish my beauty sleep before i go and meet up with fang, sebastian and mel for project and also mac's breakfast!!! yay. I WANT MY EGG MCMUFFIN MEAL!!!!


lala. i need to go off soon, cos sis claims that i hog the com.


OOH!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY LAPPIE ON FRIDAY!!!!! missed it so super duper much. yep. cos mom sent it for repairs on my behalf finally... =)

Labels: happenings., madness.

I just came to praise the Lord

I just came to praise the Lord

I just came to praise His Holy Name

I just came to praise the Lord


He came into my life

One very special day

He came into my life

To show me a special way

He said He'll never depart,

For this is why I sing

I just came to praise the Lord.


this song has been in my head for quite a while and yup, my current favourite song. Simple yet it speaks of everything.


i didn't have to lim kopi today but quite in a hibernating mode but managed to do my abs training (surprise!) till the end.


gillian nv fails to surprise herself. from being the first female to finish the abs training to finish doing abs training when she tot she was dying....hmm. wad's next?


didn't managed to ask him out..(dumb. brain not working) but he said he's working on national day too...so yeah.


but at least her cousin made her day feel better by asking her out tomorrow after all that mad stuff happening tomorrow. so yeah, gillian's going OUT!!!!*applaudes*


oh wells. gillian needs to rush project and also study and slp too. think she will go nap first then chiong! =(


i noe God will give me strength! cos i noe I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me!

Labels: happenings., lyrics

blearghx. it's super duper wooper late la. or rather, i can go kiss my sleep goodbye.


feel like im doing DnT all over again. all those nights doing DnT/ and suppoedly chatting with daryl... just that now no one's online and i dun really chat with daryl online anymore, since i realised that actually i dun have any topics to chat with anyone, so yeah.


it's a lonely night. just me, myself and the laptop (which is not mine.)


sighs. so sad.


oh wells. i wanna watch secrets on wed, then i realised that he's not free on wed. (gillian's getting senile due to the fact that her brain's getting over saturated).


man. all i want to watch now is eyelids and i'll be a happy gurl. cos im starting to look super unglam, with all that eye bags and puffy eyes.


but then, if i do watch eyelids, im afraid that i won't go sch on time. argh! idk la. drink kopi....?

Labels: happenings., madness., musings.

maybe God's really seeing me thru this period of time.
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lappie's spoilt, but then i think it's only the backlight, but i managed to get an extension of deadline for my ITA project.


so yeah. but now need to choing for projects still. yeah.


anyways, been ranting about me not having time to cut my hair, and i still couldn't find time to cut. dang! i nv knew cutting hair was so troublesome. blearghx.


and i wanna watch secrets! like it's the first movie in 2 yrs that makes me want to watch la. lol. (gillian is siao liao..the thing about not watching movies in years man...tsk)


still thinking if i should go ZZZ, or just stay up and do as much of my ITA as possible...

Labels: happenings.

didn't have training today, cos gerard was having high fever and his whole face (including his eyes) was like uber flushed, and the worst thing was that he was wearing 4 layers and he was still shivering.


sighs. see la. that's wad u get for overworking ur body during monsoon season. haiyo. hope he gets well soon. see him liaddat...haiyo, nth to say


jian min was like sick too, and then they were like passing germs to each other which i hope they won't pass it to me, cos i still have loads of assignments and also tests and exams coming up...blearghx.


argh. i can almost feel the germs saying to me 'WAHAHAHAHA...gillian, u are not going to escape from my crutches...wahahaha...u are already starting to cough le...c'mon give it up, u're going to lose the battle....'


yeah, starting to feel sick too. blearghx. I NEED TO FINISH MY ITA, DGA, PAM PROJECTS, STUDY FOR TOMORROW'S PRACTICAL TEST AND TXP QUIZ, FRIDAY'S WORKSKILL PRACTICAL AND ORAL EXAM, PAM AND CHEM TEST, AND MY EXAMS!!!!


God, please see me thru all these. please.

Labels: happenings., rants.