after a long hiatus, i decided to be back. heh.


anyways, blogger's lagging and there aren't much to blog too.


just back to shout out how much i will miss the YG ppl lar. cos im left in sg to guard the empty fortress. with mr lau and the pre- teens YG. lol.


mom didn't let me go for mission trip. so i here i am, missing out all the fun. gah! no fair! and miss celebrating xinwei and velda's bd. and stuck in office and hear a song from mr lau everyday. boohoohoo.


TO uncle houw jin, zeb, rachel, edmund, daniel, xinwei, velda and cherlyn, im so gonna miss all u ppl lar. rawr. and i doubt u ppl will be reading this cos u ppl should be last min packing/ slping by now and not be reading blogs. haha.

Labels: happenings., musings., rants.

i noe that i haven't been blogging.


tired. i realised i dun like anything.


gah. cny not feeling like cny, life dun feel like life and gillian dun feel like gillian.


dun like the way things are now in my life. sheesh.


RaNT, RANT, rant.

Labels: happenings., rants.

thank you mr lau for the rose and the little song!!


heh. wasn't in the mood to listen to the song, cos was really late for work today. but it really cheered up the girls in yg (except jasmine. cos mr lau nv buy one rose for her. tsk tsk.). =)


that was my first flower from a guy and on a valentine's day. who says that girls ought to get flowers and stuff on every valentine's? lol.


anyways, thank God for the things today. =) cos it was a happy day other than that being a valentine's day.


darn. i still haven't done chee hong's homework.


ladidadum.


It's a happy day, and i thank God for the weather
It's a happy day, and i'm living for my Lord.
It's a happy day, and things are gonna get better
Living each day by the promises of God's word.

Labels: happenings., musings.

argh.


im not too sure if i can get to do horticulture in poly. so irritating!


went to see the doc cos of my hurting joints (finally) and was dignosed with mild hyperlaxity syndrome, which just translates that my joints are looser due to lesser amount of ligament connecting to my joints as compared other ppl of my age and im born with it.


and im not supposed to do vigorous activities (like ultimate frisbee and all. *sobx*) often and carry heavy stuff.


so i dunno if that translates to no horticulture too. and if it does, im so gonna cry. and it has already translated to a straight no for mission trip from my mom because of that and she's super convinced that i will get a severe case of food poisioning if i go.


grrr.


and anyway my deadline for choosing my courses is approaching soon! gah. i hate this.

Labels: happenings., rants.

just had a good talk with two of the Js ---julia and jasmine. and also cleared my doubts with david. thanks. =)


and to all who messaged me for the past few days and i didn't reply, it is because my phone's spoilt again. yeah. sorry for that. and thank you for messaging me.


too many things happened. first the midnight street contact, and the results day, the guy's C.F. they had given me such a deep impact.


yeah.


it was once said that no matter how mature we may be, we are still not prepared for realtionships in our teenage years. i agree to that statement, but at the same time, i know that while my feelings for him seems realistic, but im not sure if i really liked him, as in just an infatuation or not.


it's hard not to think about him, but i know it's all my wishful part. im struggling not to focus my thoughts on him. at least im trying hur?


idk. it's like he treats me differently from the rest. as in to other ppl, he's more friendly, more initiative. yeah. maybe im not impt as a friend to him compared to any other ppl.



valentine's just like any other day that needs to be passed with work and more work and with friends around you.

Labels: happenings., musings., rants.

argh. new supervisior wants me to write reflections/ journal everyday then he read. as in the intention is good, but writing everyday in a book will just kill me. sheesh.


today was killing. cos had so many meetings and all. brain refused to think and all i wanted to do today was to sleep. argh.


i dunno wad to post. and i really dun feel reflective. and all i want to do is to sleep, but i noe that i should clear the house so that the 3 Js and other ppl hu want to see my plants for the longest time ever can come over and see the plants. =)
gaah. mom complaining that i should be sleeping when i was complaining so much just now that im tired. and i nid to clear the house.


ciaos!!!

Labels: happenings., rants., tired.

heh. back again.


bought more tillies just now and then i can't rmb their names liaos. chiam la. short term memory sia.


sorry abt the plant rants. i hope u're not bored by it. anyways, i actually want to open a blog just ranting abt my plants. then ppl call me siao. so gotta to put up with all the scientific names and rants.


ooh. i do hope that i can clear my house by cny, then can all come my place and chill and see plants! (please make reservations before coming down to my house. thank you.)


tralalala.

Labels: madness., rants.

broken and empty. it's all around.


sometimes i just see ppl walloping in their brokeness and emptiness and i wonder if i was like one of them too.


and it jut dawned to me how much people need the Lord to be completed in their brokeness and to be filled in purpose in life. i guess that line applies to me too.


too much hurt and emptiness.


daryl asked if i wanted to join YG as full time staff. idk, but im seriously really considering to extend mt project serve period. God seemed to have placed me in a ministry where it not only ministers to the youths who are really unsatisfied and hurt youths and also to me personally. the people that we are reaching out to reflected me. everything just seemed to point back to me.


i guess i have not given my all to God. im relying on my own strength when it comes to the places where im hurting the most. idk. it's just so hard to let Him take control of those painful/ hurting areas.


feeling very vulnerable at this revelation.

Labels: musings., rants.

went to amk central to do contact work.


was super cool and novel, even tho i was complaining that im too tired ealier in the day.


cool experience. and i guess, i should really consider extending my time in YG. heh. i liked wad im doing la.


yeah. haven't prepared my yd materials yet. teaching the class tml. darn. im so tired.


and i have to think of wad to do for publicity for children's camp 2007. TRUE COLOURS.

Labels: happenings., musings., tired.

sick and tired of clearing the darn place.


not in the best of moods. cos my mom had to make me run to places like imm and ikea after work. nearly died of fatigue and i really have panda eyes now la. thanks.


anyways, i can get more tillies now (yay) cos my mom decided to get bamboo blinds to cover up the hated wall of 22 years. okies. so are u thinking wad's the link? haha. dun tell u. =p can come to my house to see for urselves after mom approves. =)
MID- POINT CHECK.


im already halfway thru Project Serve. and i hope i can go for the mission trip. then i will be super happy.


okies im random. and im having a headache. eeks.

Labels: musings., random, tired.