dun remind mi.
2:26 AM
i hate ignorant ppl. darn them.
fancy calling my tillies 'veggies'!!! gaah. dun even noe how to see veggies meh? please lor, my tillies are at least 10 times the amount of veggies la.
oh wells. sad bunch of ppl hu thinks they know alot.
not looking forward to 2007. and i found another interesting course to do! hehe. evironmental science @ RP if i ca't get into horticulture and landscaping@ ngee ann. =) still need to find another 4 courses (i think) to fill in for poly application form next yr. =p
can't wait to play frisbee later! oohlalala!Labels: rants.
tillandsia madness.
1:39 AM
irritating. dad tried to induce rotting in my tillies that could cost around $150 at least (which i bought it at a much cheaper price obviously) whlie 'trying to help mi set up a nice area in the living room for my plants.'
not saying i dun appreciate the effort, but then again, im happy with my plant setup at the kitchen sink area, since no one wants to cook so might as well give me that area to keep my plants la. somemore so near water source and at the same time let ppl see my nice tillies and also contribute sth green in the midst of all the concrete jungle. =p
darn. i so wish i have my own house, away from all these ppl. sheesh. then no nid to fear ppl anyhow touch my things, plants and all.
gaah. venting about how much i hate this place.
oh. more tillies!!! yay. =) now officially spent SGD129.20 (out of which, $99.20 is my own money, yes, im thinking if i should have just saved all that money and keep in the bank to collect more interest and then save up to get my own apartment in the future or use it to help all the homeless animals in our country. i told u ppl that im a very impulsive buyer and i must get wad i like usually.) and 12 tillies.
argh. i shouldn't regret anymore. gah. im trying to justify my actions. =p
Labels: rants.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and thoughts.
12:06 PM
i can't believe that i actually forgot all abt jasmine's bd yst lar!!! sheesh.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JASMINE!!!!
yucks. im so tempted to head down to causeway point to get some tillies. but then im so tempted to nua at home and wait for my fave repeated hk serial airing at 2:30pm. hehe. tough on. will have to chiong immediately to there right after the show end if not no more nice plants to get liaos. =p
i can't believe that im just a weekend away to 2007!!!! sighs. everything's so fast when u just dun take notice of the time. and soon im going to embark on project serve (other ppl start sch/ work, heh), and then release of results then applying of poly courses, then sch starts! omg. im so not prepared for it la, esp O-level results. how?
at the rate im going, im going to get a panic attack soon. eeks.
time to think wad i shall eat for brunch and not fret abt next yr's stuff cos there's so much to fret for a day. and irritate the cat as much as possible cos next yr no more time to irritate her liaos. haha.
im one kind of zi zhao for claw marks on myself. =p
argh.
6:04 PM
earthquake really do wonders.
this time it disrupted telecommunications and internet connections in asia pacific to europe and america. due to underground cables being destroyed by the taiwan quake. hmm. reminds me that some ppl are flying off to taiwan like soon. hmm.
gahh. can't read more abt tillandsias at the forum. and the rain's making my plants drenched in water and no SUN!! (i hope their crowns won't rot due to the weather if not i really sian zi pua already. zzz.)
dear sun, stop hiding in the midst of the storm clouds can?
itching to get more tillandsias.
Labels: sian
disgusted.
1:33 AM
EEEEEWWWWW!
guess wad happened to my tillandsia after leaving it ouside to sun?
it BECAME A HAIRBALL!!!! YUCK YUCK YUCK!
should have taken a picture of that disgusting stuff in my darling plant la. so u ppl can see how disgusted my mom, sis and i were la.
and thanks cm for sharing with mi the joy even tho being far from God, as a trial, cos u'll want to tune in to Him and also to find the joy being in His presence. will try the method as prescribed by YAM retreat. =)
Labels: happenings.
hurhur.
10:36 PM
ooh. bought more tillies on sat. =) so now have 7 tillies.
wasn't a pleasant christmas this year. even tho daryl gave mi the most wonderful christmas present this yr --- speakers for the com and others who gave wonderful presents too but emotionally, i felt horid.
horrid cos i felt that i've backslided, horrid cos i feel like i dun even know myself, horrid cos i realised some idiot touched and moved my things and maybe read my diary too.
i feel that i have not achieved my personal standard for myself and other ppl's standard this hols. argh. im not as good as wad i potray. and it sucks noeing that. =(
got to go. need to try some clothes that i've gotten just now. will continue another time, maybe?
feeling horid, and down with fever. darn.
GARDEN FEST.
11:36 PM
ooh lala! i FINALLY went for the garden fest (really an orchid show in disguise -.-)! even tho kena pangsei-ed by jasmine and sandra. la ti ta dum....
the gardens were all so preetty!!! wish i had a garden too...even tho not really into landscaping yet. but still...
...AND...i think im one kind of madness, bought 4 tillies (tillandsia AKA air plants) at a whopping cost of SGD$60. hee.
hehe. kena bitten by the tillie bug liaos. nv spent so much on all of my other plants la, including the ones in plant heaven too. sheesh.
but from what i heard, $60 is a good buy for them, cos 2 of the plants actually cost ALOT more at other places, so cheaper lor. but too bad for mi the boss went away for dinner, so no discount la. ='(
and of course, kena scolded/ got into an arguement over the plants with my dad. sheesh.
sick.
2:09 PM
i feel: sick, dumb stupid, sian and more sick.
dun ask me why. apparently i haven't recovered from fp( abb. for food poisioning from now on.) and i still went ahead to eat all the tasty food and got myself in a mess again. gah.
im very prone to fp, dunno why. maybe should find a herb that i can grow at home and pluck to eat or sth so i dun get fp that often. =p
and karwei went for SGF liaos!!! sheesh. and im like saying i want to go like even before the thing started and i still haven't go. sian right?
feeling rather nauseatic now. bleatch.
argh.
11:10 AM
back.
cameron wasn't fun okays. sheesh. cos i came down with food poisioning on the first night there.
and the ppl there sort of like to waste time too. gaah. (took a good 12 hrs just to reach s'pore frm cameron.now that's 3 times longer if u took a car back. and had to wait somemore cos the driver lost his autopass tt's needed to get back to m'sia.)
but i did enjoy myself before getting sick and bought plants for myself too. =)
headache and all now. sheesh.
and i tell u, my parents are like one kind of weird la. applied for a flat in queenstown, then still got house then dun want to buy. sians. wad's their problem la. gahh. irritating. make mi happy for nothing only. and oh, that's my parents' forte.
currently: sian zi pua, of course.
updates.
3:17 PM
omg! can't believe that camp's over liao la. sheesh. and im heading to cameron. =p
sighs. i noe there are quite alot of ppl in m'sia now enjoying themselves. like karwei (genting, left this morn), peter and ying ying (KL). sighs.
i noe i want to go cameron to see all the plants and to buy plants too, BUT i want to go for service too! daryl's back tomorrow morning la. and so long never see/ talk to all the overseas ppl also. (even tho they were at yf camp and all) sheesh.
argh. if only i can get the best of both worlds.
anyways. camp wasn't that bad. yeah and audrey's so CUTE!!!! haha. i noe i said it like a billion times, but she's reallie so cute kaes. =) and we didn't fare that badly as a workshop group, considering we had one of the most no. of new ppl (non-yfers) in our group. yay!
and we were the most HAPPENING GROUP in terms of food -wise. many thanks to big jon and jia ming, who bought good carrot cake and hokkien mee from chomp chomp! yay!! haha.
thanks to all the ppl (ella, big jon, sarah tan (sparkles), shaun, jia ming, lionel, gloria, michelle, ying ying, peter, arica, jayne, nicklaus and not forgetting dear comm. member, andrew) in FORTSHRITT (pronounced as for-shri by our german speaking super part-time camper, jayne) for making it a good experience!
off to cameron!!!! =)
i can't believe it.
5:34 PM
oh my gosh! CAMP in 2 more hours! gahh.
just trying to double check if i got all the things needed and guess wad's the first thing that came to my mind? ENGLISH, MATHS, CHINESE, SCIENCE.
sheesh. i miss sch la, even tho im the ponning queen in the class. like wad i told daryl, my brains have rusted and staring to rot liaos. dunno how to survive when sch starts next yr.
oh wells. i gtg and double check my stuff again. if not i'll go english maths chinese science again. =)
Labels: happenings.
updates.
12:50 AM
argh. i noe i've never update in AGES. this blog's collecting dust liaos.
past few days have been a mad frenzy of shopping!!! from plants to clothes and to christian living. lols.
ooh and i want to say that chong mian's one of the nicest guy i noe! drove ard yishun cos i forgot the directions to world farm. and it was only when i passed by khatib camp then i remember la. oops. and the first statement is agreed by some others too. *aspires to be as nice to ppl like chong mian. =)*
OMG. camp's in another few more hours' time la! so tired and im going cameron highlands like literally straight after camp. so i can't go to the nuh carolling. =( and YF carolling cos my grandma's bd. sighs.
will go slp now. eyes super painful cos yesterday woke up SUPER early just to update my passport pict. gahh. *yawns*
Labels: happenings.
xwdvuwe. argh.
10:49 AM
im actually very pissed with u. wanna noe y?
cos u pangsei-ed me on tues and then u didn't even reply to my message and then u didn't even bother to offer an explaination as to y u pangsei-ed me.
darn.
i feel like an idiot now.
mom insisted that we go cameron highlands during the weekends which i can't leave cos of steering comn and all. (which reminds mi that i haven't done the tags for hospitality.)
feddup.
maybe i should just stay put and not go anywhere and rot at home.
qwbhdfbjkhuwe. some thoughts. =)
11:38 PM
i can't believe that i haven't blogged about the trip to jurong bird park (jbp) yet!
nine years ago, i stepped into the the jpb and now revisiting it. like omg! that's so long ago la. sheesh.
thanks chong mian for the free tix and for all the the trouble bringing us there. =) and the lil incident with the road curb. heh. =P
feeling very happy cos i managed to really go out and enjoy myself for like the first time since after Os. (sheesh. wad have i been doing all this while la?!)
can't wait to go to world farm. yay. hopefully can get some plants that i want. =) and of course hopefully able to get the new house we're applying tho it's built- in (cos near ngee ann poly <---current dream sch cos dream course there and also hopefully got direct bus to ikea and church too.) will get to choose the house on the 15 (i'll be in yf camp!! =( ) if there are houses left to be chosen. anyways, hope to get a house with loads of sunlight then can move all my cacti back from sandra's house (miss all my C& S liaos and also get more plants! =) heehee. ultimate madness.
ooh. had a great time chatting with charles about faith and all. =)
Thank You God for being so faithful to us even tho we might be suffering from hope deferred syndroms and even in our hours of disbelief. Thank You for the things that You have done for us.
debasdyds. El-Elohe-Gillian.
12:59 AM
back. =) figuratively and literally.
im not gonna let my hurt get the better of me and God can use my hurt to do greater things than i can ever do via my own.
feeling better and more spiritually refreshed after reading 'hope for the hurting heart' -one of the many books that i bought on the doulos, which i had originally wanted to give to julia. =)
seems like it did serve its purpose- to heal the hurting heart of the reader. and i say it's really good, especially i felt my heart change after realling less than half of the book and best part of it? it's a 101 pages, medium sized font book.
will lend it to anyone who's interested in noeing why it made an impact for me. maybe it will make an impact for u, becos God's working in u thru this book. =)
dhfjidhf fsdjiopsd. bye bye.
6:37 PM
oh wells. think im gonna be on a hiatus or completly abandoning this blog.
too much pain, too much hurt. if u asked me if im okie, i would definitely say im not okie although i dun look like im hurting.
too much pain till im numbed and im already a grand master of hiding all my true emotions within myself.
i dunno. my greatest wish now is peace, sleep and death. sounds like from the histroy textbook the gulag camp part? it is. just that those ppl are tortured physically, while im tortured mentally.
peace, sleep and death. that's all i want for christmas this year.
ftuisdttyorjkl. exploding. soon.
2:25 AM
very pissed now. dun ever try to MESS with me. cos i will definitely explode.
AND IF U THINK THAT IM SO STUPID AND DUMB NOT TO NOE THAT U STALK MY BLOG, PLEASE ERASE THAT THOUGHT OUT OF UR PEA BRAIN. damn. get out of here. i definitely dun welcome ppl hu try to think that they noe everything about me by stalking my blog. and please be automatic, before i spell ur name out here and embarass u here.
please note that im utterly pissed right now and my words may be somehow more crude, but i mean every single word i meant.
and pissed is not the word to use; im actually fuming and a minior earthquake will definitely make me explode. like mount st helens. go check out if u dunno.
fryiuyerorji. i will not cry.
5:06 PM
im utterly digusted by your actions and your words. dun think i dun say means no one noes about ur scandalous affair.
how i wish i was ignorant of this. for this, im upset till the point that nothing surprises me and im numbed.
i wish i dun have to see u anymore in my whole life. really.
one day, maybe u'll find me no more, cos im sick and tired of keeping ur dark, ugly secret and i can't hold it any longer.
if u didn't realised, u have already lost me.