just wanna thank God for His unfailing love, for His presence with me throughout the day, and that for His insights that helped me to understand more of His word through LTS (bible study class) on the study of the study of salvation, which i must say it's really very helpful and refreshing.. which sometimes being an 'older' christian, we tend to be so focused on acquiring on more knowledge and looking like a spiritual giant.

which i thank God for remembering that we are only made of dust (Psa 103:14), that He remembers the things that i was struggling with, that during worship, He whispered into my ears and said, "Child, come pass the outer courts, into the holy place; pass the brazen altar; pass by the crowds of people, the priests who sing praises, I want to have a Me to you time"

That out of the hundreds in the worship hall, He took me, and found me and took hold of my guilt of the past and shook me free. that His word that says 'So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed'.

free indeed! because of grace, that we were given what we do not deserve- the forgiveness of our sins! yet, because of the laws, we were given boundaries. and ironically, it is indeed these laws will really make us free indeed.

John 10:14- 16 “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd.

By grace we, the other sheep outside the pen, is brought in into the safety of the sheep pen, because, the enemy is outside the sheep pen, waiting to devour any that walks out of the sheep pen.

1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour:


just reading some of my old posts and like woah! i never knew that my posts were that inspiring.. until now. yeah.. down the years when i look back, i suppose i can say thank You God, for sustaining me all these while.

like thank You for bearing all my nonsense and also thank You for giving me so many chances that i never really cherished.. thank You for the people in my life who had stayed constant in my life (i started this blog as a ignorant young teenager, just accepted Christ, life was quite messed up, grew in the Lord, disobeyed God in certain major decisions of my life, just wandering in the spiritual desert and then God slowly pursued me, brought me back into His will, where He wanted to place me all these while)

and i just want to say, thank You Jesus, for remaining faithful to me, for being my shiny Knight in white (that was mentioned in one of my earlier posts)... and thank You for the many chances that i have had..

and i will jiayou (press in) for my next challenge. =D (looks like im really inspired by the younger me).


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which it does helps, because when we pray, we are saying, "God, take control of the situation."

and the only reason if u still feel angry about it after praying, is because u have chosen to not let go of the anger. which, we can't feel free unless we choose to let go.


how many times do we actually sit down and think what we want to do?

influenced by? i don't know, sometimes my mind tells me 'hey, you are a christian, you can't/ shouldn't be doing this and that.'

i admit, i do feel at times that why God, why can't i do certain things.. and i get fed- up that God says i can't do this and that. but the truth is, no one said i can't do those things. it's not that i can't apply to go for university (despite my grades), go find a proper full time job that is wonderful, high paying and better still, is related to my discipline, or get a boyfriend, go clubbing, go drinking and get drunk, i can. why not? it's my life anyway.

but it is my choice. a choice to obey God. “If you love me, keep my commands." (john 14:15)

then comes the persecution and the mocking. people will come and ask why did you do what you just did? and then if u are going to say "becos God told me to do it" you will be mocked. "WHAT?! God asked you to do it? how do you know that it is God? You sure anot? or are u just running away from reality?! how are u going to survive with this kind of job/ pay?" and you will feel lousy, unsure and maybe even stupid of what you just did.

what then, are u going to stand up to your beliefs or are you going to run away or maybe something in between, obey but give some lame excuse to everyone who mock at you?

i admit im that person who tries to obey to God, yet giving lame excuses to the entire world.

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. (matthew 5:14-15)

rev 2:10b Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you life as your victor’s crown.


after such a long hiatus, im finally back on blogger..

and it's not because im emo (guess i've learnt to not emo as much), but i guess it's the comments i saw on my tagboard..

it's like what Paul have said, 'not that i've achieve it, but i press on towards the goal'. not that im a fantastic blogger or a 'im there' christian, but i guess, by penning out my thoughts, im able to sort out my thoughts better and through that, share with everyone my journey with God and that i can learn to be a blessing to everyone.

yeah. anyway, thanks for visiting!