haha. back from korea still alive and yes, grateful for the trip.

God has been faithful, and true to His word. How can i say? the sun when i left for Korea, God spoke to my soul as a work of healing within my soul that felt neglected, that was unloved; to cause me to see that God was in the midst of all the brokeness waiting for me to be open for healing.

that fear of going to meet and deal with the weaknesses caused me to limit what God is able to do and really overimagine what things will be like.

Psa 27:10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then Jehovah will take me up.


alrights. finished knitting and presentation's over. whee! korea in less than 48 hours!

yup. looking forward to agape rally. cos i believe that God will still heal, if we have the faith to believe that God is mighty to save.

sometimes, i just feel i can't share anything here, cos it's just weird to go deeper, like the fear that ppl just dun understand. not that i doubt ur intellect, but will u see the same way as me? im just tired of being superficial on my blog.. if being superficial is the only way that u'll understand gillian most, i'd rather close this blog that has memories of me since 15? than to carry on being superficial.

most of u might think gillian is looking forward to the korea trip.. but im not. why? cos gillian is afraid, afraid of the things that is to come. afraid to go thru the refining fire. to see herself moving significantly out of her comfort zone.

'isn't it just a trip to korea to unwind after a bad semester?' NO. if i could, i'd rather not go anywhere, honestly. but because God promised that after going through refining, i would emerge more victorious than before and becos He'll never leave nor forsake me even the going gets tough.

and although gillian is like niaming not to go korea, but she knows that at the end, she will be glad that she went, not becos she shopped alot, but becos she had met God in her weaknesses that God is going to heal her of.