came back from retreat feeling more spiritually and mentally refreshed. yay!!!

it was at melodie's church's youth corner. the place's (and retreat itself too) like totally AWESOME!! and it's really like seeing my dream house in there.

like the place (a converted shophouse) is divided into 2: the rar- rar place (ground level) and the living area (level 2). like downstairs is we have the futsal, pool area, the worship area (incl. the stage), with the mural on the wall (which i loved alot; no picts cos phone no storage space) at the and the pantry- complete with microvave, toaster oven, sandwhich maker and alot of cool stuff in there. and over the pantry there was like a glass roof to allow natural light to come in, which was really pretty!

then the living area had like shelves of board games and a tv, a HUGE beannie and rocking chair, sofas in the 'living room' and also had various other rooms for cell groups and our supposedly slping quaters for retreat (which we didn't use at all in the end cos we decided to slp at the 'living room')which made it feel really homely. and the best part was that they had a games room- Xbox and mariokart! haha. and the crusaders had like a good time guitar hero-ing there. yeah.

and they had a place for bbq outside but we didn't use. haha

and we did a study on 2 timothy, like how paul taught timothy to be strong in the faith and charged him to groom ppl for the cause.

watched tuesdays with morrie (at 12 midnight!) and i guess the thing that caught a very seh me in the whole show was a line that goes 'love others, or die'

like why would u die if u dun love others? surely u dun see ppl collasping when they say or think that they hate other ppl.

morrie wasn't refering in the physical wold; rather he was talking about the unseen. we die emotionally and spiritually. when love dies, we detach ourselves from the world. nothing fazes us anymore. we hurt others and others hurt us. being hurt, we ask why are we here on this world? was there meant to be suffering? life then becomes meaningless and we drift around without a purpose. the dead no longer have a purpose when they die; they can't do anything anymore.

isn't it being good as dead?


add onns//

thank God that michele reminded me about the fellowship in retreat! yeah. got to talk to some of ppl whom i hardly talk to and caught up with some and interacted with the rest. like talked alot more to josiah (even tho we knew each other a long way back like i went for his church's junior camp in 2003 thru my classmate), caleb (i dun remember talking to him prior this retreat and we teamed up for futsal today and giggling about really random stuff like nothing together!), kenneth, kelvin (we always mix the names up. oops), yongliang; caught up with van, melodie and michele (i think is not caught up lors; more like im sharing and they are listening lors) and the rest, interacted. haha. lazy type.

well, doesn't matter if we just interacted or really talked like nobody's business when we see each other, but more importantly, this retreat has definitely brought relationship bonds to a higher level.


gillian is missing the big happy cell again.

argh. i noe that cell now's great, but she just can't help but miss the big happy cell, esp, when the welcome present is sitting right in front of the com every day. like all the notes in the welcome present were saying : 'welcome to OUR cell and really hope to noe u more' and stuff.

yeah. being sentimental once more.

oh wells. i really cannot help but images of the other half (of the cell) and the splinters (jeremy and josiah =p) just keep flooding back during cell, and yes, im really distracted about that.

hurhur. enough of missing the other half and the splinters. i must really look on the bright side of things like at least still can see all of them during prayer meetings, WADs and sundays.

yeah. and hors, im off for retreat in another 8 hrs, but i haven't packed. yeah. great.


argh. im still reeling from that shocked expression on e-on's face just now. hahaha.

gillian must not think of e-on!!! argh. then again, gillian finds it strange that it's only at night when she's at home then the feeling towards e-on is the strongest.

man.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. eph 6:12

yes. i believe there is a demon in my house, cos i've been getting insomia after my exams, so the option of stress is out and everytime i jolt awake, i see a (different) face staring at me. *shudders* (this is gerenally a child safe blog, but there is always the dark side, and i have to mention it cos it's very real in here.)

and the thing is that i need to find out where the 'unclean' thing is, cos at the rate im gg, im going crazy every night with all the thoughts that arouses me out of my sleep. but, then i haven't been able to find time for it. argh!!!

and yeah. in Jesus' name i shall proclaim that it will not give me insomia tonight.


did a little character analysis on ElRah's blog and wah, it's more accurate than the one i did during IAC class lors (maybe it's due to some misunderstanding of questions. hmmm.) here's what i've got...(no highlights cos i think everything about me is true)

ENFPs have a tendency to overextend themselves in both their physical and emotional commitments. Their proclivity to procrastinate and to overlook details complicates their circumstances. ENFPs often move on to new ventures without completing those they have already started. Their charming personalities can show signs of irritability and over-sensitivity when their desires to please different people come into conflict. During times of stress, ENFPs feel alienated. They then engage in deceptions that serve to obscure what is occurring within themselves.

The ENFP finds symbolic meanings behind the immediate circumstances. These meanings are construed as foreboding problems when ENFPs are under stress. Having a pervasive feeling of losing control over their own independent identities, ENFPs will feel virtually split apart by intruding circumstances. They will be "besides themselves" and "just not all there" — as if something, or someone, has taken away the essence of who they are. Not feeling like themselves, the ENFP will become subject to their own feelings of shame for being a phony, a fake or an impostor. If stress continues to grow, they may attribute malevolent schemes to others in order to explain away their fears.

Careers
This lists represent careers and jobs people of your type tend to enjoy doing. The job requirements are similar to the personality tendencies of your personality type. It is important to remember that this is not a list of all the jobs possible. And it is very important to remember that people can, and frequently do, fill jobs that are dissimilar to their personality... this happens all the time...and sometimes works out quite well.

conference planner
HR development trainer
ombudsman (for ppl hu dunno wad's this...here's the dictionary.com explaination:
1.a government official who hears and investigates complaints by private citizens against other officials or government agencies.
2.a person who investigates and attempts to resolve complaints and problems, as between employees and an employer or between students and a university.)

clergy
journalist
newscaster
career counselor (i do quite a far bit last time)
housing director
character actor
marketing consultant
musician/composer (maybe i can make good emo songs if i learnt an instrument)
artist (i dun mind...after the exposure from exploring art and design. whoot!)
information-graphics...designer (like that should have been in vis. comm le, not HLM le. lol.)
human resource manager
merchandise planner
advertising account manager
dietitian/nutritionist
speech pathologist
massage therapist (?!)
editor/art director (like that should have been in mass comm too le, not HLM le. lol.)

realised it's all the comm.


guess it wasn't as sentimental as i thought to be.

and i loved jeremy's note for me cos it really is encouraging. i guess like what yuen mun said la, he's really some one who... (paraphrase) really takes notice of other ppl and makes ppl feel important. this, is really one quality that i should learn from him from the 2 months plus that he was my cell leader.

but i haven't read everyone's note for me cos my card is stll with yao jie. yeah.

yeah. i must take out that courage that made me take the step of faith a few months back. but then, whether i do it or not, im already in a new cell. =p

should set some goals before attending the first cell meeting hors.

lalalalalala.

also, been reading this book called What's so amazing about grace? by philip yancey. think is a very good book; tears were welling up in my eyes a few times already (im only like 1/4 into the bok only)


2nd last day of sitting tgt as a cell.

really treasuring the last few hours of that.

okays, i shall not be that sentimental. like what jeremy said, every cell is different and is dynamic in its own way, so i shall stop looking back and look forward to something new and exciting ba.

man, im more sentimental now as compared to when i moved over to harvester from zion. and it's not that anyone's leaving. haha. that really shows how strong bonds are in our big happy cell.

yep. and i should stop thinking of e-on and really trust God that in His own time, He will bring me the one and even if it is e-on, let it be then.

faith without believing is not faith, so im going to have faith and believe and trust God that everything that He has planned for me, He will bring them to pass.


Gillian is proud to announce that EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! hallelujah!!!!

yay. time to rest, restore and restart. (sounds familiar? that's the theme for zion church camp this yr!)

yes, after a topsy turvy semester, it's time to take a break and enjoy the plants and ask God for directions for the new semester.

and i need to calm my emotions down and i will not let anyone/ anything have a grip over me just because my feelings for him aren't solved.

yes, and i think that God is soon showing me who mr right may be and i really hope and pray that it's really e-on. (but if it's not him then God must have someone even better then! btw, e-on is just the edited nickname of my AVs [ Saintpaulia ionanatha hybrids. 'ionantha' is pronounced as 'ee-o-nan-tha'] given by my friends)

haha. got such thing as Saintpaulia ionanatha 'Gillian' but no Saintpaulia ionanatha 'guesseonsname'.

yeah. meeting yaojie for dinner before prayer meeting but then i dunno if he ended his paper already anot. (if u are wondering, im at home in the end cos i wasn't feeling too well so i went home to zzz instead, so that's y im at the com.) muahahahahahaha.


add onns//

i can't believe i did and said sth stupid in front of jeremy. okay, this time i really hope that u can read this even tho i think percentage of u reading this is like small.

i really dun mean to say that i dun appreciate you as my cell leader; in fact i would be like so super duper overjoyed if u stayed on to be with us. but then if the leaders (and u) decide that it's tine for u to move on SMU, then of course i have to say bye to u as my cell leader and like say hi to kenny as my cell leader.

i really dunno what to expect in this whole change. like really. being a pretty sentimental person, i dun really know how i should react to the next few weeks of cell. like no more jeremy, yuenmun, teegan, vickky, hongling, eddison, josiah...man. im gonna miss the days of u guys reminding me to attend church activities, reminding me to be quiet when im in my lauffing mode when it's time to be serious...

argh. if i in ANY way seem to be happy about this whole thing, that's because im trying to think of the brighter side of things or either that im putting a stronger front. the end.

and gilian says she missed e-on terribly, even tho she saw him just now, but he didn't say bye to her. hmmmmph. (maybe cos he never wanted to say good bye to her....) [GILLIAN GOH! who do u think u are?!]


one more day to end of exams, but gillian is not happy.

cos she won't get to see e-on during weekdays from next week onwards. argh.

and anyway, for cell, im still with qiaozhen, zhili, yaojie, liangyi and shujun and kenny will be my cell leaders. as for the other side, it's teegan, edwin, eddison (?), vicky, germaine and desiree with hong ling and yuen mun as cell leaders and if u're wondering where is josiah and jeremy in the placement, that's cos they 2 are transfering out of this big happy family to bless the youths and SMU cells respectively.

im so gonna miss the rest. like not that i dun get to see them during weekends, but not seeing them for cell is simply weird, and u noe, i was just getting used to this big happy 'family' cell and learning to love every single one in it and now we are multiplying.

and yes, gillian is pretty upset and she forgot the verse she wanted to bless everyone with.

anyway, before i remember wad that verse was, i really thank God that i was being able to open up during the group sharing, that i was able to let the ppl in my group and yes, that includes e-on too, to have a little glimspe of what my poly emotional life had been like in a nut shell.

oh wells. yeah. so far for now. need to study and zzz!!


And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? -Mat 6:30

verse of the day from K-LOVE on sunday.. and yeah, i guess feeling kind of shaky and faithless during the weekend, esp when it came to deal with the issues of the heart.

im not shaky deciding that we have gone too far (and we should have stopped), but rather, im more concerned and upset about the implications that my actions have brought bought on his life.

yes, it was all due to my recklessness over the past year plus that things have turned out this way. really, i was blinded by emotions and the things that were said gotten into my head.

all these while, He was waiting for me to turn back. turn back to see something even better that was planned for me.

maybe mr right may never appear in my life, but im contented staying single or the rest of life cos He is my bridegroom, and im part of the church, who is the bride.

oh wells.

anyway, thank God for His faithfulness, for granting me wisdom in PBPN (altho i still dunno how to do qns 6 cos i never studied. haha, that goes without saying la!!!)


feeling perturbed and restless after QT.

like confused and i dunno what im feeling also.

like it's really affecting everything too. can't concentrate in studying too.

and at the rate im gg, im gg to screw up this whole sem.

add onns//

thank God for seeing me thru PM paper. yeah.

went in to the room and only to my horror that he was sitting beside me la. yes, it was a plain torture, cos every like 5- 10 mins i have to ask God to denouce everything that was going thru my mind.

really hope that the next two papers i will not sit beside him. it was torturous because every time i rested or paused to think, i have a habit of turning to my left and tada! i will face him. and when i do that, all my emotions (good and bad) towards him will subconciously appear in my mind and i feel that im too consumed to think of anything.

yes. and not only him, but of other matters too.

God, i really need to break these chains that are suffocating me.


been a crazy weekend.

like yest. was saturation, so went to lavender bright and early to study PM and then met the rest at 11.

it was pretty fun and scary, cos the blocks were built to be not very bright and the spiritual atmosphere seems eerrie...(but of course not as bad as cambodia). so jheng (he was my partner for the day) and i went over and gave out the leaflets and yeah. really thank God for him cos he did like 3/4 of the blocks cos my fingers hurt alot from all the wire bending on thurs and fri (had bruises on my finger joints) and they were like retarded as in the sense that i wasn't able to flip paper as effectively as before (like i take 2-3 times more than normal) yeah, and he got so carried away until he did 2 floors (he thought it was only one) for me lors. haha. thanks jeremy!! (even tho i highy doubt that he will get to read this post unless he notices the link on my fb account and clicks on it.)

yeah! and today was the colour coded day for the cell. (idea was from zhili and me, cos we always wanted to wear similar style for service [what a bimbo] and we plus qiaozhen decided to colour code the cell) and i can always remember the guys' reaction when we suggested to them like last week. haha. all the shock and horror on their faces and that scowl on yuen mun's face!!! classic man. should have taken pict la. haha.

yeah, and so our dear brothers were mostly in blue (with the exception of jeremy- he was in like deep, bright pink! thank you for being so enthu about our colour code day.) and zhili and i were in like in similar cutting and colour tops! haha. yay. at least that was the closest we can get so far.

yeah, not too sure how we are going to split/ multiply the cell after this cell grp meeting on thurs. boohooohooo!! man. i sure dun wanna spilt cos im just getting used to everyone in the cell!! nnnnnnnoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna be with zhili and qiaozhen, with hongling, with vicky, jeremy, yuen mun, teegan, yaojie, josiah, liangyi and eddison during cell!!! okay, that's like almost the whole cell with the exception of desiree and germaine cos im not close to them and maybe finding abit hard to talk to them. okay, maybe it's just me.

and i badly wanted to go for afternon service today but couldn't cos i badly needed to study for PM (and actually PBPN also). and so met hong yi to study. yeah, and i also managed to clear my doubts on the weedicides cos that hong yi happened to have ms kan's no.

yeah. and throughout the studying, my heart was aching to go for afternoon service cos i really wanted to be in God's prescence and i could feel that every single cell within me was screaming at me to run back to hcc to be in His prescence.

yes. and i played some hillsongs to soothe my restless soul. now tht makes me wonder how did ppl in the past managed to live without ipod and mp3 players when they are experiencing the same emotion as me.

and speaking of studying, i haven't really studied much today also.


haven't blogged in ages cos was rushing LCPN model.

thank God that it is finished now, even tho it was late submission.

thank God for His providence, that He provided 9 ppl to help me with my model (in any ways) when ed wasn't around, and for the prayer warriors, and for the ppl who gave materials for the model.

thank God for the people (not in order of appearance): jian min (teaching us how to do lawn and helping to give ideas and for listening to all my rantings about LCPN), fang and mabel (for helping me to pack my stuff when i couldn't make it back to sch on tues, for helping to paint the feature wall, the pavings, doing the trees and bugging edward for me, and bugging me to concentrate when i couldn't focus and also trying to find resources for me last min), wesley (for giving ideas and helping me to stick the railings [even tho it was later destroyed by ed cos he needed to paint the platform] and also sending me christian songs when i needed encouragement), bee lian (for doing the railings, even tho design was changed later), derrick (for trying to help me cut the cardboard [thanks for the thought]), hong yi (for helping me to do miscelleanous stuff today when he was supposed be studying and also listening to all my rants about everything) and my sis for being my welfare officer and for doing the pavings (even tho the thing warped like siao later) and for redoing the feature wall and last but not least, mom staying in sch with me till eleven and for packing up the stuff and piling all the things into the car when the workshop was closed.

people who donated/ loaned materials and tools: jerome, ernest, derrick (one grp), mabel and jian min

yeah, i noe i was pretty pissed with edward cos i felt that he was trying to let me lead the project but yet at the same time, he wanted to be in control, so like half the time it was he asked me if he could do in a certain manner and i told him no and yet, he still did it. which lead me to redo some of the things that i asked him to do (due to time constrain)and i was like ARGH!

yeah. and ms tek liked the design but the workmanship was like crap (cos of the steps and railings, which i bend until i had blisters and calluses on my fingers and i can't believe that i spent like a week plus to do those things stated above lors!) then she asked if we were interested in redoing during the hols cos she wanted dr hedy goh to showcase our model. then i told her tat i really dun mind cos i wanted to do in a different style but i need sponsors. and the best thing was that she said she will talk to dr hedy goh abt it seriously if i really wanted to redo! *happy*

yup. and i went for prayer meeting today cos i felt that God wanted me to go. and altar call today was for ppl who had serious problems at home or at the workplace and couldn't felt God's prescence anywhere (which was exactly wad i have been experiencing recently)

and at the altar i felt God was moving in me and i couldn't help but to break down and cry out to God that i need His sovereignty and really after that that peace that was missing the whole sem came back again.

thank You God, for reminding me that we are more precious than a flock of sparrows.

and yes! agape healing rally next week! whoo! it's open to everybody and anybody on 23 and 24 Aug! details, please find me.


dang ai yi ge ren jiu shi yao fang shou d shi hou.

shen me shi jiao zhuo ai? ai yi ge ren shi gai ru he de ne?

shi yao zhui qiu xia qu hai shi yao fang shou ne?

wo xuan ze le fang shou.

xin tong, hui shi duan zhan de, dan shi, ru guo hou hui, na jiang shi yi bei zi de shi.

wo ning ke hou hui mei you zai yi qi, ye bu yao cheng dan yi ge quo wu de relationship.

wo yao jiang shou shang zhan man zhe ai yi de xin fong jiao gei yi ge bi wo gen you zi ge da kai ta.

xin li de zhe mo, shui nen liao jie ne?


darn. i just so can't believe that im so super duper attracted towards him.

like okay. i should really stop thinking about him.

like hello gillian, there are so many smart and nice guys around in singapore, let alone the whole wide world and i dun think u will fall for each and every sngle one when u meet them.

heh heh.

gillian is super attracted towards smart and nice/ gentleman-ly (tall) guys (like hu doesn't hur?).

okays, main point is not to talk about gillian's new crush.

yeah, anyway, i've just forgotten/ just remembered again what i wanted to blog already.

dad offered to pay for my lasik surgery after cousins went for one. -.- like *shocks* i really cannot imagine myself in an operating theater having sth to force open my eyes and then shooting beams of laser into my eyes. *shudders*

and it's not 100% safe and then if u dun take care, myopia's gonna come back again , and then im just not comfortable taking a risk on my eyes. (it's like anywhere except my eyes, cos i can see wad's gg on!!)

yeah. and im drowning in LCPN model and SDPN project. hur hur.


it nv fails to amaze me at how i dunno so much things abt ppl.

i cannot figure out whether it's really just my ignorance, or it is just part of human nature.

i always knew that i can be pretty ignorant about ppl's comments and nv took any to heart if i think that those comments are made ignorantly, but this time round, im affected by some comments and i really cannot figure out why that person made that comment.

i guess, my mindset's can vary from others, like real different, and im not discussing this matter publicly.


it was said that even the quietest person would have the power to influence 10, 000 ppl in his lifetime.

10,000 people- it's alot, ain't it? but thinking back, for the past almost 19 years of existance of my life, i have like 500+ friends on friendster (f i nv remember wrongly) and another 300 odd on facebook (and of course there will be repeats la.) so counting the repeats and maybe the ppl that are not on facebook and friendster and those whom i lost contacts with already, i dare say that in my journey on this earth thus far, i would have been accquainted with like 900, 1000 (or even more) people already.

and i've hardly have much talking in the past.

yeah. and so i was thinking for the last few mins, that how widely accquainted we all must be, considering the fact that im not that outspoken and only became 'little miss talkative' like not too long ago.

and with the added bonus of internet- with one click, we can say hi to the whole world (if we want, that is) and everyone seems more accessible than before.

so how have we been excerising our power to influence ppl?

have we been a blessing to others? or have we been a nuisance to them? have we been thankful to the people who have moulded us or who we are? or are we cursing those who had been influencing us? are we letting the positive ppl molding us or vice versa?

let the deeds that you do speak truth to the world of who you really are.


seemingly thoughts are all over the place and i feel distracted.

distracted by the things of the world and also the conversations around me.

somehow i feel that im losing myself and the ppl whom i treasure alot and that thought scares me.

not that i shouldn't be, but i feel that im becoming emotioness and becoming more and more mechanical in doing things.

and like what jheng was trying to show in that demonstration just before cell yesterday, satan is always trying his ways and means to get us into a corner and tempting us into giving him things that is rightfully belongs to us with the illusion that we do not have the right to owe it and it belongs to someone else.

maybe this is the thing that fang was trying to point out to me that time.

losing myself in a sea of faces.

(mabel just passed by and commented that i looked stressed, but actually im more upset than stressed at this point of time)

i guess, i do noe the remedy for my insecurities, but then i really dunno what is stopping me from action.

Jesus is my anchor; He is the same yesterday, today and forevermore.

i will sing praises to Him, even in my darkest times for he will never leave nor forsake me.

Psalms 39
Psa 39:1 To the chief Musician, even to Jeduthun, A Psalm of David. I said, I will take heed to my ways, that I sin not, with my tongue: I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me.
Psa 39:2 I was dumb with silence, I held my peace, even from good; and my sorrow was stirred.
Psa 39:3 My heart was hot within me, while I was musing the fire burned: then spoke I with my tongue,
Psa 39:4 LORD, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is; that I may know how frail I am.
Psa 39:5 Behold, thou hast made my days as a handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before thee: verily every man at his best state is altogether vanity. Selah.
Psa 39:6 Surely every man walketh in a vain show: surely they are disquieted in vain: he heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them.
Psa 39:7 And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee.
Psa 39:8 Deliver me from all my transgressions: make me not the reproach of the foolish.
Psa 39:9 I was dumb, I opened not my mouth; because thou didst it.
Psa 39:10 Remove thy stroke away from me: I am consumed by the blow of thine hand.
Psa 39:11 When thou with rebukes dost correct man for iniquity, thou makest his beauty to consume away like a moth: surely every man is vanity. Selah.
Psa 39:12 , Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears: for I am a stranger with thee and a sojourner, as all my fathers were.
Psa 39:13 O spare me, that I may recover strength, before I go hence, and be no more.

God, you noe my heart my deeds and im calling out, 'Light the fire again' beacuse i need You. Clothe me in white, for im naked and poor, wretched and bind, so i won't be afraid. Lord, light the fire again.

add onns//

did u realise that this post is more of the 'old gillian'? so happy. maybe cos im wearing my spects today. like i really find that i cannot live without my this pair of spects.

like this is the longest pair that i've worn (about 4 years?) and with it, i've seen so many different aspects of life and with it, i've seen so many and have used it to create so many sentiments/ memories that are worth keeping.

yeah. tho i keep saying that i wanted to change spects/ move on to contacts, i find that when i wear my contacts, it just seem so different.

ya, not just the freedom of being spect-less, but my train of thoughts are also visibly different.

(next time contacts for bimbo days and spects for intellectual days. haha!)


okays. back after disappearing. haha.

gillian was very amused yesterday and today, with thanks whether it's directly to her anot.

yeah, like found out that the cell's going PINK! like P-I-N-K. haha. like the pinkies were jheng (the human doc., for ur infomation), yao jie, vicky and 1/4 gillian (thanks to my 'always late but worth the wait' shirt) . haha.

okay. maybe im amused for nothing, but to be reminded that our 3 dear friends (esp. vicky) didn't really like pink and to see them wear TOGETHER is actually quite hilarious. (or then again, maybe it's just me.)

haha. yeah, and so i was like like luffing at them.

yeah. and somehow being with the cell has made me feel really happy, and you nv know how much u'll appreciated them until u look back. yeah, lunch was nv once boring, like time passes super quickly when u laugh, jab at each other playfully in words and of course playing at the board games table @the hawker.

and of course it helps when u know that ppl actually remembers the side comments that u made. haha.

anyway, yeah, in short, to be in poly one cell is a blessing. (thought of yesterday)

and then was just reading daryl's email about sam's farewell party (cos he's leaving on logos hope) and it was so super him, and funny (was luffing all the way thru, seriously! esp. when it came to the 'comprehensive' map), and it really makes u feels that it's really all these little things that ppl do for friends that makes a friendship more precious.

yeah. haha. getting abit carried away/ sentimental. haha.