too many events that rocked the hols or rather this week. yep. the good and the bad.
yeap. maybe i shall not elaborate futher. yep. ask me abt it.


Consider Christ, the source of our salvation.
That he should take the penalty for me
Though he was pure, a lamb without a blemish
He took my sins and nailed them to the tree.

My Lord and God, You are so rich in mercy
Mere words alone are not sufficient thanks
So take my life, transform, renew and change me
That I might be a living sacrifice.

Consider Christ, that He could trust his Father
In the garden of Gethsemane.
Though full of dread and fearful of the anguish
He drank the cup that was reserved for me.

Consider Christ, for death He has defeated
And He arose, appeared for all to see
And now he sits at God’s right hand in heaven
Where He prepares a resting place for me


sheesh. i haven't really posted anything abt camerons and youth camp, and now it's like CHRISTMAS!!!!
sigh sigh. and 6 more days before school reopens. like hey! i haven't had enough of my hols lar!!!! grrrrrr....
some updates: went for my first db (dragonboat) training and i was glad of the nice tan now...wahaha...but i just have to have very bad muscle aches (im not complaining...) and heatstoke. so yar...it's not nice being sick druing christmas. sigh.
anyways, i felt bad not doing much for christmas..thanks to all who gave me prezzies, cards and sms-es and all. haha. im not good in giving pressies and all...haha.
yep. thanks to jas and julia for that threadless tee!! whee...cool tee there! like it's so ironic...1 tree can make a million matchsticks and yet that 1 matchstick can destroy a million trees. haha. therefore lesson learnt: dun play with matchsticks. cos u will destroy like 100,000,000,0000 future matchsticks. wahaha. take that.
random-ness. haha. oh wells. =) what else can u do when u are typing a post at 2 am?
oh wells. something came into my mind when i was blog surfing...but i forgot wad i wanted to type liaos.
anyways, im sorry that i've been pretty much anti-social ever since 2007 started, or rather, when poly started. yep. maybe it's cause im in a pretty different phase of life than most of u all are in, u all being in sec sch, jc, whatever. and me with a very 'ulu' course. but i hope it will not be an excuse any longer for me to remain in my comfort zone and remain anti-social....
gosh! i think i kind of sound like ed! haha...with the 'i hope...' phrase. lol. okayys. it's almost 3 already. i heard that ppl down with heat stroke needs loads of rest...so why am i still here?


ignite camp's was GOOD. yeah. even though i didn't really know what i was doing during worship. okay, as in the sense that i couldn't concentrate on worship, because most of the songs i didn't know how to sing and more importantly,i felt that there was a barrier between me and God.
yep. God showed me the things that has been hindering me from my walk with Him. like my childhood hurts and all. God did show me once and asked me to surrender that all to Him but at that point of time, i did not have that courage to step out of my comfort zone to hand over that burden, that weight that was pulling me away from God because i didn't know what would have happened. i was afraid and also i really didn't noe how to just hand it to God. those hurts, those negative thoughts, seems to be deeply etched in my heart, though unseen, yet they will always be there in a dark corner.
yep. thank God for the games group: meiqing, waichit, mingzhu, zhenyuan, norman(he really reminded me of kenji from the side view... =p), jack (kate's brother), vivian, maggie and my sis. yeah. great ppl. haha.
and then... yeah, God spake to me lors.... for more info, please contact the relevent ppl to ask or maybe u can watch out this space.


juat came back from camerons. ad leaving for a camp tomorrow.
will be posting picts later from camerons and my photography trip from plmgps to home. yeah. that mad thing i did when i was bored and that the rest were somewhere not in plmgps.
oh wells. i dunno what is going on anymore.
emotions running high, and alot of unmet expectations. i dunno why is this happening but it's realy affecting all of us.
maybe it's just the environment that we were brought up in. i understand that all of us are different and the way we react to things are pretty different. but to expect ppl to understand each other well in a period less than a year is, i feel, far too a short period of time is really too demanding a request to make.
i mean, i personally dun take that little time to noe a person well and it's like only time is able to corrode away any facades that we have in our lives and it takes ppl different times to be able to open up to other ppl and even a longer time to bare their innermost feelings. u can't say to other ppl that just becos i take tis amt of time to open up to u, u must also use that same period of time to open up this much of urself to me. ppl dun work in that way.
forcing ppl to open up to u may not work well and may even backfire. ppl may be on the defensive mode and may just well, clam up to you.
u really cannot expect me to noe when u are feeling down and out with something really obviously wrong. first of all, my friends dun tell me that they are feeling down with this kind of hints. they just tell me why and when and how liaddat and not with hints. secondly, u can't expect me to noe whether u noe it already or not. it could be well just a pure mistake and also i am not a worm in ur stomach hu noes anything.
friendships takes time to nurture but this process can be hastened by a catlyst called common way of dealing things which can be hard to find in friends.
friends are ppl who are willing to invest time to get to noe u and also accept each other for who you are. u can't simply skip the process in getting to noe ur friend better and just tell them, oh u are my friend when u dun take the effort to know the person. and when things happen then u realise that oh, my impression of so and so was actually wrong or whatever.
i did try my best to change wadever all tell me, but sometimes, ppl really cannot change their way of fuctioning to other ppl's needs. something struck me yst when i was watching an epsiode of da chang jin in camerons. chang jin remembered wad her mentor said of her that ppl can change in an instant, but that is not real change because it takes time for a person to change.
i can't learn overnight how to cha yan guan se, becos it is not my inborn ability to do so and im afraid that i can't learn that either. it only takes a lifetime of learning on how ppl really function and react to things. it took me years to understand a person and then i realise that when i noe a person really well, they would have changed.


gillian's feeling happy.

one thing is that she have rekindled her love of drawing and also she has been feeling happy cos the term break's coming and it's gonna be a new year soon. =)

somehow the spirit of hols. are dampening off thanks to the lecturers becos of all the term hols assignment. sigh.

anyways, im glad im gg camerons in the hols even tho i have a 1001 things and more piling up.

i hope i can squeeze time in between during the hols to pamper myself for all that hectic-ness during this period of time.