Gillian's is such a scatterbrain. heh. nearly left my lappie for good at canteen 1. dang. thank God that my lappie's still there. =p


IS's so so so so boring....ZZZZZ. save me.


well well. blog's half dead. =p


whoa. irritating! that hongyi just had to waste my money on a long distance call becos he was in m'sia and i didn't noe. so much for that.


oh wells. mad day and thank God for His provendence. haha. shall not ela-bo-liate here. haha. but u can always ask me, fang or melissa wad happened.


and gillian been feeling pretty sad recently becos eye candy just told her that he has been dispatched to somewhere else (leaving on 15 nov) and will not be coming back to np again. (she thinks it's like this. yeah.) it's sad becos after all, he had been her instructor during the snw days and also ppl get sad when their friends leave. NOOOOOOO!!!!! she wanna things to stay like this until she graduates from NP!!!!! why must this be so?


sigh. then again, tian di xia na you bu shan de yan xi? wel, hope that the next time she see him, things would get better.


sigh sigh. wad a bad week.


haha. thanks to those who cared. =)


finally decided to see the doctor. heh. just a viral infection and yay! no anti- biotics and panadol. =) hahahahaha.


i hate 'em. yeah.


feel like sleeping and just resting. okies. i think i shall be off. i need my energy to work tml and also for IS modules. and research for alot more stuff. and others.


hmm. i just realised that i forgot to say that eye candy have a gf. heh. from today onwards, no one is to say anything more about him or whatsoever. CASE CLOSED.


yep.


really wanna thank my ex-good friend tanvee for 'boyfriend curfew'. haha. now that i've 'graduated' that 'curfew' like 11 days ago, and i realised that i pretty much liked the curfew, im gonna extent that 'curfew'.....say another 3 more years? haha. yeah. i like being 'free', and as i told my very worried mom, that if i dun have a boyfriend like say in another decade or so, im going to marry my bean bean. HAHAHA. like really! im going to marry my dou dou sian sheng. =p haha.


for the ppl hu dunno...bean bean is that thing from mr bean the soya bean drink shop, which i hang it on my crumpler. yeap. so far, it looks like im going to marry my bean bean. =) becos my Mr right hasn't stepped into my radar screen for a bf yet.


i never knew i could come up with so many wise sayings in a day. heh.


the one i like most was that 'relationships are useless(?) if God didn't choose the person for you to be in a relationship' dang. i forgot wad i said! i can't believe this. sheesh sheesh and sheesh.


haha. i better bring a tape recorder and tape wad i say next time. and compile it into a recording of gillian's sayings


oh wells.


im gg on a photograhy trip with ben and jas later...but i can't find my camera! one kind.


yawns. im tired.


i noe i haven't been updating...


Thank God that i only have 4 tutorials and a lecture this whole week! God provides. haha. the full time lecturers are all on retreat today and tml... and one lesson was cancelled on monday. so yar. i have more time to adjust my sleeping habits, goals and mentality for this sem.


im actually still trying to adjust to poly life and enjoying it. i noe i've stepped into ngee ann since 16 april and now's already 18 october... that's a good half a year already...6 months and 2 days, but i have yet adjusted myself proper.


wells. i hope this sem would be a 'stepping stone' semester, where i can settle down into the regime of poly life and to really learn and make use of what i have to widen my knowledge, be it in academics or biblical knowledge.


whee! typing this makes me so excited about school! wahahaha. so hapy. really. never knew setting goals can be so happy one. like it's a sense of satisfaction and it makes me feel very organised. maybe laniel diu was correct. i am an organised person after all. at least i like to feel that im one. haha.


okies. gillian shall be off to write down my goals in her new journal! (thanks to fang, ed and hy for that!) yay. i hope i can finish that book. (which means that gillian might not post as often liaos..cos she has all written it down in her journal and that journal is gonna be private. :) )


i relised that i have quite alot of ppl that i forgot to thank in that last 2 posts. yep. to those who msged me and all, thanks. hehe. and edward for jio-ing me for lunch even tho i already had a lunch date with van van. =)


just realised that hols are coming to an end. NOOOOOOOO!!!!! means projects, tests, and wad-not's coming back again. just when i started to love my job... and i still have to work thru the semester.


rawr rawr. this can't be the end of my hols, when i just started truly appreciating hols. argh.


and im pretty sick of listening to those songs in the gym. lousy music as what jasmine aptly describes! i agree man. so degrading of my mind. blearghx. okies. no offences here, but i seriously (ernie's slang!) hates them. yeah.


yar. i didn't get a chance to blog yesterday's afternoon/ night ramblings. man. this is such a wonderful time of surprises.


heh. thanks van, daniel liu and ernie (another oct 9 boy yay!) for the great time yesterday! haha. loved you all loads. yep. im really very touched by all the things that u all went to do. haha.


VAN!---> thanks for the pressies and the meal at megabites! and also for the little cake. and of course the conversation that we had.


DANIEL LIU!---> thanks for all that sabotage on the 8th and for that surprise gift yest! haha. thanks alot. =) yay. im REALLY TOUCHED!!!!


ERNIE!---> yay. my gym partner. thank you for sharing all those yest even tho i may not look like im concentrating, BUT I AM okays! i will look more concentrated to u talking next time. okies. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!! and im really glad that u liked that small ernie! haha. i noe what to get you for ur birthday next yr! haha. okies, remember that God's always with you and He has a plan for all that okies, because He's going to do something great in your life! cheer up and your're always welcomed to join me for lunch/ breaks okays? and if u ever decide to join us in worshipping God on thurs evenings, WE WILL WELCOME YOU! cos you are special in God's eyes! (cos psa 139: 14 says so! ..I am fearfully and wonderfully made..(remember that!)) =)


okies. yeah. dinner was good. haha. mom wanted to bring me to mandrin oriental to eat, but i din't want...so after that we headed down to raffles city to eat crepe at out of the pan and dessert at somewhere. yep.


and my dad made me a giganormously huge rack to place all my plants on it!!! whee.


yay! thanks all for all the bd wishes, even tho u all thot it was belated or sth.( NO!!!IT"S TODAY!!!) haha. gillian is a happy girl! wahahahah. yay.


yesterday's steamboat was good, with all that surprises and the maluating moments at ben and jerry's. haha. but it was good. =D


and u all have been very good to make me cry. hmmph. lol. u all made me cry like at least 4 times within 3 weeks. from slr to T.U.T camp to this. haha. and ESPCIALLY YOU MICHELE. reading the stuff that u put in the envelope on the bus, i started crying la becos i listening to my music, which so happened to be Newsboys' When You Called My Name ( i was reading old jim's prayer and then the chorus came in...which was 'when You called my name/ I didn't know how much Father what You meant' (or sth liaddat, correct me if u noe the lyrics)). then i think everyone thought i was siao or sth. wahahaha.


yar...and tears were welling in my eyes when walking home cos this was such a different birthday celebration that i normally have. haha.


yar. =) thanks guys and gurls! love u all loads! but i hope u all won't give me a surprise while im working today tho cos yesterday was enough already thanks to saboteur LANIEL DIU! wahahaha. lol.


meeting van van later for lunch yay! =)


arh...wanted to post yesterday how i was pissed by some ppl during service cos they were non stop talking about anything under the sky but relaing to the service and sms-ing other ppl! so irritating la. but this time i managed to control my anger and tried to focus my attention towards service and God. but i kinda lost. heh.


argh. not the first time already lei. please la, if u find going to church and service such a chore, please dun come la, no one's forcing u to come. u come only to disturb other ppl who wants to worship God in His house.


speaking of which, it IS the house of God, not a house of Gossip- mongers la. irritants.


oh wells. typing this makes my blood pressure high and my blood boiling. rawr.


on a happier note.


decided to surprise jasmine at evening service. haha. it's such a flop la. cos i came late and then i ended up so embarassed when i changed seats cos ben sms-ed me to sit beside him. *piangs* so paisei la. lol. so i only managed to surprised her after service. haha.


im so looking forward to steamboat-ing with the crusaders later! yay. but mel not going....nvm, we'll miss u. haha. great to go and meet up with them after T.U.T camp. yay.


anyways, to add on to my already- high emotions while working/ blogging...it's my BIRTHDAY TOMORROW. haha. okies. abit bhb la. but then im happy cos im supposed to be happy? haha. actually im also v sian cos im a yr on paper older!


haha. all that excuses. anyway, my working partner's not here! where is he?! hmmmph. irritating.



add onns//


tsk. u just have to do it in front of me, do u? nvm im not going to let u all affect my feelings.


and im okay. like really. i just have to get it off my chest before i explode here. im so not going to let u affect my feelings right before my birthday. never. i will not let it get the better of me, because tomorrow's my birthday and nth shall spoil it even tho i dun like to feel old and wad- not and also beacause i promised myself to get over you.


FaITH, I can move all mountains, I can move all things through Christ, who strengthens ME!


yay. *claps claps* always look on the bright side of the christian faith, cos God did and will continue to do wonders! lalaa.


felt pretty happy today, not becos of prayer and praise (strangely, becos we all love zhiwen's worship sessions, but somehow, i dun feel that happiness when i was at the worship sessions at T.U.T camp and SLR becos i feel that i dun have the freedom to move to the beat of music and thus, i find that the whole worship session that was supposed to be a happy occasion where we glorify God became a very dead session, like the voices were there, but the owners of the voices dun seem to be too happy. c'mon, king david danced too, when he worshipped God publically on the streets of Jerusalem.) but rather, becos jose and sandra came for yf today! yay.


yar. hope they can continually come for yf and hopefully next time, YAM lors. yay.


hur hur.


after the spiritual high from camps, it's always so hard to mantain it, not in this family at least.


it's always feel so good at camps, where u are placed in a controlled christian environment, where all ur distractions, ur frustrations are taken from u temporarily so that u can come to God freely to worship Him, and u will feel oh so good and u'll never want to leave camp.





when u burst that bubble, everything's gone. okie, not everything, cos memories will never fade nor at least disappear from ur brains permanently.


well well. random musings.


but i will try.


T.U.T camp was good la.


see, i told u that u all would miss the fun. blearghx.


c'mon.


wahahaha. self- high again. sian. no one high with me one....


now now....


blah. wad am i typing sia...okies. i think i should type a proper post, but later.