GiLLiE aka gillian;
Clueless about the world; and not knowing where she would go from here; yet firmly believing that God is in control.
She wants to tell the world about JESUS, the man who came to transform her world.
Prompted by
Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for
God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man:
But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.
(James 1:13-14)
For we
wrestle, not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the
darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. (Ephesians 6:4)
And he saith unto them, Follow me, and
I will make you fishers of men. (Matthew 4:19; Mark 1:17)
10:45 PM
gillan wished that she could continuously throwing hoops at the arcade. just throw and throw. like throwing all her troubles and unhappiness away.
had fun going out with ed, fang and hy today. but i was real beat. first to reach home among the 4 of us and also first to drift to lala land. =) haha. to think that i wanted to go beo plants somemore. =)
nananana. i wanna throw hoops. fingers itching again. if only the basketball board wasn't spoilt...then i can go shoot hoops man.
but oh wells. I NEED TO PACK FOR T.U.T CAMP!!! rawr. no clothes again.
6:32 PM
bloody hell. get out of my life. like i dun need u.
damn. just GET OUT.
if u didn't realise, THIS IS WAD I CALLED PISSED/ ANGRY.
i dun need irritating ppl in my life.
and...oh wells. just IRRITATING. and u ARE CHOKING ME. i wish u will just disappear. like adacadabra! *poof...*
anyways, i didn't have much of a mood to begin with.
BANG! *this would happen if anyone piss me off.* try me if u dare.
im sorry if u were looking for a happier post, but my general mood hadn't been that fantastic, save yesterday, when i was working yesterday, happily cam- whoring and learning more about my dopod with ernie.
5:43 PM
teach me to have a compassion like Yours for the people around me; teach me to use Your love for me to love the unlovables.
been pretty short tempered even after slr. like these tempers just come and i flare; and stays as long as i see those ppl.
maybe im just tempted to get angry and i did get angry.
ARGH. gillian, keep your cool. like really. blah blah blah......
hey! u ppl out there....
3:36 PM
on an emotional rollercoaster duing slr. like whoa!
but it was good. even tho i was like dying thruout the camp and all.
and yar. it was good.
thinking if i should go on the unconfessed truth camp. sounds good. ngee ann-ers...u guys should consider to go. it's a camp whereby u all can embark on a learning journey to noe who this man Jesus that christians love and more about the faith and u dun have to be obliged to become one after the camp (even tho it would be great if u really want to after going for this camp.)
i noe it's really rushed, but u all can sign up for the camp still! it's from 1- 4th oct (yeah, i noe it's next week.) and it's $40 (think of it this way, $10 a day with 3 meals and lodging and u really get to noe alot of ngee ann-ers from the various schools plus u get a t-shirt too and also not forgetting u get to ask christians all abt our faith without feeling embarassed! ain't it great?)
see! kill so many birds in one....now if u all are interested in this camp, u all can drop a line at the tagboard, or msn me if u have my email add or u can just call me (that again, if u have my no.)! c'mon, the fun's going to be there....BUT ARE YOU IN IT?
2:04 AM
you said it best when u said nothing at all.
some times, words are just so not needed to express feelings and thoughts, in fact, they can be redundant and could even cost you more trouble.
words, words, why do u carry so much weight in our lives?
just some random musings after my random thoughts in the previous posts has caused so much misunderstanding.
first of all, im SINGLE AND NOT ATTACHED and not really looking. happy if i can find my Mr Right, and still overall very happy even if i haven't found my Mr Right even tho i may rant here and there.
second thing, i have decided to get over eye candy very long time ago and have almost succeeded. DO NOT, i reapeat, DO NOT, come kachiau me becos of him.
third thing, i want to live my life peacefully and quietly. so dun come and nag at me yyy i no bf next time. if i dun find that person, im going to be a old virgin till i die. full stop.
fourth thing, if i ever get a bf again, that is, i will announce it until the whole gillian's friends' world noes abt it. so if u dun hear anything from me, that's probably untrue.
okies.
whee!
2:51 PM
wah...working now and im happily surfing net...
wahahaha...seems like yesterday really give myself alot of unecessary stress liaos...haha. =)
shall update at home. here not very private too. heh. to be continued.... =D heehee!
part II
it wasn't so much fun as it was okies, alot of stress when like groups of ppl walked up to u wanting to use the gym and/ or leaving....wah. i nearly died okies..and i think i screwed up like at the last hour too. *pengs*
but i was pretty glad that ernie and jian min went la...at least got familiar faces and got someone to talk to too. heh.
oh wells. to a bad day.
im going to beo plants now! (btw, this is updated at 8:45 on the 18 sept.) yay. okies. i shall get going! =)
9:33 AM
will you still love me tommorrow?
random tots and musings everytime i load the dashboard..
results are out. and not surprisingly, i didn't do well, but at least i passed all my modules. (surprisingly because i tot i would fail chem)....
okies i really should start cracking...
11:32 PM
feeling damn anti- social and emo now.
grrrrrrr. i feel like biting (now u now where that cat's trait came from), kicking and just throwing a missy tandrum, pouting in a dark corner all by myself.
hmmmph. u dun have a right in my life and get lost.
blah blah blah.
6:31 PM
oh baby, dun u noe that im missing you so badly?
okies. that was just a random line that popped in my head. nth more, nth less. so dun think otherwise.
today was such a slack day...didn't even leave the house and being the bored me...decided to be an itchy finger and do some watering...heh.
strangely, EVERYTIME i do some gardening, espcially watering, it will ALWAYS rain. (eh, im VERY serious abt it.)
sighs. does that mean that i shouldn't water my plants? hmmm. food for thought....
nanana.
rants.
11:42 PM
forgot to add that i saw francis yest.! wth. was on the phone v pissed and then i was looking at sth else and by the time i saw him..it was too late to say hi...and i couldn't call him cos i was on the phone...
blearghx...so long nv see him liao lors and he now also in army le...sigh....
no fair...i badly wanted to catch up with him lars...and i realised i lost his contact..irritant.
i bet he couldn't regconise me...with all that changes to my hair...argh.
oh wells. it's over. if it's meant to be, God will see it thru...
thanks!
12:32 AM
wad a day. met different kinds of ppl with diff attitudes.
anyways, got my brommies already! thanks to lyndi- jie...thank u SO MUCH!! (tho i noe that 99.9% she won't read this, but it's okies.) and i really feel so paiseh when she gave them to me for FREE!!! and there are like 6 la. and initially i asked her, i told her i would be buying them lors..
sighs. okies, i must learn how to grow them properly and not let them die will be a good way of thanking her. yep. and i shall go and find out how to take care of them properly...
!wols si naillig
1:26 AM
i can't believe that i spent almost 3 hrs cleaning, clearing, watering, moving, repotting my plants...goodness...and that's not all my plants la...
it's it just me who is slow or wad...? hais... but im pretty glad that it looks better now...moved my brommie out of the house (actually im pretty afraid that 1) it will get stolen [i've known of ppl having their precious plants like orchids, carnivorous plants to very fragrant pandan to random stuff like pots stolen!], 2) kena sun burn [cos i dun noe whether got direct sun falling on the plant or wad..]) but it looks good.
yeah. it's 1:34 now and i ought to sleep. like badly. but i haven't packed the medium away.
add-ons//
woke up at 10:10 and was still debating within myself if i should quick quick dress up and go or just go for evening service or just not appear at all.
decided i should go evening service, but apparently now i regretted my choice. blearghx. nvm, i will still appear at evening service.
2:07 AM
more plants plants and plants!
living in the garden where i try my best not to kill them. wahahaha!
12:24 AM
gillian's pretty glad she had applied and got a job!
at the rate she's chalking up debts, it's really high time that she should work and earn some keep so that she can continue to acquire more stuff that she's been eyeing badly (i.e, her plants...sigh...sigh....sigh!)
yeah... got myself into some debts recently cos i've been buying plants to keep me bz druing hols...haha....(only to neglect them during the term...)
yar lors. i really need to get together and maximise the use of space at home. heh.
sayonara.
1:12 AM
may not be posting here for some time unless i have stuff to post about.
it's time for some quiet reflections and really a time to get a grip of myself. so yeah.
haiz.
1:13 AM
sigh. after reading through my recent posts, i realised my written english has greatly DEPROVED!!!!
NOOOOOOOO....... wad's wrong with me man.... argh. can't even form a proper sentence structure....blearghx.
the result of slacking after O-levels : brain has deproved considerably and cannot be restarted again.
blearghx. i shall jia you and achieve what i used to have okies. my A2 and B3 for both chinese and english respectively isn't there for nothing. (tho i seriously think im going to flunk both if i resit the papers again)
okies. i really should slp so that i can join the yfc's monday meeting later and also go for my job interview later. hmmm. say say only, sekali cannot wake up again then i really zzz....
hmmm.
1:33 AM
well. overslept, so im going on mon. heh.
went back tk and saw loads of ppl! it's just like a big reunion except, that most of the ppl i just regconise by face.
im glad that i haven't lost touch of my english after so long! yay. cos i have been speaking too much chinese and therefore im surprised myself after speaking in english for one whole day! whoot!
went out with brigitte and jy and their bfs. =) haha. so long nv see them le... they were all bugging me to do sth about my hair and putting on make up (as usual, but at least they didn't really talk about me getting bf... *phew*)...but it was quite okie i guess, but....okies, shan't elaborate here, if not i scared ppl whack me out of the blue...
haha. okies. shall be off to study. dang, why did i say study? it should be sleep.