gillian is stupid and dumb. gaah.


stupid thing no. 1) forgot that my darling precious AVs can't withstand excessive heat and i fried them literally under the sun lar!!! sheesh. now in AV ICU. and im sure glad that they have made much improvement after 15 mins in front of the fan. (dun even need the expensive aircon!!) =) heh. but my tiger stripes are not recoving tho. insetad they are deproving. not sure wad happened. must remember to ask the expert later in the morning. hmm.=p


stupid thing no. 2) i broke a bottle of pasta sauce while shopping at the supermarket!!! butter fingers. and guess wad? it's my right hand. hmm. and im right handed. heh. oh wells. thank God that they didn't ask me to pay for that broken bottle. =p so just zhao. lol.


oh ya. hope daryl (i noe u will read this, please? will pay for transportation fee too!!) will help me get the AV gillian, cos it is RARely seen in S'pore. so most of the time, ppl import la. really want one quite badly and by agreeing to get one for me, u'll make one gillian very happie, cos u're getting gillian to accompany gillian when gillian's bored. =)


hmm. but im actually quite afraid of the mites. which is common in AVs. and the miticide is S$162 for 8 oz. (the expert converted from USD for me and i dun think 8 oz is alot.) and only found in the States too. argh. y only in the States la?! (becos of its HUGE pricetag, i think i will forgo the plants than rather buy that thing if it really happens?) boohoo. it's such a difficult choice. =(


btw, SANDRA!!!!!! we can't get thru each other. actually packed my plants yesterday and ready to whip them to ur place only to find out that u went to vivo with ur friends. hmm.


argh. oh wells. im gonna check my AVs. =)


have you heard that the chang jiang actually have DOLPHINS in it?


if you did, congratulations. if not, u are one of the sua ku ppl like me, who did not know the existance of river dolphins and thought that dolphins live in the ocean only.




and please dun bother finding them out. cos they are extinct. didn't catch the word? it's E-X-T-I-N-C-T. EXTINCT.


so what's the fuss all about?


the fuss is that ppl like me dun even noe that these creatures exsist in our lifetime, yet they just slipped into history eternally without noe-ing anything abt them.


so wad's my point?


that thou shalt reduce, reuse and recycle. =p sounds like some advertisment. but it's true la. even tho we christians say that this world is not our home, but we still need to conserve the world that God had initially planned for us wad, not just let it slip thru our fingers. after all, they are God's creation too.

resolution 1: ensure all my recycling items actually gets sent to the recycling centre.

resolution 2: ensure that there are more things to be recycled and also more recycling bins in the area(?)


im doing my part to conserve resources, are you?


didn't reallie do much. went for the workshop group retreat only and found it enriching. =)


can't wait for camp to start. =) yay. and ella's my co- workshop grp leader. can't wait to work with new ppl. =) (if u actually realised that we are not very close at all.)


my resolution: clear my room!! argh. almost everyone cleared their stuff liaos lor. and they are like sooooooo happie la. shall do that too. and be happie too.


lols. tentatively thinking of going to more than a nursery if possible. hmm. or making the trip open for any one of my friends who are interested in getting plants or knowing more about them. just IM me to CONFIRM and ask anything. =)


oh ya. anyone has a remedy to prevent cat from biting wires??? cos the darling cat of mine started to bite the computer wires again. eeks.


the cat and her weird habits. hmm.


as promised. part 2 =)


sun: went shopping after frisbee. =) and got a new pair of shoes to replace my favourite pair of shoes. (shall i get a cobbler to see if my shoes can be fixed?)


yesterday: supposed to move my plants all to sandra's place, but due to not knowing how to transport them and rain, i didn't. did my sis' birthday jigsaw puzzle in 1 and 1/2 hrs time. (heh. not much kick anyways.) and tried listening to KLove the whole day. still prefer the days without sound at the com and my ears hurt from pluging the earphones into them. brain dead during the sub comn meeting. =p


today: didn't feel like blogging but still did, if not u won't be reading this post. =p maybe going on a hiatus, cos it's just blogging wad i do everyday, dun think u ppl will want to read anyways. and im quite sick of blogging now. yeah. will be meeting pat, chinling and yingying for job interview at a factory near my house. and workshop leader meeting in the afternoon. =p


yeah. that's my schedule. =)


P.S those wanna go to the plant nursery, IM me yeah? think i'll make it on the 8 dec (friday),then can all go for prayer meeting together. =)


i noe i haven't been blogging daily for days so here's to compensate.


yesterday: my cat never fails to amaze me with the things that she does. the jealous cat went to topple 3 of my C& S on the ground. reason behind it? becos she was angry with me for putting my focus on the plants and forgot all about her. =( yeah.


so went for morning service (and YD) and managed to get sandra to house my plants (means that i got to go to her house frequently just to water my precious plants and see how they are coping becos i dun want my plants to die) so that i can spend quality time with my cat when i get home.


went over sandra's house to look at the environment that my little ones will stay in. and becos there were no sun and being bored, we cleared her room. haha. so much for that, cos i haven't even cleared my room yet.


went frisbee after that and i realised how unhealty i had become due to the lack of PE lessons ( cos of u noe what). =p eeeks. and the field was like muddy lar. hmm.


actuallie, there's alot more but im lazy to type liaos. so please wait for part 2 expectantly. =)


in the end, im not geing my water lily. *sad*


cos my house not getting enuff light for the plant needs. and i dun want to be a plant killer so i kinda last min. said i dun want. argh.


went ikea with julia, jasmine, charles, linus and chenghui yesterday. saw mr anwari at the children's section. heh. =) and i kapo-ed a broken part of a succulent which can be propogated into a new plant. and if it's successful, then jasmine will be the new proud owner of it. =) cos i have it already and propogated one of the 'thing' (forgot what it's called.) for serene for christmas.


and prayer meeting wasn't that bad too. =) dun mind going next week onwards. haha.


today will be a packed day cos i'll be running across the whole country literallie. oh no. if im going for the hillsong concert, then i'll really going everywhere in s'pore already. see, i stay in the east, then will be dropping at aljunied to get my water lettuce then head all the way down to jurong east to collect my AV (it's not gillian, but rob's cool fruit.), then after that go bishan for yf. east to west and to north. no south. =( but oh wells. my area's counted as the south-east district. cheat abit and tata! im round the whole country already. haha! =) round singapore in a day. =)



oh ya!! almost forgot. kwanie came back from aust. yesterday! =) whoo. cool shock. haha. and i can't wait for everyone to come back. then yf will then can really be called as lively. =p


hmm. gtg liaos. i need to get ready to embark on my 'round the island' trip for the day, if not dun have much time to shop at IMM later. =)


till then! =)


gotten badly scratched by the cat, because she thinks i want to hit her when im only trying to measure the length of her legs with a steel rule. ( always have a desire to do so cos her legs looked so short. heh.)


and so all i have is 2 major wounds on the left palm and other minor wounds. sheesh.


anyways, today's sis' birthday. and yeah. =p happie birthday. one step closer to independence. lalalala.


anyways. think i've heard the calling of God to do missions this morn just before i slept (im definitely not dreaming because i dun dream when i sleep). was thinking of some stuff then i heard a voice in my head said 'feed my sheep.' or sth liaddat.


not too sure how to react to it, and i really dun think my parents, esp my dad, would atually let me go out there. but if it's really His calling, then i shall go forth, but i think i have to at least finish poly first.


will see how it goes ba.


oh yeah. will be having new additions to my plant collection ( i dun only own C& S[cacti and succelent], yeah.) this time a miniature AV ( african violet) and 2 water plants( water lily and a water lettuce.)


oh btw jasmine, the water lettuce are inedible even tho they used to mix it in pig feed in the good old days. cos i checked out and they say it causes cancer. so eat it at ur own risk if u still wanna try that badly. (and u are supposed to eat it raw if u are reallie that desperate for food.)


okies. it's only 2 days after my papers ended and im bored to tears. argh.


i do want to go out and get some plants and have fun, but it's rather impossible cos my funds are running low becos my parents dun really want to give me $$ and i paid for YF camp out of my own pockets. sians.


so im stuck at home eating instant noodles (which i hate alot.) and hope that the days pass quickly. argh.


and i've got the urge to buy cactus again! argh.


someone please let me choose my own cacti and pay for me as a christmas prezzie and i'll love ya loads. =) or give me something exotic from other places also can. =p


currently state: rotting at home. sheesh.


kena pangsei-ed by jasmine today. oh wells. but i still bought stuff from ikea.


yeah. bought christmas pressies. and im super broke now. i noe it's kinda early to buy pressies for christmas, but i need to get them before i spend my money elsewhere.


yeah. haven't thought of what to buy for some ppl yet. oh wells. i still got one month and 4 daes to think about it. and speaking of which, i lost the list, which i made, of ppl whom i wanted to buy for. sheesh.


gotta redo again.


oh ya. went back sch to take stuff for the pae exercise. what a waste of time. since im not going JC or MI.


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i just thought of a good way to spend my hols! yay. haha. =) i think i shall go learn recipes of my favourite dishes from my grandmother, then can cook next time. =)


not bad eh? haha. tralalala. =)


ARGH. it's over!!!! i still can't believe that i just survived my O levels. for the past dunno how many years, i've always thought i would just die during my papers la.


feeling a bit sick now. thank God that im feeling abit sick now and not during my papers. =)


anyways, wanted to highlight my hair today wan. then i realised that the shop not open. kaes lor. next time ba. and i went church and tried to play the piano. sheesh. quite jl, cos i can't play lors.


and attended the dialogue. yeah. and God used me to speak some stuff again.


yeah. anyways. im tired. yawns. didn't have a good night's sleep yesterday. rawr.


super short post.


last papers tomorrow. phew. finally it's ending.


seriously dun feel like studying tho. argh!! i noe jasmine will be the one of the first ppl to kill me. =p oh wells.


haha. and i've kept the promise!!!! yay. so glad. and it's ending tomorrow too. hee. the promise was to not get a bf until end of Os with my best friend in lower sec. haha. and i did okays. by that super fine line. yeah. =)


tadidadum. yay. but then i dunno wad to do in the less than 2 months. cos im gg for yf camp on 11- 16 dec and i dun think jobs are so flexible for mi to not work for a week and it so happens i spent quite a fair bit on books when i went up the doulos.


yeps. argh. im supposed to study. =(


i think i've seen sth that i should not have seen.


it wasn't too long ago that i was super upset and i've managed to get over it and now this again.
im trying so hard not to let it get to me. but i could feel it creeping into me.


please. if u are reading this, please stop doing wadever that u are doing becos i noe wad u are doing anad it's affected me quite badly just that i had never shown u the weaker side of me because my heart is too fragile to be taken out.


to those hu dunno y i was upset the other time, it's not wad u think it is and to those hu noe, it is the same thing again.

on a lighter note, bought alot of books and wanted to buy even more. =) doulos is really a haven for book lovers. tralala.


OMG. history was crap. I'M SO GONNA FAIL. sheesh.


anyways. i've never been so happy for so long in my life. all thanks to doulos!!!! tralala...cos the books were all so cool and attended the youth rally. and i had a good time browsing. the shopping therapy works!


haha. im going there tml. cos i haven't browse finished yet. cos i just realised that there's another place where there is the 'clearance sale', where everything is sold at 5 bucks.


haha. anyways, i bought a book on cat spieces and found that my cat is actually a bombay cat and would make 'an ideal house cat'. haha. and some books for myself and my sister's birthday pressie and not forgetting a bible for ying ying.


yup. see wad else i can get from there, cos the books on the doulos are mostly MUCH cheaper than on land.


im thinking if whether if there's a call for me there.


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not too sure if u will see this, but glad to noe u too jackie. =)


and im so tired! that im not too sure wad im typing abt. =p so forgive me for this post if it doesn't make much sense to u ppl.


im not too sure if im going on a hiatus. (but most probably not.)


dun really feel like sitting at the comp. table to type any more. cos seems to me that i dun really feel my true feelings when im sitting here to type. (so much for being honest.)


well, maybe to blog mudane stuff. like Os and trips to the doulos this weekend. can't wait for the trips to doulos! lalala.


oh ya...im too lazy to buy my top- up card for my prepaid. so i can't reply nor call with my phone. lalala. but i have to buy by today...cos i need to ask my another friend to get her camp form signed. =)


ooh! geog was relatively easy for someone who didn't bother to study to her mcq paper. so now she's left with 3 more papers!!!! freedom's approaching!!!!!! can't believe it. yay. DATE ME. lol. cos i can't really stay at home doing nothing.


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bought my top-up card liaos. taught my grandma how to use the com to play solitaire. =) btw i do hope pat, elaine and ying ying will be able to go for YF camp. =) lala. and chinling and brigitte will change their minds. =p


tralalala. supposed to study for history paper. what on earth am i doing here? =p


im sick and tired of being upset.


yeah. being upset is too tiring for me. rather being upset, might as well make everyday a happier one since it's still a day passed by.


straightened out. i guess.


but i still need time to adapt.


told u i will be fine before sat, but i dun know if i will still be as or more upset in the future when triggered.


will still put pw, untill the posts only appear in the archives.


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decided that i should not put passwords anymore, cos they hang my internet and that i should not cover unhappiness up, cos after all, it's still part of me, and if u want to be my friend, u've gotta accept me for who i am.


maybe it sounds irrational, but i feel that maybe this is one of the most rational moments in this week of my life.


facing up to life's facts. that's sth that i've realised after browsing ella's blog. yeah.


geog mcq in another couple of hour's time and i haven't revised cos im so affected with my feelings. sheesh.


im actually past caring it.


but somehow, the thought of me not saying it seems to be equivelent to sinning makes me uneasy. and so im now at a loss of wad i should do.


run- and- hide and pretending that everything's okie when i noe that everything's not okie or say (to who?)?


idk. really. feel like an idiot. and it's affecting me.


and i dun think i trust anyone in the family because they had already lost my trust when i was much younger as a child. and if telling them wad they didn't noe would make them be as affected as me, then i would rather suffer alone. wad's the point of saying hurting things to others esp when u are suffering and they didn't know? nothing's gonna change and u are making ppl upset with u.


i dunno. my mind's in a whirl and the things that im typing right now dun really seems make sense to me, so dun worry if u dun understand this post.


i feel like having the porridge at the wet market there. maybe it's good to take a walk outside house. tata. bye!


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sighs. the porridge either lost it's standard or that im too preoccupied to taste it's flavour. in either case, i didn't like it. and again, i dunno wad im doing.


im not sure is it due to this or wad that i like u even more. so much for saying that i'm trying not to like u anymore. oh wells. if only i can get out of here temporary, and let me just sort out my feelings.


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im pretty certain that i'll never come back once im financially stable. really. i ask myself, wad for? there's not much reasons to stay anyways.


i feel like im suck into the whirlpool of feelings and everyday is just either angry and sad or blank. even happiness dun last for more then just mere seconds. i've lost the feeling of happiness from deep within and it seemed so long ago the last time i was really happy everywhere i went.


i noe it sounds like i've got jilted. but trust me, this feeling is much worse than that. i've been through failed relationships and i've fallen but i've walked through them. this time, im not sure if i will fall and never pick myself again.


if this had happened when im younger, i would have already made the news headlines long ago and u would have never known about my existance.


trying not to feel anything.


yesterday night was more depressing, and i will not elaborate more. yeah.


yeah. anyways, i think that i've found my answer as to where i should be serving in project serve. that's an event held by the syfc (singapore youth for Christ.) yeah. more details details available at www.syfc.org.sg or www.projectserve.blogspot.com .
yeah. bye.


i think im quite on the verge of breaking down soon.


not cos of Os. yeah. some stuff that has been going on for quite some time which i didn't want to say and i didn't mention to anyone (except one person cos i reallie couldn't take it any more the last time i had a 'breakdown') cos i feel that it doesn't help.


sorry that i didn't mentioned it to u girls cos i see that u all have ur own problems and the matter is reallie that sth that i dun wanna tok abt. yeah. (but maybe i might tell u when the time is more right.)


feeling quite upset now, but there's nth i can do. sighs. i just want to leave here as far as possible. if i could do so, tt is.


sometimes i wished i had strangled myself that day. at least i won't be that painful now.


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okies. im not feeling upset now, after talking to daryl and jasmine. and after some crying and praying. =) thanks guys! appreciated. yeah. no matter wad happens, life still goes on. =)


anyways, abt the strangling part, i was very curious abt how it felt to be strangled when i was much younger, so i tried it with my blankey for the sake of fun. which resulted my throat to have a stupid bruise and it was super painful. =p call me dumb.


i dun feel myself anymore.


im not sure if it's because of the exams or is it i have changed. but it's quite upsetting to not feel urself. esp. it's like the o-levels period and all.


but anyways. im trying not to feel so stressed sub-conciously. cos worrying is not good for health and it doesn't help too. will just leave it in God's hands so long i've did my best for my papers.


anyways, thanks joel tan (i doubt he'll read this, but i shall still say nevertheless.) for trying to cheer me up each week without fail and reminding me not to feel so stressed. =)


tralalalala. okies. so random. yeah. anyways it's the last YW FOREVER. and everyone's gonna come, including the YAMmies who have transitted to main service. and i dunno wad to wear!!!! lol. cos everyone's gonna to wear more formal/different. eeks.


maths...was bad.


sighs. anyways....glad that i went church even tho it was pouring like mad after the paper. at least managed to catch up some of the things that have been going around my friends that they didn't tell me cos of me being 'busy' due to Os.


sighs. been thinking alot...like i realised i haven't thinked in depth for a very long time. (i do take things at face value for most of the time. call me shallow.) yeah.


God called us not to judge ppl by face value. most often than not, we always fail (due to our sinful nature), be it whether we realised it or not. not saying that i have succeeded in not jugding ppl, but at least i admit my mistakes and im trying to change and not judge ppl at face value, For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. (Mat 7:2)


im not trying to say anything here, nor trying to scold here, but to admonish ppl hu have forgotten this.


our Creator is a perfect God, and i don't think u got the right to say that ppl are so and so and how they are even if u think u are close to the person whom u trying to say, becos every person is special in their own way (no 2 persons are the same) and also we are the exsiquite work of our Lord. Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee(Jer 1:5a) And sometimes things are not the way they look. Never judge a book by it's cover.


being someone more senior, i hope u know this fact. by saying things that are untrue about a person and a person's friend, u are not only making urself not popular amogst the group of ppl but it also shows that u, as a senior, are not doing things that u are supposed to do and it also shows ppl that u are not as mature as ur age tells other people.


But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth. (Col 3:8)


As seniors, u (we) should always look out for juniors that are coming, show them TLC, and also to guide them in spirit and in truth. yeah. u may say 'oh im a young christian' but that does not give u the right to make such insulting and untrue comments to juniors. as a older person with more social experience, u should be able to differentiate wad are the things to do and what not to do. by behaving in this manner would not only make the juniors unhappy, it will also make them to be angry, and that is not right. becos anger in itself is not right, and it should not be manifested in anyone, nor it should be induced thru any means.


i believe that im typing this post in a level state of mind and i hope u would reflect and stop using malicious words to hurt the juniors. cos it would not be good for both parties.


Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. (Gal 5:19-23)

Thursday, November 09, 2006

X) 6:13 PM

I WAS pretty certain that that driver was dennis la...but then again, he's SUPPOSEDLY in U.S!!!!


issit just me or wad? hmmm... or maybe cos of the face shape and all...actuallie didn't really got a good look..cos i was hiding from brigitte's camera phone. gah!


wadevers. geog was like dumb. i was reading on that stupid thing on the cab and it came out! and of course i tot it wouldn't come out, so i didn't commit it to my brains.


oh wells. it's over.


so much for it.


yeah. someone pls remind mi to go and see a doc after Os or sth cos my stupid eye can't see again and it hurts sometimes. X)


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if u guys are reading (u noe hu u are), LET'S GO LUNCH ON SAT!!!! pls? i need a break from Os and we haven't had lunch together at the prata place for SUPER LONG. and we said that we were to have lunch like at least ONCE A MONTH. hmmmph. we haven't had one since God- knows- when. reply yeah?


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NOT FAIR!!! my mom and my sis went watch notre dame de paris WITHOUT ME. gah. i hate O-levels. they are CRAP. y can't they just put it all in a shot and end my misery asap? sighs. argh.


oh wells. i think that stupid eye of mine is swollen just now..and it's not now. eeeks. and it feels disgustingly weird somehow.( exaggerating. but u get wad i mean.)

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

nanananananana. madness. 4:44 PM

ARGH.


i think im gonna fail all of today's papers. all like crap!!!!! =(


wadevers. i just realised that the lines on the exam pad is like so much bigger than the normal foolscape..and i dun think i actually wrote more than the min. word limit for compo. !!!!!


eeks. wadevers. i can't turn back time. so no point lamenting on that, esp, it's the first and the last time i would see the papers. sheesh.


anyways. i haven't gotten the time to buy prezzies for joy and cl, but then i already tot of wad to buy for joy, but not sure if i got the $$ and time to go down to get. as for cl...haha...maybe when we go collect results the i give u ur prezzie and a belated christmas one too...LOL. haha...at least im nice to give u a christmas one too... :p


wadevers. tml's geog paper 2 and i haven't really studied. im trying to make friends with it...but then like they dun wan make friends with me.


yeah. i think im gonna do badly for Os. zzz. oh wells.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

tata. 3:17 PM

OH man...i think i saw my senior on the bus just now on the way back from tuition. cos it looked so like him...except darker and fitter and maybe cuter. =p


no, if u are wondering, he ain't my crush, any time in my lifetime so far...lol. but i do noe of ppl in my squad last time hu liked him.


oh wells. chem was rather easy....if i remembered the formula of the volume of gases and if i actually studied the structure of nylon. gah. yeah. they didn't want to make friends with mi. cos they are so hard to remember. =p


yeah. 3 papers tomorrow. EEKS. then next week slack. wad the crap?! like i rather they spread it out nicely la. (hu doesn't eh?)
yeah...think i shall go nap. cos im still tired. =( nites!

Monday, November 06, 2006

hmm. 10:29 PM

I ACTUALLY HAD INSOMIA OVER O-LEVELS.


geez. O-levels are one kind of stressful if u are like me....never reallie study and still got the time to stay online to blog and chat.


oh wells. bri and cl were making fun of me cos i made a random remark of being able to see him soon, saying that they will luff at mi if he ever gets a gf and then show off in front of mi. sheesh. then i'll make sure that they won't noe even if this day were to come. lol.


oh wells. i noe they aren't really that mean. cos if they are, it's so not them.


yeah. so far, 9 down, 10 more to go. =( and 14 days to freedom. argh.


highlight of the day: i think my cat loves the song 'we are the reason', cos she was using her tail to beat the rhythm of the whole song (cos i felt like singing it today. =P)!!!! ain't she so cute? or maybe it's just me thinking too much, but im pretty sure she was using her tail to beat the rhythm.


yeah. oh ya..thnx shanely for going church to teach me chem. =) and rach for praying for mi...and daryl for trying to help me decide where i shuld go after this. =) appreciated!


oh wells...im getting tired...and i still need to make friends with my chemistry formulae. and wait for my dinner too. argh.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

DOOMSDAY EVE. 9:16 PM

OMG!!!! O levels starts tml! and what am i i doing here? tsk tsk.


oh wells. im going to refresh my pea brains after this and i will go sleep.


not a very productive day. woke up late and didn't reallie want to go for service, still went la...but then it was already 11:25 when i went in. and didn't do much cos i feel so sian and i was itching due to an allergic reaction.


oh yeah. thanks to all hu prayed for the A/O levels ppl..cos i didn't feel so stressed out today and i felt God's presence with me today. =) and to all those hu encouraged me thanks too! =) and to jerry, shanely, shannon and my tuitor, thanks so much for teaching me and esp to jerry cos i think im a nuisance when he's studying too.. =p hey..im helping u revise too.. lol.
yep. im looking forward to the end of O-levels. =) cos i can go spend time on the things that i want to do......


AND YF CAMP. yay. form's are out. non-yf friends, u can get the forms from me!! lalala. =)

Saturday, November 04, 2006

sighs. 11:41 PM

today is a super UNPRODUCTIVE day.


didn't do much today. yeah. tried doing a general mindmap for chem...but failed horrendously..and went for tuition and made loads of dumb mistakes for math questions.


gah!!!!!! i guess im getting it all...the stress syndromes. all the headaches, loss of appetite and just not able to concentrate.


i just want to run into Your arms, hearing you say to me that everything's all right and it will turn out just fine.
oh wells. I NEED TO GO FOR YD LESSONS. I HAVEN'T GONE FOR LIKE AGES. zzz.


tata.


Our God is an awesome God/ He reigns, from heaven to earth/ with wisdom, power and love/ Our God is an awesome God.

Friday, November 03, 2006

argh! 11:58 PM

sheesh. wad an unproductive day.


only managed to do a general mindmap of physics and tried to do a maths qns and read abit of ss.


sighs. today was a day of bad news too... not to mi, but the ppl ard mi...yeah. i wonder how would those ppl cope, esp when Os are so near la... =(


gah. haven't done my tuition hw. eh, dunno how to do la...im so gonna flunk maths again. zzz. i can't even do that tys la. sheesh. and maths is on mon la. so gay.


yeah. i feel like a *toot* cos i feel like i dun noe anything. and yeah. not living to God's expectations of mi.


tata. just in 2 hrs and a min' time, it is it. and very soon (next next fri), it will all end. sighs. i dunno la.


anyways...heard from quite alot of ppl that david and some other ppl have my acres shrit too... and they want the shirt too!!!! yay. cos then i dun nid to go all the way there just to buy one shirt for myself... lol. yep. and at the same time, creates awarness that there are organisations in s'pore that care abt the wildlife. =) yep. i promote organisations that helps animals. lala.

l.l 12:19 AM

i feel so stupid.


gah. actuallie cos i nv study wad..can't blame anyone for that. sheesh.


not too sure if i should give up combined humans...cos i really cannot handle so many subjects in a shot now cos Os are in another 3 more days.


im so confused now.


oh yars. many thanks to joel and jerry today for lending mi notes and answering all my qns abt chem. now imformation overload. =)


and time to study. like i'll actually study at this time..considering it's quite late and i have a headache.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

The Most Accurate, In-Depth, Personality Analysis Test Ever Created on Quizilla 1:51 AM

tot i would like to share this....got the quiz off jas' blog.


You are focused on making the world a better place for people.

Your primary goal is to find out your meaning in life. What is your purpose?

How can you best serve humanity in your life? You are an idealist and a perfectionist, who drives yourself hard in your quest for achieving the goals you have identified for yourself.You are highly intuitive about people. You rely heavily on your intuition to guide you, and use your discoveries to constantly search for value in life.


You are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things.

Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through your value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help you define or refine your own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - you are driven to help people and make the world a better place. Generally thoughtful and considerate, you are a good listener and put people at ease. Although you may be reserved in expressing emotion, you have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making you a valued friend and confidante.


You can be quite warm with people that you know well.You do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If you must face it, you will always approach it from the perspective of your feelings and emotions.

In conflict situations, You place little importance on who is right and who is wrong, instead focusing on the way that the conflict makes you feel, and indeed you don't really care whether or not you're right.


You don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes you appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations.

On the other hand, you make a very good mediator, and you are good at solving other people's conflicts, because you intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.


You are flexible and laid-back, until one of your values is violated. In the face of your value system being threatened, you can become an aggressive defender, fighting passionately for your cause.
When you have adopted a project or job which you're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for you.


Although you are not a detail-oriented individual, you will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for your "cause".When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, you are completely unaware of such things. You might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of your project booklet.You do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. You focus on your feelings and it is difficult for you to deal with impersonal judgment. You don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes you naturally ineffective at using it. You try to avoid impersonal analysis, although you may have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for you to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.


You may have problems working on a project in a group, because your standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, you may have a "control" problem. You need to work on balancing your high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, you will never be happy with yourself, and you may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with your life. You are a talented writers.

You may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing yourself verbally, but you have a wonderful ability to define and express what you're feeling on paper. Your personality type appears frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. You are at your best in situations where you're working towards the public good, and in which you don't need to use hard logic.You function well i the world and can accomplish great and wonderful things, which you will rarely give yourself proper credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been people like yourself.


the words in bold are the parts where i think they might and or are true abt mi.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

musings. 11:54 PM

sheesh.


im so not prepared for Os. oh wells. and im still slacking here.i think im the no. one pro. lol.


had tuition today and went to church to study. not very productive, i must say. yeah. didn't go for the steering meeting cos i wanted to study...but ended up slping in the clubhse. but at least i tried to read a bit of geog (chapter 1) when i woke up. sheesh.


oh ya...the roof top garden FLOODED today after it rained... so cool...it was like ankle deep la...then julia and jasmine so happy and went to play in the water...haha...had a good luff at them..cos they were so comical and seeing them having so much fun. so much for cheap thrills.


yep.


oh yeah. im super broke. need a job after Os! =p (so randoms.)


edits/


i feel so neither here nor there. sighs. i just dun belong to where i should belong. oh wells. like did i even fit in in the first place? oh wells. actually, i dun really care if u all treat mi as ur batch ppl. cos friends/ cliques are not just based on which yr u are born in.


im just being emo. ignore it if u want.