feel like crying all over again.


im just so like a crybaby la...crying over the slightest things..to the extent that i can't stand myself anymore..(said that before in dunno which post before...)


but of course...i not that sort of person who drops her tears that easily...in front of ppl and with myself.....unless...*thinks*


...i feel lonely...cos of the ppl ard mi la...but i think im just too sensitive..

...i feel that im framed...

...i see an injustice done to an animal...

...i feel worthless...

...i reallie reallie reallie realliE like this guy super duper alot..till the point that i can't think straight with or without him around...which is like none.or maybe only once in my 16 plus years of my life on planet earth....

i'll tell u when i cry la....cos i can't think of y i would cry now....as in really cry..not my eyes are wet...cos my eyes dries quite fast...cos i typed down y i feel like crying already...but tt should be the bulk of it lors...





http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20060424/wl_asia_afp/australiaweathercyclone_060424072326


if u ppl are lazy to read tt, it's an article on 'the perfect cyclone'.


i think cyclones are so cool la....except that it should not move over land. =)


INFormaTion of CYcloNEs:

-what they are: *intense low pressure systems that originate over the seas and oceans between 6°N and 20°N and 6°S and 20°S in summer and autumn where the temperatures exceed 27°C.

*on average, they are abt 800km in diameter and live for about 3 wks as they travel over warm and moist seawater.

*have steep pressure gradients, therefore are accompanied by strong winds.


-formation: * formed over the seas and oceans in the intertropical convergence zone where the moist north-east trades and the south east trades meet and are uplifted.

* low pressure zone is then formed.

* as air rises, condensation occurs and the latent heat released makes the air warmer and lowers its pressure

*so that more moist air frm the sea is drawn into this low pressure system to form dense cumulonibus clouds which produce torrential rain.
*starts to fade away when it reaches land because the supply of warm air is cut off.



dun think u would want to read about cyclones..anyway...got it all from marianne chong, for those not taking geog, marianne chong is the author of the'textbook' for upper sec geog...ya...and one thing i love about this post, is that im revising for my mid-yrs too!! =) killing two birds with a stone..tata.





upset.


read some disturbing news that reallie saddens mi alot...like todae just read on Yahoo! News that addicts live, die in Pakistan city drain and farmer suicide on rise in India amid rural crisis...


like it's quite heartwrenching to see these news around...like this part: "I'm ready to sacrifice this life if the police want to shoot me," Asamatullah said, slurring his words and struggling to keep his drooping eyes open as clients smoked nearby and the stinking drain gurgled past.
"I'm ready to become a lesson for other drug addicts ... I've already lost my life."


like for the the addicts..they noe that they should quit on drugs..but they can't afford the rehab. and EVEN IF they could, ppl are still biased against them...and futhermore drugs are cheap..comparing to the rehab... and given the economy..could they have a proper job??these ppl were not taking drugs becos they wanted to be 'high' or wad...but becos they were desperate to get out of their living conditions, desperate for a change that they could never hope for and all the more they would be tempted to take drugs to numb themselves from their situation...but all these have side effects...which is they are slowly destroying themselves...and they noe it..but wad can they do?


and farmers in india are commiting suicide. sighz... read this part: He also said farmers, often illiterate and without proper training, were frequently dependent on seed suppliers telling them what to buy, and on unregulated moneylenders for the cash to buy it.

According to a 2003 survey, more than half of all farmers in the state were in debt and Mishra's report said about one-third of the loans came from non-official sources.

Because of the surge in suicides in the state -- from fewer than 1,100 in 1995 to more than 4,100 in 2004 -- moneylenders encourage farmers to sell them their land as security for the loan in case they commit suicide. They only sell it back if the loan is paid off, said Mishra's report.


y is this so??!like y are all these not regulated by the goverment of india?like isn't the goverment there to protect and to show concern for the welfare of the ppl?? so why is this happening??like corrpution..is there anything done to minimise it??or do they left it rampant? like when all these are not answered, the people's life will not improve..and the gap between the rich and the poor will further widen..which SHOULD not be the case at all...surely when they sae 'india's economy will boom', it means as a country..not that few states which have already modernised..like kolcatta and dubai(?)...


reallie thank God that i was born in singapore...and i do hope tt sth will be done to help the desolate and hapless of the world man. and i do hope that i can be a part of it all.


'do you want an interesting fact?' said jo


'eskimos apparently have over fifty different words for snow. Snow's really important to those guys - i supposed it's because sometimes the difference between one type and another can mean the difference between life and death' she paused and laughed self-consciously. 'you know they've got words for dry snow and wet snow, fluffy snow and compact snow. they've got words for snow that comes down fast and for snow that comes down slow - they've thought of everything.'


'that's a lot of snow', commented Rob as his eyes flicked to a scruffy-looking mongrel crossing the road in front of them, oblivious to the night bus hurtling towards it. it only narrowly missed being hit, but continued coolly on it's journey to the bin outside the off-licence, which it sniffed studiously, then cocked a leg against.


'so what's your point?' asked Rob.'well, it's like this,' replied Jo. 'if eskimos can come up with fifty words for snow because it's a matter of life or death, why is it that we've got only one word for "love"?'


-excerpt from Brand New Friend, Mike Gayle (got it from Daniel Chia's blog...)




found it quite cool..ya..


anyways..i guess we dun have so many words for sth in english is because basically, english is a language which u could add a word from another language and tata! it becomes an english word..like kowtow, fiancee, and many more...


think tt's abt it...will be back for more so stay tuned! =)


I HATE MYSELF AND MY LIFE.


okie...i said that in a pique...cos im stressed, tired and pissed...so better dun PISS mi mi off right now.


nearly got involved in 3 different accidents or more this week...sheesh..wonder if tt's God's grace or not...ironic..i was pretty certain that i would get knocked over this morning..cos that RED SPORTS CAR WAS SPEEDING IN SCHOOL ZONE...but i didn't...hmm..Y DIDN'T I?????!!!!!!!!!!


i wished i would..u noe...then i need not bother with my STUPID COURSEWORK and my MID-YEARS and maybe even Os...and of course irritating ppl.


and all those wishing mi dead will be gloating over my misfortune. and Jesus might ask mi, wad have u done so far in ur life that had impacted u and the ppl ard u positively?


one hard question after another. maybe it isn't tt good to be dead either...oh wells..i should be glad tt i didn't land in hospital now..like i dunno la...hu noes..i might land in hospital tml or on mon..like im literally almost getting knocked down every time i cross the road nowadays...ya lost count how mani times liao la..thank God i haven't yet. =p


lol.i think patrick tam's cool.


dunno la..just got weird taste..like wad brigitte they all sae...anyways...all girls look out for different things in guys..if not most of the guys and girls would still be single..ya...


oh! i have yet to congratulate u for being the few ppl to find this blog...(or rather, to be the few ppl to be told of the change...) ya...was forced to change because of compelling reasons...cos i reallie loved gillie-craze...like it has already become part of my identity le..but i have to change it...but anyways i love chicken-duck too..cos it's one of the names of my stuff toys that my mom gave to mi on my birthdae...


back to the topic...i still think patrick tam's still so cool!!wahaha...cos he's so so cool la!!!my dream guy hopefully can be like the feeling that he gives mi...lol...


kaes...going gaga over guys.sheesh.i think im mad...like 'hua chi'..which means gg mad over guys...oh wells...i was still thinking long ago that i should post sensible post instead of crappy posts like this so that ppl would not use to backstab mi..like think thrice before u speak.and it's so hard to plan and type wad u want to write here cos it's typing and typing...dun reallie makes u think ba...


ooh wells..maybe next post will be more 'sensible' ba..cos it's like 2 plus in the morning now..and im not thinking straight now..and in seven hours' time, i'll be in sch faithfully doing my dnt in sch..hopefully.


hmm...


so long nv blog le...and i also dun really noe wad to blog abt..hmm.. =)
some thoughts yesterdae: y do ppl of other ethinics like to wear their traditional clothes but not the chinese??


wore this oriental top with jeans to service yesterdae and not surprisingly..everyone was like staring at mi..cos i was:

1)i was late for service. (stupid bus didn't stop for mi even tho i FLAGGED for the bus even before it ZOOMED PASSED mi.

2)i was wearing an oriental top.

3)the top was orange.


and after service, julia and jasmine came up to mi and said, "is it CNY?y are u wearing so cheena?" and so i replied,"sae urself, u are also wearing red lors..and the ppl beside u also wearing red too.."


funny, y aren't chinese proud to wear 'traditional' clothes..like just oriental looking clothes..not asking u to wear a chongsam or anything..ya..u get wad i mean.


so much for someone saying that i abandoned my culture and roots...so y don't u tell the chinese popluation in singapore that they are ASHAMED of their roots and culture and wadever they do, is to please their elders or just becos it's a tradition and to do for the sake of doing...and they also dunno wad it's the meaning behind.( which i hereby admit that i dunno why they do certain stuff on certain daes.even my mom also dun reallie noe too.) and tell them stop all that PRETENSE when they dun mean it at all cos we should be proud of our roots and we should show it not by doing things on certain daes but by showing it in every part of our lives.


hmm.





didn't post for super duper long....


cos i feel so sians....esp. after noe-ing there are ppl 'stalking' my blog la..AND NOT TAGGING!...like...erm...i feel super uncomfortable..yup yup...


ya..thinking if i should move my blog to elsewhere...hmm..dunno la..

gah...oh..in case if u didn't noe...i NOW OFFICIALLY DO NOT HAVE A PHONE...so do not SMS or CALL mi..and I DUN REALLIE INTEND TO GET A SIM CARD YA...so i'll be CONTACTLESS..unless someone be nice and buy mi one.. =) lol.


wadevers...oh..i love my hair!!haha...only if i actuallie bothered to style my hair. =p