i can't believe myself.
cos im surprised with myself at wad im thinking.
funny huh?
i can't believe that i still liked him..
tho it ended a few yrs ago.
and i had long buried the feeelings

y?
WHY?
why did it resurface again?
i dun wan to like him.
cos it will only bring mi pain.
like all other secret loves.

please,
im happie with my current life
and i dun wan to be vexed by it again.

gah..wad on earth am i thinking..


gah..
i dunno wad i wan to bl0og about..
super vexed abt stuff...like the small grp outing and some other personal stuff and all...
i wan to shirk of all these burdens off mi and just slack ard..
oh wells..
my sis said her friend buying a new guitar..then she's asking if he would sell the other guitar to mi or wad la..cos im super lazy to do research...
hehe..
wad the..mom's bugging mi to get off the com... -.-
maybe coming back later ba..


hI!!! im back...to blog ya?
haven't been blogging for a SUPER long time le..cos my internet was down, i was overseas and of course there were many times i felt super sian la...

hm...actuallie my mom was using the com..ya..some updates...
went to 5566 concert!!!hehe..but after that felt super guilty..blearghx...cos i actuallie missed yf to go for that...
then i did my christmas cards (but i still haven't finished them...) and then went caroling and stuff..
and i went batam on christmas eve...the hotel ppl there were like super friendly...tho we couldn't reallie understand each other...lol..and my mom and my sis kena food poisioned cos my mom went to boil and drink the tap water which is NOT FIT FOR COMSUMPTION... stupid rite? and they were blaming it all on A &W..-.-
had some tots when i read john's entry and felt that it reallie hit mi hard at home...(to read the entry here's the webbie 'http://john-foo.blogspot.com/2005/12/ponder.html') like this para. ' sadly, i've lived a life of deceit. how many more do i want to cheat. of their feelings, trust, love. this false front i'm putting on, it sure is convincing, cos everyone seems to be buying it. my true self seems a distant object, unworthy of surfacing. i'm afraid of rejection, who isn't? but then again, how many people have i rejected. i betrayed their feelings, trust, love. and you call me human.'
and these, ' then i think of God. the alpha and omega. the great I Am. am i worthy to be at his feet, enter his kingdom. i have my doubts. this past year, my walk with Him seems so distant. i want to be with Him, yet i feel unworthiness. the things i've done, the sins i've committed, i dare not even mention. would he forgive me. time and time again, i let Him down. i tried to fight the temptations, but they just keep coming at me. keep coming.
youth camp really opened my heart. i spent time on my knees, humbly, at his feet. seeking forgiveness. mercy. i want to lead a life like Jesus. the humble servant king, his self-sacrificial love. help me Lord.
i will relish this one chance he has given me. the year ahead will not be a repeat of what already has happened. the irreversible. i pray for strength and wisdom. for love and courage. to face the difficult. and face it like you do. if the world finally collapses, at least i have you. you loved me and will forever continue to. if there was nothing i could give to you in return, nothing at all, i'll say this one thing. i love you too. '
what a difference between our sin and God's generous gift of forgiveness. For this one man, Adam, brought death to many through his sin. But this other man, Jesus Christ, brought forgiveness to many through God's bountiful gift.
__Romans5:15__
i guess i'll try to unmask the many masks i put on everydae and show my true self. God, u have been too loving and faithful to a sinner like mi. i love u and i wanna to prove it thru my actions and tots.
to lead a life that reflects u in mi.


hmmm....
my skin's playing jokes on mi...like every one can see my skin and blog except mi...hmm....so ya...thanks la..k..
hmm...must tag kaes? even tho i can't see and all..but i can see in my preview all..so MUST taG kaes?
oh...i didn't do anything much todae...but im going SENTOSA tml!! yay!! =) haha..k...
hmm..verse of the day: And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity. _1 Cor 13:13_


gah...im so so so super pissed...again..
my good sister of mine is like M.I.A...(MISSING IN ACTION)...toot...and that father of mine is bugging mi like no one's business...
poof...im like heck care..cos singapore's like small (comparing to other countries) and hello? my sis is like 19?getting lost?oh please..that's a JOKE!
k...i think im super worked up now..argh..stupid pms...oh...dun get mi into my bad book...esp now...cos i will make ur life reallie bad..trust mi..


im trying not to see, hear anything that he saes..
irritating..im like gah...get mi out of the house and not in anymore...
but then...hmmm...there's an alternative...which i should always always use it as my 1st choice la..but most of the time im using it as the last alternative..when all the rest can't work..u noe...God la!!!=)
k..im distracted..by the television..lol..hmmm...shall be off!


okie...been blog-hopping..

and im rather upset with some ppl's thinking...(it's only the last person's blog i've been too)

it's like...it's good to bring lost souls back to God...cos Jesus said so..And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men. _Matthew 4:19_

but Jesus also said: Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven. Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth: That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly. And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly _Matthew 6:1-6_

so we shall not be boastful For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. _Ephesians 2:8,9_

and y should be boast how many ppl we have saved when all things are in God's perfect Plan?


There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: Prophecies (what bible says) have been fulfilled. JESUS CAME DOWN TO EARTH TO DIE FOR US. THE DAY HE CAME DOWN, ITS CHRISTMAS NOT XMAS. JESUS WAS NOT SPELLED JEXUX SO STOP THE XMASING.

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because:Sins have been forgiven. BY JESUS.

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: There is Joy and Music in heaven when a sinner repents!

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: Pains of being lonely and forgotton are remembered WHEN JESUS STEPPED ON THIS EARTH TO BECOME A COMMONER AMONG US MEN. THE SON OF GOD DROPPED HIS STANDARDS SO WE HAVE A CHANCE TO GO TO HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: Possibility of peace is renewed. AGAIN BECAUSE JESUS CAME. NO JESUS - NO PEACE. KNOW JESUS - KNOW PEACE.

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: The purpose of life is illustrated in the songs that we sing! THE PURPOSE IS TO GLORIFY GOD AND ENJOY HIM FOREVER. *NOT TO CELEBRATE FOR NOTHING. AND EAT CHRISTMAS TREES.

There is Joy and Music at Christmas because: The predictions of Christ 2nd coming is secure.


took it from danny's blog cos i found it meaningful cos ppl tend to overlook the true meaning of christmas due to the fact that ppl have been so blinded by the exploits of business ppl just to make a quick buck or two as ppl will buy presents for their loved ones and friends..ya?



Did you feel the mountains tremble

Did you hear the oceans roar?

When the people rose to sing of

Jesus Christ, the Risen One



We can see that God You are moving

Fling wide you heavenly gates!!

Prepare the way of the risen Lord!



Open up the the gates let the music play

Let the streets resound with singing!



k..i dun remember the lyrics anymore le...been humming song all evening...and i can't find my song book!!!kaes..

hmm...been bumming all dae...ya..been blog-hopping and watching tv and with a lil nap in between..that's y i wanted a longer yf camp!!!to fill up all this hrs with meaning man!!

oh..anyone noes of any places that sell cheap and nice christmas cards?cos im gg to buy in bulk u see..

but i doubt anyone will reply mi..cos no one reallie comes here ba..


I HATE TALKING WITH UNREASONABLE PPL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gr..i wished i was nv in this family...oh wellz..God put mi in this family for a reason...arh..im turning mad here...
i feel so blearghx...can i just run away and nv return to this place?pls?oh wellz....

save mi from this man..

wake mi up, when september ends(or wadever month that i like ba...)

tired!! 6:38 PM

im still kinda tired...after slping for 13 plus 3 hrs...

hmm...ya...my yd teacher, moh han got us all star necklaces from israel for christmas and we wore them amd a new "club", star of david, as we called it, was so formed..and my other yd teacher, maybelline, gave birth to kenan luke on 7 dec!!well, supposed to come on the 16...oh well..he's cute for a baby ba...OOPS!!!forgot to take a pict of him so tt everyone can see him!!!arh...sorry...kinda slipped off my mind...too tired le..

well...today projector died and so we sang without lycis during service...trying to keep awake...lol...k...shall end here...i think im gg back to slp ba...hehe..

btw...maybelline's dog..hazel is v cute too!!!hehe...but kinda noisy.. =)

Saturday, December 10, 2005

May the words of my mouth 5:59 PM

May the words of my mouth

And the thoughts of my heart

Bless Your name, bless Your name, Jesus:

And the deeds of the day,

And the truth in my ways,

Speak of You, speak of You, Jesus.



chorus:
For this is what i'm glad to do,

It's time to live a life of Love

That pleases You.

And I will give my all to You,

Surrender everything I have and

follow You,

I'll follow You



Lord will You be my vision,

Lord will u be my guide:

Be my hope, be my light and the way?

And I look not for riches,

Nor praises on earth

Only You'll be the first of my heart.



chorus

I will follow, I will follow You. (x4)
chorus

Labels: lyrics

yf camp!! 4:42 PM

back from yf camp!!!woohooo!!!

okie...actuallie..i wished everyday of my life could be spent like this camp, praising and worshipping Him with all my heart, soul and mind and gg for workshops, games and fellowshipping with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ and feeling super high for Christ

this camp has taught mi the importance of doing qt and also wad it makes to be a disciple of God...

i have nv regretted gg for yf camp and in fact i was lamenting y didn't i go for my supposedly 1st yf camp in sec two..oh wellz...

i've made many new friends and also got to noe many of the yfers that i saw in the past personally..ya?(PRAISE GOD!HALLELUJAH!!-pastor tim.) like this camp is to noe more of the gardens ppl and the newcomers...cos like im closer to the bishan ppl but not the gardens ppl and also God has planned that my grp got quite alot of the 'older' gardens ppl (like bob, jerry, david and lena) and also my dorm the ppl slping around me were the 'new' ppl plus some of my good friends..

anyway...YF CAMP TOTALLY RAWKS K??and it is ONLY UR LOSS that u nv go..lol..k la..not including the overseas ppl who can't go for camp...im not gg to make them feel sad cos they are like overseas.. =)