hmmmm...someone was asking mi y i nv scold her in my blog....but like rather useless lor....i scold her here spoil my mood to blog here and then wad??nah....im not risking to waste my time and energy to scold and curse her...and anyway....cursing is bad for health...
and today something BIG happened.....ada tan walked out of the classroom and then mr kang came in and tell us that we are not going to have anymore maths lessons...!!! and we are to study the 10-yrs series on our own if we wan to learn maths...
mAd lor....10-yrs series how can learn maths lor....dotz....anyway....im not interested in maths...think it's useless....i mean....maths is essential in our lives....but...it can be useless as in the sense that some professions do not need so much of maths compared to others lor...
haha....im procrastinating lor.....cos i dun like sec sch maths...and i shouldn't treat maths liaddat at all...cos is an o-level examinable subject...and one of the most important wan....
so i guess...in order to improve on my maths, like wad the bible saes....love thy enemies...so i shuld learn to love maths....ya....=p
nitez!!


hey...im changing my old lifestyle for the time being...to see if the new one suits mi....
so now im slping in the afternoon...and stay awake thru-out the night to do wadeva hw that i have....cos i find that im more productive in the night where it's cooling and i can concentrate at night...
so guess u ppl won't see mi online anymore in the late afternoons and in the evenings....will be awake by 10 latest ba....cos im watching the last few episodes of the channel u show...and IM DEFINATELY WON'T MISS INUYASHA (hopefully...)...cos im mad abt it...ya...
that's all...im tired..and nitez everyone!!!


back....after sooooo long...haha...
actuallie i dun feel like posting...but im feeling obliged to type sth in here...cos it's like the second dae of sch and so mani things have happened...
i noe some 'unpleasant' ppl might come and read some of the things here...i believe that u noe who u are and i do not wish to pin-point at anyone....cos i noe the taste of being accused...esp if u have done nth wrong...and i hate to label u as 'unpleasant'....all ppl hu noe mi shuld noe that....i think...
i certainly hope that u have not done anything wrong in the eyes of God...after all...u are my sis-in-Christ and my gd friend...but if u did...i pray that u have realised ur mistakes and turn back to God...
in any case...i hope that all my friends will be honest and upright in the eyes of God...be it now or the future...


***and if u are reading this....please stop hurting all the friends hu care abt u.....and all i have to say is that we still can be friends if u stop hurting us..and we (or at least mi...) will glad to bury the hatchet and patch up...***


hmmm....dunno wad to post actually....blogging for the sake of blogging...and im here becos i forgot to charge my sis's laptop...so im finding stuff to do while that thing is still charging up...
haha...so i shall just spend my time crapping...i guess...haha...
haha....haven't done anything productive at all during the hols...and ya...im slacking all dae long...and i realised that my skin's getting into a bad shape coz i haven't been getting my beauty slp...actuallie i've been slping at irregular hours...where i can slp at 6:30 in the morning and wake up at noon....then the cycle goes on...which causes stress around my eye areas and therefore WRINKLES appear...sigh....
oh ya...i went to inuyashaworld.com and i found interesting stuff there la....like the 'synopsis' of every episode of inuyasha....and let mi tell u sth....their spelling totally is an F9 (which i think they dun even qualify for ag 4)!!!!oh man.....HORRIBLE!!!had a hard time reading them....ya....i do reallie hope that there is the comic book for inuyasha man...cos i dun think i can afford to slp later than 11:30pm at nights during sch hrs man....cos i will die of exhaustion...and if i have the comic book then i could read anytime i want...and not wait till wed...11 o'clock at arts central...and from wad i read frm the webbie....there are inuyasha movies and series....and it originated from the comic section of some newspaper...ya...
and i realised that most ppl think that shippo is a guy...but....it's a her!!!!cos the voice actor is a lady(the eng. version the voice actress was called jillian..).so u tell mi that shippo is a guy?!....dun tell mi that shippo is a guni-niang (meaning that the guy is a sissy...) or worse still....tell mi that it's gay...or that they made a mistake typing the name...but...dun u think that both eng and japanese version of inuyasha..shippo sounds feminine??
haha...i wish im not that crazy abt inuyasha...but...he's cute...thanks to the cartoonist...haha...


haha....not exactly my ideal skin....
oh wellz...this is the onlie one without that blogger header...not that i hate it...but very waste space leh...haha...
haha....then sumore the links siao siao...sighz..guess i have to fix it somehow....
and it will be somedae and somehow...


back frm the bbq...
i lost my way while coming home...cos i took the wrong bus....mistook 88 for 80....wad the....?
therefore i think im dumb...this is a very good example of my dumbness.....haha...
all was well at the bbq...had a gd time there....im tired of recounting the stuff....ya...all i can say is that i love the bbq and then i have 2 more bbqs to go...haha....ya....stop here....adioz!!


as u all can see...i've changed my bl0gskin...again.....but im still not veri happie wif it...so i might change again...
im one fussy person abt this huh....then the more i look at my skin the more i find that it actuallie looked like one of gabriel's old skin....hmmmm....so i wanna to change...but then again...im currently not at my desktop...so i can't do anything...cos i dl-ed the templates frm blogskins.com and they are all there and i can't rmb which wan i want to put it up here...
so much as i grumble, i still cant do much abt it for the time being....oh wellz...
and the time now is 0237 in the morning and im still furiously typing away on the laptop's keyboard..die....tml im still meeting julia....and prepare for the bbq which is starting in another 14 hrs' time....and i haven't been slping well for the past few daes....which explains y i nv appear on sun....haha...
hmmm....guess.....i betta slp now huh??oh ya...before i forget....i would like to say sth to those hu have been reading this blog faithfully: Gracias!!!!
and adios for now!!!


hmmmm.......haven't been updating this wk-end....cos haven't been doing much..so nv update lor..
went to sp for the wml course...and to my so- called 'horror'.....i was the only person there for the course....so the lesson was a one- to- one....
good thing is that i can go home earlier...but then like so super duper extra...sighz....cos i noe the ppl there are all lauffing cos im the only one in sch u....
so much for that.....oh ya...the ppl there looks horrible too....go sch like go beach liaddat...wad the..?i believe that sp is an institute of education...not some place where u go there to hook ppl of the opposite sex...u wan to hook ppl then wad's the point of going sch huh??u want to hook ppl also not liaddat rite...my goodness....
i noe it sounds like the ppl there are very desprate and stuff...but anyway....i dun have a good impression of the ppl there...other then the teacher and the lab person...ya...


watched the preview of starhub digital cable just now and i came upon a show on hallmark...called the cactus boy...superb!!!
it basically depicts of a 10-yr old boy by the name of georgie pierce, acted by thomas curtis, was diagnosed with brain cancer and he was dying...so his dad wated to fulfil his last wish...but the last wish was actuallie for him to be like his idol, cactus and billy,hu robbed a bank...
not wanting to disappoint his son, the dad,i forgot the name...(=p) planned a bank robbery...and the contradictracting part was that the father was actuallie a cop....
so they (father and son) planned the bank robbery....but in reality, the father had conspired wif the bank, local community grp and many more ppl to make it like realistic and not breaking the law.
however, while 'escaping'...the duo met wif real robbers and they got caught in a fix...but in the end...all turned well...and they managed to 'escaped' to mexcio to meet georgie's mom...hu divored wif mr pierce( the dad)...
so one yr plus later, georgie died and mr pierce thanked all hu took part in the 'robbery' and life carries on...
this is bacically the whole story...but it is not completed...of course...cos i didn't watch the 1st part and i had also delibrately left some interesting parts out too...
so long, adios!!!


haha....chatted wif sam just now....on the topic of yf being cliquish....
hmmm...i can't rmb the content le....but i only remembered the conclusion...cos i made that conclusion ma...
okie...the conclusion was that becos we can't tok to each other comfortably, therefore we prefer to stay in our little grps...therefore making yf cliquish....not that we dun want to mingle wif ppl...but it is becos we dun want to feel extra...
ya....and the cure to that is to tok wif ppl more lor...cos that's how ur friendship with ur current friends blossomed right??
i guess this can end to the statement that i made earlier, that yf is rather cliquish....ya...
the end.... =p


i miss jasmine (and all those hu went for church camp...=p) sia!!!haha...cos i can't gossip the latest news wif them....
and unable to gossip to mi is now rather unbearable to contain within mi now....for im a changed person....from an anti-social gal with not much words to ppl to an outspoken teen...can't wait to tell the latest gossip to her peers...that's like a total change...i believe that my primary sch classmates whom im not close to last time won't believe in this huh??
wadeva...then i suddenly realised that this is actuallie my third post for the dae....wow....
if i had join them together...it would be super duper long ba....
haha....im avctuallie typing alot of rubbish u noe....if u happen to realise...cos of wad daniel said last time...that my posts are all very short....ya...
but i guess wad matters is the quality of the post that u post on the blog...if not...give ppl some money to read ur blog...and i doubt they will even read lor....
so therefore i shuld improve on the quality of posts that i post here so that my readers...(which is U!!!!) will not feel boliao reading this heap of crap...
ciao!!


i think im reallie retarded or sth...reallie....oh wellz...
i noe dat ppl will come and say to mi that im not...but one thing that they will all agree is that im rather or very slow...
hey...i noe that im slow and retarded...that's why i can nv understand wad's with all the backstabbing or the so-called classroom politics around mi...which is happening around mi and im not even aware that it is still ard even in the hols. and till i read from their blogs then i noe...
then it sets mi to thinking....does it exactly matter to me whether they are backstabbing each other or whether they are engaged in a blood-curdling battle to cut each others' throat...for mi, i guess being slow and retarded does have it's own good and bad points ba..
good points is that....ur own little world will not be affected by the bad stuff around u....cos u won't even noe that it actuallie existed in the 1st place...
bad point is that....if u don't even noe that someone had just backstabbed u...how can u even defend for yourself in the first place??
i guess that my insensitivity towards backstabbing is that i have never experienced it throughout my 8 yrs of schooling...where i was like totally anti-social in my young primary sch life...
so that makes mi rather at an disadvantage huh??


haha...that trip to the hospital's wasn't that bad at all...cos the doctor said that everything looks fine to him...
so he refered mi to the physiotherapy department....and no brace for mi!!
guess wad??my physiotherapist was super duper cute lor....wahahaha....and im going mad abt him...(therefore the trip was not bad after all...if not better...) =p
he looks more like a hamster than chi kin lor....wahahaha....will brigitte get jealous??(so far i dun think she's able to see this...cos she's in hk...but hu noes?she might read this post somehow...haha....) okie....im getting too lame le...but he's reallie reallie cute lor...haha...=p (which then again...will he be my motivation to do my exercises dutifully??or maybe the whole dae spectaculating whether he is still available...so no time to do the exercises that im supposed to do ba...wahahahaha....joking!!!)
so glad that i can see him next week again...i hope...haha...


haha...my 2nd post in the dae le...2nd time in two daes...
i guess that's because im feeling very nervous le...cos within 15 hrs and 2 mins...im going for the long awaited appoinment for my curved spine...
ya..had waited for the appointment for like 3 1/2 months le....now that the time has come...im starting to feel all the jitters le...
like the dae when psle results came out....except this time is whether i nid to brace my back or not...=p


hmmm....i said i want to forget him...but it seems rather impossible for the time being...
anyway...saw this trailer on channelnews asia...where they have this documentary questioning the resurrection of Christ...
it's quite disturbing to me actuallie...having documentaries questioning the christian faith...and on the other hand...it seems to me that of all faiths...they only seem to pin-point onlie the christians...
my initial reaction to this was actuallie quite bad la...cos i feel that the documentary will bring bad light to christianity and also that it will bring about misgivings of the faith...but on the other hand, if we bring it to the positive side, we may be able to ask ourselves have we got the essence of christianity and also able to cross - examine that documentary with our biblical knowledge and with the bible to see whether the documentary was parallel to wad we noe...
but for the non-christians...i guess there would be 2 effects....one is to have the urge to noe Christ more...maybe to see whether the documentary was of some truth or either that...be anti-Christ lor...
so much for the saying 'evey coin has two sides'...


oh...went to watch mr and mrs smith wif bj, marvin and michelle today(yesterday...cos now's 2:16 am)...show was like super duper long...
guess wad??the chinese title for that is actuallie (directly translate..) smith husband V.S smith wife....
actuallie the main point is the versus part...cos the english title was just so- so...and the chinese one seems more appealing to mi...=p cos it was like saying how a husband and wife could turn tables on each other...
and so after that, michelle went home to contine studying...and mi , bj and marvin went to s-11 to makan...when in the end we onlie orderd milo for ourselves...like im so extra...cos im the onlie gal ard..and also the youngest one there...haha...so the conversation was like more created for mi so that i won't feel left out liaddat..cos im not exactly close to bj and im so not close to marvin la..ya..although his age is closer to mine than bj's..ya...and i could see that bj was like trying to find sum topics to talk about cos it's not easy to be in between two ppl hu are not close at all to talk...ya..guess i was being the one not ready to talk ba...cos wif two ppl that u are not close wif and sumore is of the opposite sex is much harder to talk to than ppl of the same sex ba..
good thing is that they both have brothers who are same age as me...which is not very useful ba...cos im also not close to them too...cos they attend gardens side while i attend the bishan side..( for those hu dunno...) but guess they treat mi like their 'lil siblings and talk lor...which makes mi look back at my childhood and just sigh...cos i was never close to my sis when we were younger...
so much for that...oh anyway...i had an interesting encounter before i met them at j8...
when i was passing by the senior citizen club (or sth...)...i saw 2 chickens escaping from the hole in between the fence and the ground....then i was thinking...hmmmm...should i go and tell the in-charge...but i was thinking...no la...y bother... and at that time i was running late...but when i passed by the herbs garden...and i saw this old guy prunning the plant...i told him that the chickens had escaped...and we when there...we saw 3 chickens outside the fence and the rooster was trying to pursuade the other 2 remaining chickens to make the big escape...
haha...chicken run huh?? too bad...i doubt they made the escape and i guess that the 3 hu ran out must have been lamenting that y those 2 stubborn chickens waste their time and made them unable to escape...
haha...so much for the excitement...and anyway...i caught the bus on time... =p


alas! i have broken my promise to update my blog wif happenings at yesterdae's frisbee....
but nothing will happen to mi ba... =p
okie...wad happened was that there was this model aeroplane, flown by some residents living in that area, had crashed into a tree...and wad that person did was to ask his son to climb the tree to get it down...hmmm.....that was super duper dangerous lor...fancy asking a boy to climb a tree...and that tree was rather small....wondering whether did the father ever spared a thought for the safety of the kid...especially that tree was not very strong and that boy was like round 8 or 9 liaddat....but anyway...all tree, boy and the aeroplane was safe....wif the tree losing quite alot of it's bark and leaves...
and after that...mi, julia and jasmine were toking about yf...and we were talking about y yf is like so clique-ish...ya...and julia mentioned that she had actuallie had a disscussion wif some other ppl and the youth mentors...and they concluded that we are a bunch of selfish ppl...as in the sense that we onlie tok to ppl whom we can go along wif...and that yf is actually like a youth gathering...where we mingle with christians around our age, make friends, knit closer bonds wif them....so if we dun mingle and tok to ppl whom is not our type...i guess it will be plain clique-ish and that would be like no different from the secular world, namely our sch and some organisations that we join...other than sch and church la...
really sets mi to thinking...cos when we are in it...we won't tend to think about it and stuff...cos we onlie care abt entertaining ourselves...and won't tend to think abt others..thinking that...oh..they got their own grp...or that...our level of thinking is not on par wif mi...or also that our age difference is so huge that we got nothing to tok about.....
i admit...im also liaddat....but we are all human aren't we?? we make mistakes too...pls do not think that when we become christians...we are perfect...cos we are not...for the time being...


yawnz....im so tired....even tho didn't do much...went to frisbee...but in the end also never play...haha...
feeling so bad....cos ben's hammock got torn...even tho it wasn't mi who broke it....wonder wad his reaction would be like....hmmmm.....dun reallie dare to think abt it...sighz...
worn out...very....will update later in the day....coz now is already 12:01 am...yime for mi to slp...=p


so glad that most of my grp ppl going for the bbq....yay...! =p


haha...a 20 mins bus ride(for daniel) became an hour's journey...wad the??
wad was i exactly doing?? =p i also dunno...haha...
okie...if i had walked back to ling kwng home and then walked thru the back gate and then walk out...to the main road and catch a bus and go home...it would take me abt 35 mins?
so wad i did was that i took a hitch from chong mian to ang mo kio interchange and took a bus home...which took mi abt 50 mins...not a much diff... =p
today's yf was combined...and it was outdoor workshops...our affliliated small grp...(i think it was chomp chomp...)...wasn't even present...ya...and timmy, sam and linus...had got staions to take charge..so basically it was rather small la..although hannah and her bro came to join us....
and we sort of lost our way there...haha...so we walked, walked and walked....haha...and im super tired and i can't elaborate more cos my back is super painful...(from all that walking and running...) and also im brain- dead le...
adieu for now...= =p


hmmm....im actuallie feeling that im finding stuff to do when i have other things to do...haha...
so much for that....
i find tv very useful to forget a person...haha....by watching loads of tv programmes...i find that i dun think of him that often...which....is a good thing....because it distracts mi from thinking abt him..haha...
used that tactic twice and so far it has been good..and may it continue to be effective when i need to forget my feelings for another person... =p


been busy preparing bbq...so haven't been posting....
been in a bad shape tho...dun even noe wad on earth i have been doing for the past few days...in a daze...following a routine which is boring....
sighz...i hate the hols...and unbelievably...im wishing for sch right now....and when school starts...i'll be wishing for hols again....
how dumb can i get?? haiz....


"suddenly, my world seemed more complicated...and somehow...the ways of my old life's comming back...i feel strangled and lost...trapped in an abyss....where no light can penetrate thru the darkness im in..."
this is the feeling that i tend to get when all is calm and serene...except for the flurry movement of my fingers moving across the keyboard of my sis's laptop and the seemingly hyperactive cat of mine is chasing after her toys...which is my hairbands and my sis's hair accessories...
in the wee mornings...the only time where i can pour out everything of my soul to the lifeless laptop where i would then post it onto the blog...where countless of ppl would maybe read and forget...
to mi...it had already become a routine...a routine which i dread...wad do u call that?a chore?? yes!it is a chore now...or is it a viscious cycle??where ppl have eyes that does not see, ears that does not hear, hearts that are dead to the internal cries of the weak...
are we reallie the fallen generation??indeed, where brothers would plot against each other for their own interests, children killing their own parents because they do not give them what they wanted....
however, not all are gone...i guess...where ppl do help one another in times of unrest and in need...
but..how can we be sure when the 'kind' would remain as they are??will their hearts harden??these...im sure...are not meant for us to know....
may i able to understand the things that i ought to noe...till then...im still in the dark...struggling to be in the light...


"goodness!!y am i so lame todae?!" "my dear...cos u ate prawns just now!!"
wahahaha...nvm if u didn't get the joke...
so im posting again...with a tinge of lameness ba.... =p
so lame cos i went to have lunch wif my maternal extended family cos todae's my grandnother's bd....and had prawns...which made mi so super lame lor..
then i came back and then came online to see if my crush had replied on his tag board...which he did...and im so so happie and ya...im like s0 madd abt him....but at the same time im rather jealous becos i noe there are a no. of ppl i noe hu liked him...based on my inituition (correct spelling??) and i guess many more whom i dunno ba....
anyway...im unfazed abt that....since i mentioned that it was onlie a crush...i hope im able to overcome that feeling and continue as a platonic relationship...so that i won't feel awakard talking to him or sth...but at the same time...have a 'lil hope that he will be mine...which currently looks rather impossible to mi...so i will focus on the former....which seems more practical....
so to myself i shall sae: Gambata!!!


heyo...didn't post yesterdae cos i was too slpy le....haha...
kk...summarise of yesterdae: came late for yf cos i got lost on my way...(took a bus frm orchard..), then malu-ed myself cos i misheard wad sebby said...so ya...and i said 'shit u!' to sam tan cos he threw sth at mi...so loudly until rachel liew was staring at mi.. =p and there were 2 gals( mi and rachel liew) hu went for dinner...sighz...and oh ya...sam tan was bugging mi to organise a grp outing...again... =p
so today...i suggested that we should go for a barbecue..and everyone agreed and all the logistics all came down to mi lorz...haiz...the thing that i most disliked is to plan stuff....and now this la...thanks lor...wahahahahaha....
so far the only thing confirmed is that it will be the last wk of hols and it will be in the evening and location...most prob in east coast park lor...and i seriously DO NOT kow how to plan for a barbecue...so...i shall ask ppl lor... =p
p.s daniel was complaining that all my posts were super short...but the last post was quite short and his font is bigger than mine lor.... (i think...) and im veri sure that the post before this is longer than his last post... =p so u don't complain that my posts are all so short wan.... -.- and im super duper sure that this post is long okie...even tho im not sure if this post is the length of wad u normallie post on ur blog....*hmmmmmph!!!* haha...


Mat 10:35-36 "For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. And a man's foes shall be they of his own household."
suddenly, those 2 verses seem so true right now....it's like since i have accepted Christ, i have been 'feuding' wif my dad....not becoz of religious matters (coz i come from a non-christian family...as i think most ppl would noe...)...but becoz the fact that he caused my 2nd cat to die and many very irritating things (which i shall not elaborate as it would take a million years to do so and i dun wan to waste my energy just to be angry wif such ppl...) to reallie piss mi off etc....
best thing that he said after so many years was to tell mi to announce to the whole world that he is dead...( which right now i can be rejoicing if he is really dead...becoz i reallie dun care and i have got no wish to care abt him....and i loathe him to the core...)
i noe that God wants us to forgive our enemies...but it's realli hard after hating the person for so mani years and also when ur enemy is the 'supposedly' one of the people closest to u in ur entire life....and a person whom u need to give respect to....
sometimes i wonder wad is God's purpose for mi to be in this family where im really on the verge to despise and to a more extreme extent, to not trust my relatives....not becoz they are non-christians or anything...but to question their motives behind everything...which is not exactly wad God had wanted of us as christians...

oh my goodness!!i think im super slow...reallie... i now then realised that someone in my ex-level has passed away....thru her best friend's blog... like it's so sad lor....a gal wif bright future just passed away after an accident in sch last year... even tho i onlie noe her by her name, class and her cca.... maybe..that's God's plan for her...to trod on this earth for a mere 16 years but making a difference to the ppl she knew throughout her life... 生命短暂，只有美德能将它保留到永远的后世... this post is delicated to jean, the gal whom i hardly known....

does it actuallie matter to mi that u actuallie exist?? does it matter to u that i am still existing on this planet?? oh well....these questions are questions that i don't get an answer...or that it just changes over time... im actually feeling quite crap right now....coz vei actually feeling not veri well....and moods just tend to be rather extreme or just being exaggerated.....which is veri veri irritating.... onlie happens when i ate the wrong stuff at the wrong time which causes a stomach upset...which makes mi upset too...so im veri veri upset.... =p

im feeling super guilty la....coz nv go for geog lessons la....actuallie we all did go to sch and waited for her to appear...but the whole point is that she's always late for lessons and always come and tell us that we remember wrong time....wad the....but then while we were leaving sch...we all (3k ppl...) all saw her strolling to the staff room wif sun glasses on and best part is that she looked up and smiled at us.... but we all zhao.....and when mi,rui sin and chin ling were leaving sch...we saw her taking all her stuff nd heading to 3d ckassroom....oh man.... but anyway...she also came and have lessons wif 4k lor...so haiya....wadeva lor....but the attitude-wise seems very un-christianly u see...so hmmmm....am i showing the good christian attitude...? which is not....i think...telling ppl not to go for lessons and instead go for macdonald's breakfast... but there is another geog lesson next week and quite alot of ppl are not coming for geog lessons....should i then go for lessons...knowing that it might be another wasted trip....coz this is not the 1st time that it happened.....and the whole of 3d ppl hu takes geog had already complained to the hod but they kana scolding instead.... sighz....

back...after so many days of not posting...been slacking for the 1st few daes of my hols....
went to plaza sing to watch madagascar wif grace and had gelare waffles and went abit of shopping lorz...
and grace tot im older than my sis....sigh.....even tho she is and dresses older than mi...wahahaha...
and just as i expected, my sis was so pleased that grace tot tt im older...haha....coz she keeps complaning that she looks old and i keep calling her an 'auntie' becoz of her dress sense...and i feel that im influenced by her...and you noe the rest...ya...
oh ya...the pictures that i took on sun came out le...looks super gross to mi....my smile looked super fake and then my hair looked like some lion's mane....grrr.......
not much of good news todae....