been studying yesterdae after sch at airport yesterdae....din't reallie do anything much there though..few maths questions and 3 pages of geog notes...sighz...think im gonna to be dead meat soon...
im off studying soon...to church...ya...where im meeting grace at 1:30 pm...hmmmm...will be off soon...




P.S mi saw a super duper cute guy...wahahaha...wonder if he's taken....(but i guess he's taken...they normally do...)(sweeping statement...)






oh ya...i think tt my friend's aneroxic....hmmm....but she claim tt she's not eating cos she has no cash...which is so untrue....
think she started to be aneroxic cos my friends are mostly skinner than her...other than me and val..but they are skinny cos it's in the genes..so no matter how they eat...they still can't reallie get fat...
think how can i help her....hmmmm...


hmmm...so long nv post le...beginning to lose touch to blog le....
anway...update u ppl on my life in sch...so far still okie...coz all my books are safely at home...except my geog textbook...cos my back was aching after the medical checkup...so left it there...ya...
and that horrible kester pulled my chair when i was about to sit down during dnt lesson yesterday...then i fell to the floor...and fortunately i didn't hit my back...or else i would have screamed my head off at him...and i dun care how is he related to tt slyvester....obviously not the cat chasing tweety...just watch out..
ya...been buzy...not wif my eams..but with the picts..i noe i shouldn't have...but i was so tempted to do them and i did...haha...ggggrrrrr....so sickening la....
ya...and my mid-yrs are like on tues.....and i have barely prepared for my first paper...physics and eng paper 1 la...actually i really have no interest in physics...coz all the horrible formulaes for waves and lenses( hey...i realised that u need to noe sth abt lenses to get nicer picts... -.-)
just blearghx la...sigh...reallie all these will be gone in a flash....

was chatting with bri thru sms...and she commented that the person hu took our stuff reads my blog too....and she also mentioned that she had put up a post saying that she dun like the gal and that gal had made a reply saying wad have she done to her (bri)... so far i heard was that the gal was trying to get close to rs,my another classmate.think that she's trying to get her (rs) over to her side...coz we told her wad had happened.... pray to God that may rs side to the truth la....yupz... and may the gal repent too...so that by living as a true christian....she can have an eternal relationship with God

hmmm.....so far nth reallie to say...coz i quite sian... =p so shall not reallie sae anything 4 now!!

knowing that the person hu stole my friends' and mine things is a christian...im deeply saddened by that fact... heard that she has backslided...(hint! to noe hu's the person...read one of my post in here!) but i was wondering...could she be even not a christian?she didn't seemed to be like one...her actions and the way she dress certainly didn't seem to imply that she's a christian... jealousy, lying, backstabbing, stealing and even having sex wif her bf are definately NOT what are the things that pleases God. In fact, in Galatians 5:16-26 it was stated that " This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another. "
and in God we are transformed to be more and more to be like Him and as i wrote in one of my post 'Jesus said "be holy, for I am holy" ' it seems to me that she became a christian becos she didn't want to be burned in hell, meaning to go Heaven.but without true faith, all efforts will come to naught.like wad Matthew 7:21 says,"Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven." anyway....pray that she would come to noe Christ and have true faith in Him.


yay!my geog book came back!!but thinking back...i had put inside together with my workbook in the teacher's drawer and it disapeared...and it suddenly appeared....
actuallie i had several stuff m.i.a( missing in action)...and now mid yrs are coming...i suspect that the person hu stole my stuff wans the notes in my books to study...
not only my books' are gone, brigitte's books and even patricia's geog notes are gone...just can't understand y the person is so despicable....u wan get good grades...play it fair and square lahz...y must steal other ppl's stuff so that they can't study so that they get bad grades and u get good grades??worse still, u take other ppl's stuff just to not let them not study...
oh wellz....anyway...mi and brigitte have a rough idea to who stole our books....so beware....THIEVES!!!


1. Give God what's right -- not what's left.
2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end -- God's way leads to an endless hope.
3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.
5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma--but never let him be the period.
6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.
7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.
8. When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty.
9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.
10. We don't change God's message -- His message changes us.
11. The church is prayer-conditioned.
12. When God ordains, He sustains.
13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.
14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.
15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.
16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.
17. Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord.
18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.
19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.
20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.
21. He who angers you controls you.
22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.
23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.
24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them.
25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
26. Read the Bible -- It will scare the hell out of you.


so glad tt i toked to carmen todae....seemed so long that i last toked to her (and it has been reallie that long anyways...)
yupz...caught up with her ever since we nv talked to each other ever since we(meaning the 3/4 k gals, jia hui, joycelyn and carmen) broke up becos someone had backstabbed her( im not mentioning names here cos they are so childish and it makes mi rather angry with them coz they are doing that...)
and im glad that carmen's found good friends to hang out with ever since we broke up...and sad that i still have to face those backstabbers and putting false fronts and to get away i had to lie....which i noe it's SO SO wrong of me to do...(do pray for mi abt that!!)
well...she was shocked that both bri and tania had done tt wif their bfs, but i think she was more shocked to hear tt tania's done tt...becos she had looked so innocent(cos she's super duper fair!!!) and also becos that she's a christian too, a christian who has backslided.
in the BiBle, it was stated that " For this ye know, that no whoremonger, nor unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, hath any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God "(eph 5:5)," Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth, is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's."(1 cor 6:18-20)
Therefore i decided to help her becoz as christians we shuld set good examples for the world to see and also Jesus had said:" Be holy, for I am holy"
but i really dunno how to help her...suggestions , pls tell mi... =p thanks!!


why why why???? why must we have TWO casinos??sighz....is it really because of economic reasons or does it also involve some other underlying reasons that would be solved once we build a casino??
remember that in the news, pm lee mentioned that the other countries were laughing at us for not having a casino and labelled us as 'old-fashioned' and not cosmopolitian enough compared to the countries and states which have at least a casino in them.....
however, he did mentioned that by buliding TWO casinos, it would create at least 35 thousand jobs for singaporeans by working in the casino and also...tourism related jobs would also have more money coming in as tourists from other countries like china would spend a few more daes in singapore as they would want to try their hand to see if they could be an instant millionaire from winning in gambling...and also the longer they stay...the more money they would spend here...
on the other note...by opening the casinos, an estimated 2.3% of the population would be addicted to gambling...and to counter- attack this...the goverment had also planned to educate the people in hope that the number of hard core gamblers would go down....
the goverment had also hoped that thru the teachings of the different religions....that the number of gamblers would go down too...
but i believe that this is not workable...like little children....we are always very curious abt the new things around us...so when we build a casino here...there is always the 'kapo-ness' and also the urge to try out new things as singapore had never had a legal gmabling place( the casino)...and i believe that by building a casino...u are like placing a temptation near u...and for ppl hu are weak in their faith, they may be easily be led astray by that....
this can be seen by a gaming fan and a computer with many games...if u do not place the computer with the many games near the addict, the addict would at least, by hook or by crook, try to control that voice in him to go gaming....but if u place the computer fan near the computer with the many games,firstly, any normal gaming fan would normally not stop to play the games in the computer, unless he was bounded by rules or he had other more important stuff to do...he would walk over to the computer and play the games in them for one or two hours...but as daes pass by, he would automatically walk over to the computer and start playing non-stop...
although there are measures like educating the people...but look at the computer addicts...dun they noe that gaming is bad??dun they noe that it's a waste of time?of course they do!!!!hello?! dun the schools have talks that tell them that gaming is bad???
those gaming addicts do noe all the theory...and they can tell u all the cons frm front to back and from back to front again....but y dun they stop?? the reason is simple...they just can't stop because the temptations are always there to tempt them and they fall into the trap once more...
so it's the same for these hard-core gambling addicts...if one dae we don't get rid of the root of the problem...it will snowball....so think about it again...


sighz....the show ended yesterdae le..wif elvin dead....and hanwei being caught by the police and recieved treatment.....wad a sucky ending..... in case if u dunno wad am i talking abt.....im referring to the show on channel 8, a life of hope, which was aired at 9 pm.....
seriously..this show is like one of the other show which was aired like hai you ming tian and hai you ming tian II.....becoz of the message that it is trying to put across....to get ppl to go for regular checkups to see if ur bmi is at the okie level,and if u are at the high risk for kidney failure and to see if u have cancer....like they say...prevention is betta then cure.... and not forgetting to get ppl to donate to nkf....
media is a veri powerful tool to get ur messages across.....as it stimulates both ur sense of hearing and also ur sense of sight....if it is the television....this stimulation of ur 2 senses would make messeges that the media is trying to put across impressions conciously and subconciously....(remembered from my sis lecture notes when i had to test her for her papers few mths back... )
so nkf makes use of the media to reach it's aim...and which i think they did huh??esp now that the show,a life of hope has hunks like elvin(he totally blows mi off!! =p) , julian hee(my friend thinks he's cute...) , hanwei( great acting skills...) and tay ping hui(my mom thinks he looks like my uncle....hu is sho cute too...)... and babe like joanna pei(dun blame mi if i got the name wrongly spelt) hu blows my friend off too.... =p
so wad?guess that whether the message is being put across to the targeted audience not only depend on the storyline but more importantly, whether the cast is good looking....so that ppl would watch the show....regardless of the time ba...


haha...todae's sports dae!! of course i never participate in anything la...but sam's so super pro sia....got gold for the events he took part in...oh well...he's the captain for atheletics ma...so shuld have some substance rite??haha...
sighz...im so so broke...well....trying to survive till sun....haiz...well well...wish me all the best!!


hmmm.....was reading daniel's blog and about the entry on that dae (mondae) tt david left....hmmm...i didn't go....coz i had sch and also becoz i woke up late...almost seven =p
i of course did not felt as sad as daniel and the ppl hu were veri close to david...cos i not that close to him...and maybe im more optimistic by trying not to think abt that ba..
haha....remember that first time i came to yf...david was like one of the very first ppl to tok to me and wad struck mi most was his smile...his smile had always been veri contagious and it can really make ur dae....no matter how bad ur dae has been.... =p
hey!!!y do i sound like he's dead or sth??grr.....anyway....he's going for 9 mths to study rite??and it's less than a yr!!that's the good part rite??haha...and it's also the bad part....but still...technology's so advanced now...comparing to last time....last time ppl dun have something called telephone ,internet, msn messenger, web camera....but we do...and last time ppl communicate long distances thru snail mail....isn't tt worse??
so ppl....look on the bright side of life!! and be comforted that the Lord is with david always!! and be thankful of the technology too! =p


it's mi!!!haha...no more anger management la...haha...so anyways....i went to buy a devotional book for myself and i realised that choosing a devotional is reallie not that easy...wahahaha..coz u must reallie understand which level of understanding of the bible u are ant and also if the bookis too easy for u anot and stuff.....hmmmm.....wad a great experience!!


back....shuld write yesterdae...but i was so busying studying/ taking picts/ watching tv/ sleeping...so in the end i didn't write....oh wellz...
anyway...i was so mad wif two ppl todae....one is myself and the other is kester...y??
first of all...i am angry with myself for not bringing the camera to sch...coz i missed two GOOD chances to take a good pict!!!!grrr.....but if i take the picts, i might be late for sch....sighz...and the other thing was that im so mad with myself for being mad with tt kester sim...grr....can't imagine im getting angry for a LITTLE BOY!!!!
now wad did kester do to incur my wrath??firstly he used tania's foolscap pad to hit my face and my ear...where my latest earhole was at...it wasn't really healed...the whole point of it was that tis is not all...then that 'lil boy kester took tania's eraser and....with a throw...the eraser hit my cheekbone.....grr....and still not done yet...then i was studying for social studies and dunno wad he use...and hit my forehead just above my left eyebrow....and the whole point was that he didn'y even sae a word of apology....and looked as if i deserved it....
so maddening...i noe that as christians we shuld be forgiving and stuff....but sometimes anger would get the betta of me for quite some time...and those who went for yf camp last yr would definately sae, "gillian...anger management..." before shrieking into laughter....wahahahaha...
hey...i still did remember that camp's workshop on anger management which Dr George Khoo (lyd's dad) was speaking...haha
so anyway im much much betta now so im back to my normal self unless u ppl wan to come and make me angry...hmmm....can sense my anger coming back...haha....some ppl would noe wad are the stuff that im toking about... =p


i broke my record for standing broad jump todae!!!!wahahaha....think my best last time was 176 cm or something...but todae my best was 186cm!!! haha.....i owned it to daniel..(was it some other guy???)haha...oh wellz....had great fun in pe becoz of chi wen and yan yu...haha...thankz!!had great fun luffing todae....haha......


back...coz of an earthquake!!!
haha...actuallie not an earthquake la...it's just a tremor from indonesia.... ya...im feeling so sad for them sia....in 5 months they have like 3 earthquakes le.....sighz...oh well.....
waondering is it a sign that singapore shuld not have a casino in s'pore??coz as far as i remember when indonesia had earthquakes...singapore was generally not affected...but nowadaes....we get to feel more and more of them...
hmmm......or does it mark the prophescy of relavation coming true??hmmmm....remember last time i was doing a bible study on relavation...and remembered that there will be great earthquakes and stuff...(can't remember..) when Judgement Day is about to come...
so may i pray that there will be no casino in spore and incur God's wrath..
or maybe everyone becomes a christian and be saved!!! =p


oh wellz...after so mani daes of not writing....im finallie back.... *darn gillie....where have she gone...?* *thinks....* *eyeballs rolls* *dead....oh well...might as well...betta...ears and eyes have peace now* *heaves a sigh of relieve.....*
haha...anyway...all of that was said by me!!! split personality...wahahaha...so the normal wan is called gillian and the other is called gillie.....haha..... SiaO!!!!
oh wellz...back to serious buisness....i've been buzy studying for geog test....and only to realise that there was NO geog TEST on fridae!!!!! wah...sian lor....make mi study for nothing..
no la...so now this weekend i spent most of my time studying for geog test until they call mi siao also i dun care... =p
actuallie i am having my d & t test on(which is tomorrow!!!) , but becoz my textbook dissapeared...i can't study...so i studying 4 geog instead....and my homework is pilling up...haiz....
that's so sian rite....wish mi all the best ba!!! (btw...i haven't reallie finished studying for geog...sighz...)


sighz....i seem not to able to convince myself to y Christ died for us on the cross sia....
as in i noe y He died for us, and why, but i still find it quite hard to believe....i noe i should and i want to...
maybe is because im a selfish pig ba.....but putting myself into His shoes makes me understand y He did so...but still i can't do it...i guess it's hard coz for me some things must be instilled since young and i guess faith also ba....
wahahaha...so oh well....i guess i have to keep reminding myself time and again bahz....psyco myself....i dun noe if it will work...but i certainly pray that by God's grace that i can be able to pull thru when my faith is put to the test... sadly...which i never made that thru...sighz....
oh wellz....think it's time 2 slp....bb....


sigh....i really hate all this crap la....i noe that im grumbling here la...but i simply just cannot can't take this lying down sia....
can't imagine that there are ppl hu are so so so d***unruly lor.....sigh....and that person is my dad....i noe that one of the ten commandents was to obey one's parents...but to an unreasonable person wad can u do to him or her???
i dun mind ppl who anyhow accuse mi or people hu thinks that they noe me inside out...(but i reallie don't like them.....) but i just cannot tahan ppl hu sae anything abt GOD!!!!!He's the Creator, Our Lord and Saviour....
guess wad my dad said....he told mi that u can believe that there is a God above, but dun go gaga over them...like hello??since when did i go gaga over God??since i had already acknowledge that Jesus Christ is my Lord....i shuld worship Him and also not stick to the stuff that we were bounded by fake idols and old cultures which do not please HIm....
and he said stuff like if u wan to worship God...go ask the church to raise mi and to ask them to pay for my pone bills and stuff..and he protested that i should go to my grandfather's grave and to pray to ask for blessings and stuff...is like wad for??
for the Bible had said that all grace and mercy come from God and Jesus and also say that let the dead bury the dead...so i dun see the point to y i must go and clean the grave as wad 清明节 suggests....and to mi...it's just like a waste of time too....for we will see them again when we are in heaven and we also do not need to waste too much of our lives of such worldly things...for it will be perished when heaven and earth pass away....so we should spend our time and energy on how we should store heavenly riches in God...
and my dad also sae that go cry for john pope II too....mad...y must i go cry 4 him?? im a christian and he is the catholic...not that i condemn him...but the point is that my dad said he was a christian....and he is the head and therefore i shuld cry for him....wahahaha...i dun even noe him personally and to the things he had done for the woprld...im not clear...and as far as i remember....i had never cried for a dead person....so to me that is total madness....
oh wellz....wad can i sae???


oh...hi!! it's me again...wahahaha....mad...
anyways...i woke up late...and so i reach church like 11??and service starts at 10.20....so late...after service headed over to mac's for lunch...mom called and asked if i could go to ang mo kio to jack's place to eat lunch...i rejected...coz i wasn't reallie hungry...and i dun want to waste money and food la...so i think some ppl would call me siao rite???haha.....tt's mi....suffing from 'total madness sydrome'.....haha....
not wanting to play ultimate frisbee...i went home....and on my way...i fell asleep and woke up to find that i was at the bus stop outside my alma-mata, CHIJ (Katong) primary...so i decided to sit till it make a loop at victoria school...then back to my house again....then it rained la...by the time i reach home it was pouring like siao and impatient i didn't wait for the rain to stop so i was totally drenched lor...and when i reached home and bath...it stopped raining....
sighz....

back from yf outing....not too bad...but really energy-draining sia....dunno it's just mi or im already very tired in the first place...anywayz...i want to sleep le.....will write tomorrow....buaiz...

back....from red rain concert!!!!wow!!!!it was F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!!!!! wahahaha....mad...anyway...it was rather high...and it wasn't as noisy as i thought....oh well... things i learnt from the concert....they are new zealanders.....a grp of 4.....the guy with rather nice hair is called steve.....the lead singer is married? there's alot of ppl in tk or ex-tk-sians are from heart of God church.....and they have a song named after them...or should i sae they are called red rain because of the song called red rain.....and new zealand's national anthem has a part which ask God to bless new zealand and stuff.....so cool..... =p so maybe i should listen more to christian rock songs huh??

hmmm....didn't go school as usual...wahahaha...
talked to steven and dennis todae....one after so long and the other the first time on msn(actuallie is not msn...it's windows messenger...i have two accts for messenger...coz one full le...and as an xp user...the computer has two types of messenger...just nice for my two accounts =p)!!!haha...i'm having 'total madness syndrome' again....haha...
im going to red rain's concert later...dunno y not very looking veri forward to it....maybe because my ear still hurts...oh well...dunno...
my sis just woke up and scolded mi 4 blogging....thinks it's a total waste of time....oh crap...well...i think that blogging is a way of getting your inner self or the darkier side of you known to your readers and at the same time a good way to express yourself on some stuff and to be able to share your experiences to your readers and it can also improve your 'written' english...but only if u are very conscious of the spelling, grammar,vocabulary and the rules of english lorz....
but blogging too also have it's cons...(im doing the pointers for an argumentative essay huh??) so wad are the cons...firstly it takes up too much time..secondly...no one corrects your spelling, grammar, vocabulary, and the rules of english...only you corrects them yourself...and most of the time , you dun see it...thirdly, scheming ppl who wants to take revenge on you can read the stuff that you type and devise plans to harm you (quite far-fetched huh??) fourth, is that if u are working in some company and u type some of the unpleasent stuff that u met with during work, and your boss finds out, either you get sued by your company or you lose you job just because of your blog...and which you think that the contents of the blog does not reveal your company's top or any secrets... and last of all...YOU ARE HOGGING THE COMPUTER....ESPECIALLY IF THE COMPUTER IS A SHARED ONE.... =p
oh well....im not working in any company or have any enemies who wants to take revenge on mi (not that i know of....by the way...) so i think it's quite safe for me to blog here right...except the part whereby this computer is a shared one....so at times im hogging the comp just to blog...wahahahaha...so the most i just get screwed for hogging on this computer.... =p