back from the darn poly clinic....took mi half a dae to see the doctor...sighz...and the same doctor who was using windows messenger the last time i went for my back poblem too...this time his screen had Yahoo! mail....so ya...u noe... =p and he was talking to his friend on the phone too...oh wells....sighz...
oh well...the verdict came down le....the root of my back problem was that my backbone had sum problem due to bad posture ^.' ...so im going to see a specialist at sgh....oh welll...
best part of it is that my appointment is like 1 and a half months away from now...so think im going to die of pain for the time being huh?wahahahahahahahahahahaa.....


back now onlie coz yesterdae wanted to blog but blogger got internal error...so....oh wells....at least i can get to blog again rites??
yupz...friendster now have got sumthing called a friendster bloG!!!!!yucks, yucks and yucks!!!!it's totally dumb....like wad daniel always say....it's gay!
guess it's becoz they wanted ppl to keep logging in to friendster so tt they could earn more cash...hu in dis world would wan to earn less if they colud earn more rite?
awyway....the itchy- handed me went to play wif my ear cos it wasn't painful as 4 the past 3 daes i put antiseptic cream...cos i can't find my antibiotic cream...grrr....and i got tt ear stud out of my seventh hole and it could not get back in...took mi like an hour and alot of owwwww-ing to get back in again...now my ear is painful and swollen...ouch...i deseverved it rite?? i noe... =p
well...reason for not in sch today...same problem lorz....my back lorz...haha....daniel didn't go sch too!!and then saed tt his father scolded him and wanted him to go back to sch during recess time...and he asked mi how to get back aches so tt he no nid go sch...haha...
sighz...im now supposed to be on my way to the polyclinic...late...so shall end here...bbz!!


okie....let's retype wad happened todae larhz....todae had been quite a good day...praise the Lord...yupz...
nora nv come 4 english lesson so the class was TOTALLY LIKE A ZOO manz...wah....my ears suffering sia...anywayz...i msged my sis to see if we could go 4 lunch and then she said she just started studying wif eddy and giddeon.....wad the...tot they had met at 10 to study....LOUSY...so later after sch ended....mi and brigitte went to parkway to makan and headed over to comics collections (or was it connections?) and then she spent a long time thinking which naruto comic fingerine set she shuld buy....for one was nicer but dun have chi kin's fave character and the other was uglier and the last set but it has chi kin's fave character....wahahaha....so in the end she bought the uglier one...oh wellz...
anywayz...i met christl wif her friends while heading to sumwhere...i guess now she must be in vjc....or else she wouldn't be at parkway ba...coz it's like so far away from her hse...yahz...
oh ya....i bought a huge bright pink pencil case and i pierced my ear again....owwww...that one hurts...and i can't help but to think how much pain Jesus had to suffer when He was nailed onto the Cross at the Calvery sia...mine was pierced into the soft bone and it was done within 1 or two second and i nearly screamed...while His was nailed slowly and it's the hard bone and at the thought of that...i can't help but to cringe sia...
anywayz...i dunno wad to sae le....will add a new entry tml bahz.....


sighz.....dunno wad to type yesterdae then nv enter lor...anywayz....yesterdae mi and daniel were discussing if myrrh and cinnamon shuld merge to do fellowship tea for this cuming yf outing....ya...so the deal was that we do a fruits galore....haha...which was like to have assorted fruits there...so basically it's just different types of fruits and a nicer name.... or sth betta...
so haven't decided yet lorz....haha....ya...
wad happened todae is a joke....pratically a J-O-K-E....ya....julia, jasmine and josette (now then i realised tt im being ka chiao-ed.....all of them their names start wif a 'j'...so all of them ganged up to bully a non-'j' =p) come and make fun of mi becoz i dun like ahem...let's call ahem that friend...so all of them come and psyco mi into liking that friend and then saying that i must give wad T.L.C(tender, loving care...) and wad hearts connect to each other and wad load of crap...and all gave mi a scare and therefore i shrieked twice...while walking to S-11...
oh well....can't be bothered anymore...wad to do?? they are still young and like to ka chiao mi lor...that's all i can sae....
oh wellz...wad i wan to sae that don't try to pysco mi into liking that friend....and julia (or was tt jasmine..??wadeva...)....u keep saying that he not bad rite...u can go like him...and stop pestering mi wif him okie??
and all i can say tt he's just not my type....


heyz....just reading my other blog which i had set up with my best friend tanvee last time....and then i read about the post there...and i felt rather guilty...and so this post is speciallie delicated to her and i reallie hope that she reallie can see this coz like now she's simply so bz....
okie tanvee....this is speciallie said to u kaes??so if u are here pls PlS read wad im typing here....
heyz....first of all....i'll like to apologise for not writting in that blog okies?? not becos im bz or wad....but simply due to the fact that i forgaot the password...then is like....i dun have the habbit of writting in an online journal last time becoz i preferred my 'ole notebook...which was meant 4 everything....as u noe (and i noe that u do....)....so that was the main reason that i never write in there...then i think u must be thinking that y didn't i ask u 4 the passward rite?? well...i sort of pushed it to the back of my mind so i guess it nv came back to mi until u transferred sch last yr....even then, u were either offline or u were bz....ya....although we met a few times....i had completely forgotten about it..and ya...it did came back to me that tt blog existed okie??
and so i had it linked to this one....but when i came back to the blog the second time this yr...u had it shifted liaoz...
thinking back...i suddenly realised that y u had wanted to have that blog....quite dumb of me to realise it now huh??at least it's betta to realise it late than none huh?? guess im self-comforting for being so slow and dumb huh???ggggrrr......
oh wellz...guess i have nth else to sae to u but i hope that everything goes well for u and that we can still be wad we are before, despite not contacting for so long and not popping over to ur hse like almost everydae after sch...( how i missed that now...sighz...) yupz....remember that u still hab friends in Tk and that we'll always be there 4 u kaes?? *silent tears trickles down cheeks...*
signing off. here,
ur best friend
Gillian


hmmmm.....i found this in one of my friend's post.....ya...it saes about the different types of kit kat...
so here is wad i copied from there....






sighz.....back from da polyclinic....coz my back problem still persist after like 3 mths....well...i waited there for pratically 3 hrs there....frm like 2 plus to 5 plus liaddat...siaghz....the doctor in the end sae that wait and see if the problem still persist after taking the medication.....if still have then must go take x-ray if it is the bone problem and a urine test to see is it kidney problem.....sighz.....well....pray that all is well lor...wellz...tml back to sch....sianz....well...have to la...if not this week i onlie go sch 4 one dae thruout the whole week coz fridae is good fridae...wahahaha... =p


yay! finallie got the pict here!! haha....anyway....i got tt frm sam from his webbie and i certainly hope that it's not copyrighted....then have to pay royalties and red tape and stuff...... =p anyway....i reallie like that pict....dunno y....coz it attracts mi to it??well...every photo tells a story...like wad chris yap had said...it depends whether u can catch it or not... and i think it sort of catches me to it cos it's black and white and also in the pict there's a page that says 'wad is ur life?'.
i think it's like a sort of makes u reflect wad have been doing to ur life and also have u been deystroying ur life like wad the broken pieces around it....to mi the broken pieces is like broken lives; a reminder to us that we shuld live life fully, the way God wans us to live....
meaningful huh??


bacK!! i nv go to sch today coz of my back problem...sighz...anywayz...i had a good time todae (time where i woke up todae till the point im writting this entry...) y?? coz i was browsing thru all my friends' blogs..and i saw one blog which reallie interests mi had have given me much tots...ya...be coz the photos that he took had depth and it reallie attracts to to it and reallie sets u thinking about it...well..ya...that's my view...how abt urs??





heyz...back....with the sian-ness from sch....sighz....y our hols are so short??or issit reallie that time flies??well i dunno....aniwayz...im late for sch (as usual...) but this time i had a shock..y?? coz i saw mani of the sec 4s....most of them i noe....[like duh rite??(for the benefit of the ppl hu didn't noe...i repeated sec 3 and im still in EXPRESS!)]....outside of general office and shirely koh had a cane with her!!!ya...then i went in into the general office to record my name in the latecomers' file, guess wad? i saw aaron and peiyan in the geral office wif kee hoe,wee and goh mei li, with an ANOTHER cane with him,and looking total pisssed.....then VP came in looking rather stern too....then wee and goh mei li left the office...and wad happened next i can't rmb but all i noe was that aaron had pon physics pratical and then peiyan 'helped' him to hand in a blank piece of classwork and then when goh mei li and mr wee asked them if aaron got cum they kept saying that he did....but then they never expected that she nv mark attendence 4 him and so when they check, then they noe that the two of them was bluffing them lorz....so they brought them to kee hoe, hu called the VP and in the end i noe tt aaron got caning and i didn't noe wad happened to peiyan...cos i had to go back to class....
btw...im not sum gossip monger hu put this incident to luff at them but it is here to remind mi of a veri impt lesson...<<若要人不知，除非己莫为>> this phrase when translated, says that when u wan ppl not to noe wad u have done, u shouldn't even have done it in the first place.....and lying is a sin and it will not be tolerated in God's eyes in the first place....so therefore, moral of the story: don't do stuff tt will make u regret due to laziness....coz u will tend to sin even more to cover ur own actions...and tt reminds mi of King David....who had sinned by laying with someone else's wife just becoz she was beautiful and her husband and was not ard....due to the war...and had committed even more sins just to cover tt up and also made his commanders to sin with him who just merely carry out his orders becoz they didn't noe wad his motive was...
so wad i learnt todae that we should be discearning when we help our friends....as in the sense....we should decide if doing a particular thing is right or wrong, pleasing to God or not and also...wad are the consequences are...for wad u do todae might seem ok...but in actual fact we be so blinded by lust, 'good friendship', so overcomed by sin and our hearts are so hardened that we can't distinguish wad 's good or evil...so we will sin...so we shuld guard our hearts against.....




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hu's tt???im not telling!!!!!wahahahahahahahahahahahahahha.....




sighz.....i feel so bad rite now....coz i sent msg to ppl then they never reply.....sigh...oh well. i dun like the board.....dunno was to do wif it...and onlie mi, julia and lydia's gonna do it...coz sam kwan, sam tan, linus and timmy can't make it and the rest never replied mi...sighz.....grrrr....sianz....


back....just came back frm small grp outing!!!heehee....yawnz...im tired...guess wad?onlie two ppl came....even tho there were ppl too lazy to come and and bz and for some reason or another...ya...like last yr outing to east coast park...ppl hu went in the end were shanely, lydia(both small grp leaders) and sam tan....this yr ppl hu went for todae's outing....moses, sam kwan and mi(co-small grp leader)....see the stark difference???(nvm if u can't see wad i was trying to point out...) haha.....in the end we went to town coz they were both in town i guess....haha....we went taka food court to eat and boy, they sure can eat alot! both of then had jap noodles each and sam had a tom yam soup with green curry rice with some vegetables while moses had a 'mini-steam boat wif rice'?haha...as for mi i had a chicken and prawn net spring roll with cold salad...when moses went to buy his jap noodles, came a super duper rude guy who just came over to take the chair which moses had sat and best part: he didn't even asked for permission if he could take that chair! wow... =p
then we were discussing about sat's message...which they were saying that it was quite boring and lengthy.. (i agree...) and some of her interprtations to the words used were not correct...and making us read wif emotions were treating us like kids and also telling the wrong info...like 'praying in grps make the prayer stonger' and stuff...and later we changed the topic to like wad more could the yf commitee do to like make us learn the things that they were trying to put across...(becoz someone there's in da commitee! =p) ya... and also discussing wad are the thing tt the yf commitee can do to improve the messages and programmes during yf lor....and wad i liked most during yf camp last year...coz it was my first camp... =p guess wad my reply was...i actuallie said i liked dorm skits most!!!!!wahahaha....wad was i thinking?? well...everything was fun actuallie...coz it was my first camp ma.....then didn't reallie noe anything... =p
so we decided not to take up the space there and to go sumwhere to tok...then as we were walking moses commented that my spects are exactly the same as his...except that the lens is different and his were more scratched...haha...actuallie...i changed the lens...so maybe if i didn't change my lens it would be the same huh?? wahahaha..... (wow! i didn't noe tt ppl would actuallie notice my spects...haha...)
ya...we headed over to heeran and then jalan at HMV....where they were looking at music...(not reallie my cuppa ot tea....coz i lost touch with the music world for quite some time...old and rusty...) and then headed over to the annex then ya...they were luffing at the ppl in ubran male becoz the ppl in there were very gay... (which i didn't reallie get their point...coz i never been into tt shop before...and they looked very normal to mi...coz of the ppl in my class can do even more evil things...haha) and then headed to spinelli where sam had sth like a fruit tea...and mi and moses had sky juice...haha..yea...i love sky juice...and they were kind euff to add me into their conversation...cos like wad are the common things u can say to a girl hu's like one year younger than your kid sis? haha...i think practically none rite?? i dunno....maybe that's for mi...but anyways...i won't have that experience....coz im the youngest in the family.... then's like 9 thirty when we left to head home....



hey...back...i todae went to paya leba- kovan community club to pick up some books....and inthe end.....i took more than 50 books back!!! haha.....anyway...that is not the main focus of the dae.... =p
the main focus todae (or to be exact...yesterdae...) was that i saw a cute guy at ikea...haha....and he's just so so so cute except his hair 'pom' the wrong way...!!!! best part...he was helping at the check out counter bagging our stuff...and he helped me to put the stuff into the trolley...and i did touch his hand 4 like half a second....haha....too bad...i nv ask 4 his no. hor...haha...
but the main point is that the staff of ikea are veri nice ppl!!! yepz...they are veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri nice and friendly ppl.....haha...
suddenly wan to just shop there everydae...coz of good atitude in the ppl and also the ikea restaurant sells veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri good and delicious food..... =p


ggggrrrrrrr....kk...im back....wif ppl telling mi tt i shuld update my blog again...well...im not in 'the clear state of mind' to write my blog...y??
coz im confused.....confused and confused and confused...
for wad reason???all becoz of sumthing called love and crushes and flirt....grr.....seems to sweep mi right into it just when i thought that everything was fine...
dunno...it's giving mi a headache..maybe can drop mi a line see how well i am and i apreciate tt...


backz....wif mi feeling abit sad?(i reallie can't explain my current tots...)well..i was thinking so wad f i got 6th for chem in the whole level?no one to share my joy of that...and ofcourse it has sort of like becoming meaningless even if i got first in the level...and no one to share...
the meaning of sharing here refers to family....cos everydae when i reach home, no one's home...until 10, 11 plus....by that time im like gg to slp..sighz...dun tell mi life's liaddat... =p so sick and tired of that...too bad...none of them is nv gonna see this coz they dun even noe i had a blog and like therefore they won't read this and noe how i felt everytime im down...
dunno....all of a sudden...just felt like crying...some ppl sae crying is good...it lets steam of all the unhappiness tt u have...and wil make ya feel betta after a good cry...but i dun think i will do that todae...
im just so sick and tired of this...crying won't make things betta and it will just stay the way it is before...and even if i do....does anyone see my tears??i noe God does...but i can feel that im losing my faith...and i reallie dun wan that to happen....seriously.
4 at the time moment i guess im like a lost sheep...hoping to find the light thru the mist and waiting to rejoin my fellow sheep and my Shepherd lors...
dunno...or maybe im not even lost....haha....im starting to feel betta by the time im typing till here...haha...guess all i need is to vent all my frustration ba..... =p